Un-understandable

Bella POV

I can't just sit here, I have to tell him, it's not fair for me to lie to him too, it'll only hurt him more when he eventually finds out about them, and when he learns I knew all along, he'll be furious and distraught, so if I don't say anything, it'll be my fault if he gets hurt, he'll find out a harder way than his best friend telling him. I don't know how I could tell him.

Me: Hey Edward

Edward: Oh, Bella, hey, what's up?

Me: Nothing much, I got an A on the essay for history, I got a 88 on the math test, my parents are splitting up, oh and your girlfriend's cheating on you. What about you?

Edward: …

Yeah, that's the right way to go about this. He's not stupid, I shouldn't try and hide it, or bring up other things, I should just tell him, straight out, no bullshit, no lies, no emotions.

If it's that easy, then why can't I start the car?

Don't you hate that annoying little voice of reason at the back of your head, and the other one called a conscious, I prefer the one called impulse, but it usually gets me into trouble, and that's when reason comes in. Sometimes, those little voices hurt, because those little truthful reason and conscious voices are annoyingly honest. At least impulse is just ideas, not real thoughts, they don't process for long enough for the other two to speak. They usually gang up on me, see?

"Screw it." I mutter to myself and speed off in my mother's car to Edward's family beach house, where he is staying for 3 more days with his family. I was invited but I was too scared to ask my parents for anything, in fear of making them worse. I wasn't sure they were divorcing, but that word had been tossed about a lot lately in their screaming matches.

Hopefully my other best friend, Alice would talk some sense into me, whether that would be stopping me or encouraging me. I was pretty sure she knew about Tanya screwing the other guys around town or at least had suspected, she knew everything, but I doubt she would tell Edward, she would be too scared of him getting mad at her just because she was the messenger that it would ruin their relationship and she would be blamed, she would be too scared to see he had to know. The longer it went on, the more it would hurt him. I found out two nights ago there was a rumour going around about it, but as we live in a small, gossip hungry, exaggeration queen infested, tiny town of Forks, I decided to ignore it until there was proof, then suddenly, boom. I walk in on Tanya fucking one of Edwards good mates Tyler Crowley. They didn't even see me, well Tyler did, but only as I rushed out shocked, he caught a glimpse of someone shutting the door quietly, but judging from the continuation of moans and other disturbing noises, it didn't worry him.

The car rolled slowly to a halt on the gravel outside the beautiful house and I jumped out and ran to the porch, rapping on the door swiftly. It was 2.58am. I bit my lip, Esme would not be happy I was there at this kind of time, but I had no other choice. Hopefully someone could comfort him, usually I would do that best, but although we were best friends, Alice's fear of saying something would be accurate, he would most likely be mad with whoever told him.

However much I hated making him mad, it was too cruel to prolong a dead, unhealthy relationship, which I could help either fix or stop before he fell in love, but from what I could see, he already liked her a lot, too much for my liking she's always been a slutty gold digger, with a bad reputation for smoking and alcohol, trying to be cool, coming off as a stuck up bitch, and being incredibly stupid and looking it too, she gets through life and school by flashing her huge boobs, which I know for a fact were a boob job. Disgusting, but true. I loved Edward too much to keep this from him, it would make me feel as bad as she should, but won't. She'll only be pissed if they break up, she'll fake cry, but hopefully for once he won't do what she says. Only once have I seen him refuse to do what she says, but he still makes an effort, he never did it fully, but he didn't flat out say no either, which hurt a lt. She wanted him to stop seeing me, we were best friends, and I was in love with him, but no one knew, she was jealous of every female who talked to Edward for more than 2 minutes, with the exception of Esme and Alice. That was only because they are related though.

Jasper was staying with the Cullens this weekend, but Rosalie had also tagged along, she is another of my best friends, Jasper is her cousin, he's Edward's best friend and Alice's crush, what she didn't know was he was totally in love with her, and was waiting for a perfect moment to ask her out. Me and Jasper are also great friends, but me and Edward are the closest, because the others feel like brothers and sisters, Edward feels different than a brother, more than a best friend, and still although I was falling in love with him, I couldn't see him as a lover, because he would never love me back in any other way than sisterly. Emmett, Edward and Alice's adopted brother, had a thing for Rosalie, but she was completely oblivious to how he felt, but clearly there was chemistry, and I knew for a fact at the very least she had a small crush on him. She blushed whenever he looked at her. It was very cute, all my best friends had a real love story with a happy ending, they all loved each other back, but Edward asked me about girls, he asked me for help, and comforted me when I needed it, he was my best friend, but he was so much more, and there was so much he would never be because he only felt the best friend connection.

Esme opened the door in her dressing gown and saw me standing nervously on the door, and let me in with a warm smile and a swift hug.

"You're freezing Bella, come in, do you want some hot chocolate?" she said kindly.

"No thank you Esme, sorry to wake you, but I have to tell Edward something important. I couldn't wait any longer, he really has to know." I said apologetically. She looked surprised and hopeful.

"Don't worry dear, I was awake anyway, but can you please tell me what he has to know that was so urgent?" she smiled.

"Sorry Esme, but I really have to tell him first. I'm sure you will figure it out from his reaction though." I said the last bit quieter, paling.

"Are you okay Bella? Do you need to lie down?" she asked worried.

"I'm fine thanks Esme, I just really have to talk to Edward." I said anxiously she nodded and walked into the kitchen giving me another warm hug. I walked into Edwards room, knowing which was his by the quiet music echoing around. I knew he was thinking, he always thought deeply late at night with music on.

I knocked lightly and walked in. "Hey Edward." I said softly.

"Bella!" he said surprised, a smile spreading across his face like I made his day. "What are you doing here?" I asked.

I heard Esme's voice through the open door coming down the hallway. "I really think she's going to tell him, it's so obvious, I can't believe it's taken so long."

"Finally! Oh, would it be terrible to listen?" I heard Carlisle's voice reply.

Edward hadn't heard, so I shut the door and sat next to him on the bed.

"I came to tell you something. It's big, and I felt like you had to know, I found out earlier tonight, and I was going to wait until you got back, but I didn't want you to find out in the wrong way, and also I felt like I couldn't sleep until you knew, so here I am." I said quickly.

He looked confused. "Go ahead." He said and rubbed my shoulder encouragingly, I took comfort in his touch and his gentle smile which would soon disappear and took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but Tanya is cheating on you. I was picking Angela and Ben up from a party and I walked into a room upstairs when I couldn't find them, and Tanya was well… doing it with Tyler." I said nervously, but rapidly. His frown deepened and his froze. He then sighed and then stood up. I looked up at him from the bed.

"Bella, I know you dislike Tanya, I don't know why, but I trust her, and I can't believe you would make up something like this for such petty reasons." He said in a disappointed tone.

"Excuse me? I am not lying! I can't believe you would accuse me of that! I wouldn't do that to you! I know how much it would hurt you, I care about your feelings, unlike her who has been cheating on you, as well as using you!" I replied my voice raising.

"Isabella, I am giving you one chance to apologise for that, and we can forget you ever did this, or I am going to get mad." He said in a cold voice that clearly said he was pissed and didn't believe me.

"As much as I would love to indulge your childish fantasy of everyone having good in them, I won't apologize! I am telling you the truth here Edward, I didn't want you to hear it from someone you don't even like as a rumour, then not believe it until you walk in on her being her slutty self and getting hurt worse!" I yelled.

"Oh? I'm the childish one huh? At least I am not jealous! You're just jealous of Tanya because I love her and she has a large place in my life and that frightens you! You see her as competition you have to wipe out so you can be my friend still! Grow the hell up and stop being so damn petty! Tanya hasn't done anything wrong! We are in love and if you can't respect that, then get the fuck out my house!" he screamed right back. I was crying by this point and I got up and ran out the house, he followed me to the porch furious.

"Edward you are such a fucking idiot! I can't believe you choose me over her! We have been best friends since we were kids! I have never lied to you about anything! Why can't you see how stupid you're being! I love you too much to hurt you over something petty, why can't you understand that? Don't you remember when we were younger, you swore to me, you would never hurt me, you would always believe me, you would never let anyone get in the way of our relationship? Don't you remember how you vowed to keep me safe and how whatever happened, you would always love me. You promised me Edward! That you would never choose someone over me! That we would never drift apart!" I screamed. "So why did you let Tanya drive a wedge between us, why did you avoid me when she asked you to, why do you distance yourself from me more and more every day? Why have you changed to suit her? Why have you always done whatever she wanted, no matter the consequence, giving up anything she wanted you to, even me? Why the hell won't you believe me? I yelled, my voice breaking as I cried. "Why do you try and hurt me more every single second!"

"Because you're pathetic! You're jealous and clingy and petty, you're a liar with no life, you're a loser who has nothing better to do than be horrible to my girlfriend, instead of being happy for me! Instead of supporting me, you choose to do the opposite and try and break us up for your own selfish fucking reasons!" he bellowed. "I thought we had more than that, I thought you cared for me, but clearly not! Get out my life, I hate you!"

That's it, I broke. I wiped my tears and looked him in the eye defiantly, sticking out my chin. "You know what? Fine, follow her around, waste your time on her. Screw up your life, let her tear you to pieces, influence you into smoking, sex, alcohol. Fuck up everything you have, lose everyone who cares, but I'm not going to stick around and watch you do it for any longer." I said angrily and loudly, full of emotion. He turned around and stormed inside, I saw him push past everyone to get there, they were all looking at me with sympathy in their eyes. I closed the door of my car and started it up, driving off quickly. Alice started yelling after me, and began to run after the car, waving at me to stop, but I ignored her, going faster, letting them fade in the side mirror.