So, this is my very first When Calls The Heart fanfic I've ever writen... I know, im not very good. This is in no way proof read. I want to know what you guys think! You might know me from my Instagram account @jabeth_forever. Let me know what you think!

It felt like I knife went through my chest. I couldn't breathe, it can't be true. No, Jack, no, my beloved jack. He can't be dead.

Hope Valley, 1915, Elizabeth Thornton and Abigail Stanton were just leaving Carson Shepherd's birthday party to go get his present when a Mountie rode up in the darkness.

I, thinking it was jack, ran up to meet him. I was disappointed to realize it wasn't jack. The Mountie asked where he could find Elizabeth Thornton, I froze, why would this Mountie be looking for me? I spoke up, "I'm Elizabeth Thornton." The Mountie didn't say anything he just took off his hat, with a sad face on. I asked, "Is he hurt?" No ma'am, he replied, "just tell me he's alive." "I'm sorry."

All I could I do was scream his name. It felt like I knife was ripping through my heart. I felt like I was suffocating, I couldn't breathe. I could feel the hard dirt road underneath me. Abigail trying to get me to stand up, I couldn't. Was he really gone? We weren't even married for two months. He can't really be gone. No, he can't.

I stood up, looked at the Mountie and asked," are you sure it was Jack?" The Mountie replied, " Constable Thornton, went to train new recruits in the mountains. We got separated from him and few others, we looked and looked, we never found them. We assume he's dead."

"No, he can't be. Jack knows how to survive in the wilderness if he needed to."

" ma'am with all do respect, they could of never survived in the cold."

"Constable, I would know in my heart if he was dead. Where were they last seen?"

"Near Alcurt Falls, about 20 miles out of town."

"We will start there, then."

"Ma'am, we will never be able to find them. We already tried."

"We need to try again, I will not sit here, and believe my husband is dead, when he could very much be alive. We will leave a day break."

"Abigail, help me gather men to come with."

"Elizabeth, I will come with you too."

"Thank you Abigail."

And with that we all did what we needed to do to prepare for our journey. I for one, went home for things that I would need to take, Abigail suggested to not to wear a dress, it would only slow me down.

I found a pair of Jack's old pants that sorta fit, a bit long, and to big in the waist, a piece of rope could easily fix that though. I didn't sleep very well that night. Mostly I was praying that he was alive and that I would find him. I didn't know how long I would be gone for, so I asked Rosemary to take over for me at the school. Thank God for Rosemary, I don't know what I would do without her. And with that I fell into a fitful sleep, we would ride out in the morning.