Hi, guys) I`m not sure that writing another story is a good idea, but I can`t help it. I promise that I`ll continue Take It All Away, but I needed something new. So this is it.
It takes place in Season 5. And I guess, this is slight AU in some places.
I hope you`ll like it!
Chapter 1
She couldn`t believe it. She just couldn`t accept it as fact.
Her head was spinning, and something painfully clenched inside. She was sick at the thought that she has no hope for pure happiness. She went through a lot. She did stand the most horrible pain. She had her heart broken. She healed her own heart. She simply couldn`t believe it's actually happened to her.
She has always dreamed of a family. She wants a man of her dream and wonderful kids. She wants a beautiful home. She is ready to give everything that she has, just to feel the taste of family happiness. And now... Now she has lost even the hope of creating a family. Everything collapsed.
And she hated herself. She hated herself for what was happening with her. Maybe she did something wrong? Maybe it's all the consequences of any of her past mistakes? This is a retribution for their deeds sins? Yes, she was not the best person in the high school. But, dammit, she tries to become better. She learned to think of the closest people in the first place, she learned to sacrifice, she learned to listen to other people, she learned to work hard and achieve everything by herself. And after all that she doesn`t deserve a small piece of happiness?
"Hey, whore, you have to learn how to shut the front door!" She jumped because of a loud sound from the downstairs, but couldn`t find strength to rise to her feet. "Hey, slut, where are you? I saw your bag on the couch, so hiding from me makes no sense!"
But the steel hoop squeezed her throat and didn`t let her to voice a single word. Her body throbbed from the pain in her soul, and the lack of oxygen scared her. Silent hysterics covers her body, squeezing every inch, and pain clenched her lungs. She couldn`t even make a normal breath.
"Brooke" the door opened, but Brooke didn`t even move.
Rachel froze when she saw her friend. Davis sat on the floor, her back was leaning against the wall, her head lowered, and her arms limp along her body so that the brush just rested on the floor. She called her by name, but Davis didn`t move.
"Shit." she quickly came to her, trying to get rid of the worst ideas. "Brooke, do you hear me?" Rachel grabbed her face in her hands and lifted it to meet her eyes. She sighed with relief when she saw that Brooke didn`t pass out. "Brooke, what happened? Come on, tell me honey, what happened? Don`t be silent."
Davis slowly looked at her, and a quiet sob broke from her lips. Rachel held her hands over her face, wiping the wet track from her tears and tucked brown locks behind her ears. God, if this is some stupid Bichtoria`s trick, then Rachel will kill her with her own hands! And no one dares to say even a word, because she`ll rid of the most nutty bitch on the planet.
"Come on, take a breath." Gatina whispers, stroking Brooke`s face with her hands. "Good girl, well, take another deep breath, honey. Just calm down, okay? You want some water?" Davis shook her head in response. "Okay, maybe you want to tell me what happened?"
"Rach... I... I-I.."
"Hey, slow down, okay?"
"I-I… I h-had a meeting with m-my doc…"
"Ok, I got it. You have your meetings with your doctor every year." Rachel sat on the floor next to her friend and took her hand into her own hands and squeezed it in a gesture of encouragement. "He said something bad? You're sick? Or... God, I don`t know what else it can be."
"I have one month, Rach." Davis sighed heavily and bit her bottom lip with her two teeth when a lump squeezed her throat.
"What the... What do you mean?" Rachel asked worriedly. And here it is. The thought about death in her head made her shiver. Oh, death. No, no, no, this is Brooke Davis! What the hell? Rachel tried not to lose control of her emotions.
"I have a month." Brooke sobbed again. "I have a month to get pregnant. Or, I will never have kids."
Rachel quickly pulled Davis into tight hug. Brooke hid her face on her friend`s shoulder, and her hands tightly clutched in her back. Gatina rocked her, `cause Brooke was shaking.
She`s not dying. That's good. But Rachel knows that Brooke wants to have a baby someday, that she wants to create a wonderful family. And now her dreams and her hopes are broken down under the pressure of life. And it`s cruel. One month? What a hell? All she has is a fucking month to take at least one attempt. But even Rachel won`t jump into the bed with the first guy for getting pregnant. Huh, heredity is such a heartless bitch.
"It`s okay." Rachel stroked her hair. "Everything will be fine. We`ll fix it. We`ll figure it out."
Rachel came into Brooke`s office and she wasn`t surprised by the picture in front of her. Davis was totally caught up in work and didn`t see anything that was happening around her. She didn`t even react to Gatina`s presence – sat and worked with her papers and documents, and sometimes took glance at a computer screen. Since yesterday evening they had not touched Brooke`s problem. But Davis can`t keep it in herself and concentrate on her work. They need to fix it. How do they fix it?
"Brooke, do you want to go somewhere?" Rachel asked. "You have a lunch break. Don`t tell me that you`ll continue to work. Your work is a pain in my ass."
"Sorry, I should finish these papers." Brooke says, not even raising his eyes.
"Fine." Gatina stepped closer to the young woman and squeezed between her and the table. "So," she put her hands on her hips , "a small cafe or the nice restaurant in the park blocks away? I would choose the restaurant because there is such a gorgeous waiter. And he always gives me such dirty glances ... mmm ... And your big ass soon will be too huge, so having a walk won`t hurt."
"Rach, I'm serious."
"Yeah, me too."
"I need to finish these papers, or Victoria..."
"Stop it right there!" Rachel cut her off. "Forget about work. Forget Victoria. Forget about everything. Let's go somewhere. Because we need to talk, but I don`t want these walls to put pressure on you. You` re working too hard, Brooke, and it`s not normal."
"What else can I do?" Davis yelled, pushed her chair back and stood up. "I have nothing right now. No chance, no hope, no faith. Okay, I have my job, and I will give all my strength to the business. This is the only possible option for me."
"You have a month" Rachel said.
"So what? Are you suggesting to catch some guy on the street and say, 'Hey, you know, I have to get pregnant, maybe you can give me a quick fuck?" Gatina couldn`t fight her laugh. "It's not funny. Because of frustration I can go and catch the men on the streets of New York. And then it will be really bad to everyone. And you will be in the worse position than all! Because you let me do this."
"Ok, quite with your pessimism. Take your purse. I saw a cute café on my way, so don`t make me wait. And no pathetic excuses, whore, or I'll drugg your ass out."
"So, tell me about your conversation with doc." Rachel asked, and made a small sip of her cappuccino.
"Most of my eggs are not viable." Brooke nervously crumpled a napkin. "My hormones seem to be quite normal, but the body just goes crazy. My periods are confused and all sorts of other things. To be honest, I don`t remember the biggest part of our conversation. When he said that the chances of total fertility by 25 years was big, I couldn`t concentrate on his words. I seem cursed, you know? Unsuccessful attempts to find the right man, unsuccessful attempts to have a normal family. As if everything that I touch, would be broken.
"Stop talking like that. Brooke, you're a wonderful woman. And you try to do everything right. And what the fuck with the `I have one month`?"
"My eggs will remain active for months. I this month will be the biggest chance of successful fertilization. Later there may be different complications that can affect my body and the body of the child." Brooke explained and sighed. "I don`t understand, why me? I don`t even have a boyfriend or a man to whom I can trust with it. And I don`t want to jump on everyone. This is insane, uurghh!"
"What about IVF?
"I don`t actually know. Doctor asked me about IVF and ICSI, but I'm not sure. I mean, this is an ideal option for me right now. They can`t correct the duration of subfertility, but it doesn`t affect the process. And if something goes wrong during the procedure? You know, IVF can also be used with egg donation or surrogacy. But this is not me. It won`t be me. I know, the child will grow inside of me, but the thought…"
"I understand. Brooke, think about IVF. It's not so bad." Rachel shrugged. "Your donor will be absolutely clean, so you don`t have to worry about the possible consequences. And medicine is now at a high level, so the possibility of any risk is miserable. Just think about it." Brooke nodded. "Okay, I'll go and buy our favorites donuts with chocolate. Wait for me."
"Sure."
Brooke put her elbows on the table and dropped her head on her hands. Her head ached from the hundreds of thoughts. Maybe she should tell Victoria about her problems? She is her mother, she should support her, to share her pain with her and give her some advice. But the relationships with her mother became even colder, and Brooke wasn`t sure that Victoria wants to hear something about her problems. Davis looked down at the cup of coffee that wasn`t even touched. Well, she is not pregnant and she can drink her coffee as much as she wants.
She closed her eyes tightly. She knew it was a shock. She doesn`t fully understand the whole situation. And Brooke was afraid of awareness. Because when it comes, then there will be no way back. Then reality will push her in the back. And no one will be able to help her keep a fragile world in her hands.
Maybe Rachel is right? Maybe, IVF is not so bad? Anyway this is her last chance. Medicine can actually do her a great favor. Many women have these procedures and give birth to beautiful and healthy kids, so why not? Being a single mother is the last thought that bothers her. She is strong. She can handle everything. And Rachel will always be there and help with any problems. But the possibility that the perfect man will fall down from the sky is just unreal. Almost supernatural.
"Brooke?"
She opened her eyes and looked up. Davis gasped and slowly rose from her chair. All the terrible thoughts immediately flew out of her head. Wow, she had forgotten what it's like to be under the gaze of those crystal blue eyes. She smiled and stepped closer to the man who called her.
"What are you doing here?" She asked, as Lucas Scott pulled her for the tight hug. Hell, he is much taller than she remembers.
"Actually, my book was published, and tomorrow I have a big meeting here."
"Oh, I didn`t know. Congratulations, Luke! It`s really great."
"I didn`t even hoped to meet you. I mean, New York is a big city, and Haley said you were stuck at work" Brooke smiled bitterly and lowered her head. "Hey, are you ok?"
"Yes" she nodded her head. "It's okay."
"Brooke Davis, you were always a horrible liar" Brooke couldn`t help it but noticed his worries look, but Lucas Scott was the wrong person for the sharing with her problems. But her lies always lose their power next to Lucas. Gosh, why he and why now?
"Okay, why don`t we meet and talk somehow? What do you think?" Davis shrugged. She just couldn`t bring herself to voice even a word. What the hell? "Maybe you'll come to my meeting? I don`t think it will take you for long. I hope that I'll be able to finish with all this early" he laughed. "And then we can go somewhere."
"I guess so" she smiled. No, now her thoughts in a totally different direction. And Lucas Scott plus her problem... It will be something very, very wrong!
"Oh, Brooke, I`ve missed you" Lucas hugged her again and she was not against it.
"I`ve missed you too" she murmured in a crook of his neck.
"I`m really sorry that I have to go. My editor is waiting for me right now. So, I hope I'll see you tomorrow?" She just nodded and he hugged her one more time for goodbye. Things are only getting more complicated. And here again...Why she? It`s like she just complicated her life with her own hands!
"Well-well" Brooke turned around and saw Rachel. The devilish smile was on Gatina`s face, and Brooke didn`t like it. Oh, he really didn`t like it!
"You better think twice before you open your mouth and tell another crazy idea, Rachel."
So, how is it?
Should I continue my story?
R\R