Preface-Goodbye
I just stood there. I didn't dare look down. I didn't want to lose myself like I had so many times before. I looked at all the people that stood there, looking down at what I didn't dare. Some were crying, some just standing there with blank expressions on their faces. I've seen all these people so many times in my 4 years of Highschool, but never have I seen them torn like this. I couldn't stand looking at them, not when they where like this. So I looked up. It was cloudy today. It was usual for Forks. But today, the weather was perfect for the occasion. Then, out of nowhere, a raindrop fell onto my cheek. I closed my eyes, and just let the rain fall on me. I didn't want to open my eyes, I didn't want to come back to reality. I could of stood there all day, eyes closed, just dreaming about what it would be like if none of this was happening. But the whistle blew, and I opened my eyes. Last chance. I thought. So I stepped forward and finally looked at the hard black coffin. I kneeled down by the coffin and sat my one red rose on the top.
"I'll always love you, and I'll never forget you." I whispered. Maybe he could hear me wherever he was now, maybe he couldn't. Oh well. I thought.
I stood up and the coffin started to lower into the ground. I watched it disappear, and like so many other times, I lost it. A broken sob escaped my lips, and I half screamed. I couldn't take it. I turned, and ran through the crowd. When I was free, I ran! I ran as fast as I could. I didn't know where I was going, I just went.
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Chapter 1-Don't Go…
Beep, beep. I heard the horn honk. That was the fourth time Jacob's honked his horn at me. I was really starting to get irritated. It was the night of graduation, and Jacoband I were at my house after the ceremony. I wanted to change before we went to the after party. Jacob decided to stay in the car. I've only been in the house for 10 minutes and he's already starting to honk the horn. How rude.
I ran down the stairs and grabbed my purse.
"Bye Charlie!" I yelled into the living room as I ran out the door. As I got to the driveway, I decided to walk down to the car instead of run, just to get on Jacob's nerves. I finally got to the car and got in. Before Jacob could complain, I turned around and kissed him. He was surprised at first, but that was soon replaced with passion. He put his hands on both sides of my face and kissed me back. Soon the kiss grew deeper. His tongue grazed my bottom lip, and I gladly aloud entrance. I molded my tongue to his, and with that one simple kiss, we started to make-out. Finally Jacob pulled away and smiled.
"We better get going." He said through a chuckle.
"Yeah, I guess. Or… we can stay here in your car and make-out some more." I said in my most seductive voice. He really looked like he was about to choose the second choice, but decided not to.
"No, we should go. Sam will kill us if we don't show up." He smirked
"Yea, right." I said sarcastically. He sighed, and started the car. We pulled out onto the road. I started to look outside, then I turned my gaze to Jacob. He was rocking his head to the music. He was so adorable sometimes. I was so lucky I had him. He must of saw me staring at him, because he turned his head to look at me. His lopsided grin appeared on his face. I smiled back. God, I love him!! I thought.
"What?" he asked, still smiling.
"Nothing, just checking out the view." I replied. His smile widened. He loved it when e complimented him. Man, he looks like an angel. I thought.
Wait… and now lights are appearing behind him. Hmmm… maybe he is an angel. I thought again. Wait… those are car lights!!
"JACOB!!" I screamed and pointed behind him.
"SHIT!!" and he slammed on the breaks, but it was to late. He turned to me.
"Bella…" he didn't finish. The impact was to fast. Too rough. I was out as soon as the truck hit us. Jacob!! No, I love you. Was my last thought before I lost consciousness.
I was 99.9 sure I was dreaming. Because first, I was sitting on my bed with Jacob, and second, both of us were fine. It was like the car wreck never happened. He smiled at me, his eyes shining.
"Jacob… what's going on?" I asked, sounding confused.
"What do you mean?" he asked his smile faltering.
"I mean, why are we here? Weren't we just in a car wreck?" I asked. His smile disappeared and he stared at me.
"Yeah, we were. But…" he trailed off.
"But what?" I edged. I was getting irritated. Why wasn't he giving me answers?
"But I didn't make it. I died as soon as the truck hit. And now I'm here…with you." He said.
I felt a tear fall down my cheek. How can he be dead? NO, he can't be!! I screamed in my head. Wait, if I'm here with him…
"Am… I… dead?" I whimpered. The tears started coming faster. He looked up at me, his eyes full of sorrow.
"Well, not yet. You're in the hospital right now. The doctors are trying to bring you back. You were brought in about 10 minutes ago." He said. Just then, I felt a surge go through my body.
"Clear!" I heard someone yell.
"What was that?" I asked
"The doctors. Your starting to wake up. That's why you can hear them." He said, sounding worried.
"I'm… leaving? What about you?" I wondered. I felt another surge.
"I'll stay here. I can't go back." He said, looking down.
"NO!! You have to come back!! You just have to!!" I screamed through sobs.
"It's okay. Don't cry." He said. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into him. He hugged me as I sobbed into his shoulder. That's when I noticed he was fading. I looked at him, confusion and worry filling my eyes.
"You're waking up." He whispered. I started to sob faster. Another surge.
"Clear!" No I'm losing time! I thought. I stopped crying for a minute and looked at Jacob. He was almost gone. He pulled me into him and kissed me fiercely, but with passion. Another surge, this one more distinct than the others. Jacob pulled away and placed his faded hand on my cheek.
"I love you, Bells. Don't forget me." And with that, he was gone.
"NOOOO!!" I shrieked. I fell back on the bed and sobbed. Another surge.
I looked down at my body. I was starting fade, just like Jacob. Another surge, this one stronger. It hurt, it felt like I was being electrocuted. I shut my eyes, as another electrocuted surge went through my body.
"Clear!!
Wait… she's coming back! Bella, Bella can you hear me?" a
female voice asked. My eyes fluttered open. The first thing was a
blinding light hanging over me. Then faces started to pop in front of
my face. Then, my feeling came back and I hurt! My body ached all
over! And finally my memories came flooding back, from the accident
to my dream of Jacob. Jacob… he's gone. I felt tears fall down my
face and I half screamed.
"Jacob, no!!" I screamed through my
broken sobs. The doctors gave me some medicine, that put me to sleep
so they could bandage and move me.
When I woke up, I noticed I was in a bright white room. I looked around and I saw my mom.
"Mom." I whispered, considering how that's all I could do. She looked up, her eyes red and swollen from crying. I felt a tear fall down my cheek as she came over and caressed my cheek. She smiled at me.
"Jacob?" I asked in a broken whisper. I already knew the answer, but I just wanted to make sure. Her smile disappeared as fresh tears rolled down her cheeks. She shook her head and mouthed NO. I closed my eyes and sobbed. Jacob, my Jacob…gone.
I hope you guys like this chapter and the story so far. This is my first fanfic.
So I hope you like my story. Please review if you like. It would be cool to know wat you guys think of the story. Chapter 2 coming soon. Be patient. : )