Title: If I'm losing you
Author: Bite Beccy
Summery: What if the unthinkable happens? What if one of our loved one dies? CHARACTER DEATH!
Pairing: Harm/Mac
Disclaimer: Not mine! The song belongs to Left eye.
A/N: I don't know if Mac's catholic but for the sake of the story, she is. RR
"I'm sorry Mac," Harm whispered.
"No Harm, don't say that! You've got to believe! You'll make it. You'll see." Mac said while she pressed harder on the bullet wound, the tears falling from her eyes.
"No Mac, I won't. You know I won't."
Sometimes I can't find the words to explain exactly how I feel
Cause it's deep, real deep
And I just hope that you can see how deep it is by listenin' to this song
"Yes you will flyboy! Don't let me down," she breathed a shaky breath. "I love you," she whispered.
Harm lifted his arm and laid his hand on Mac's cheek. "I love you too Sarah. Don't you ever forget that."
Now let me open up my heart
And let you read just what I wrote
When you had took them final steps of death and left my heart broken in two
But you had to damn
I wish that I could have a talk with the Eternal Man
I wish that you was here with me right now holdin' my hand
I feel I can't go on and don't nobody understand
Its makes me wonder why
And if I have to die
Why is this my biggest fear?
I can only look above and just let heaven wipe my fears
Harm slowly dropped him arm to lie beside his bloody body. Mac's tears were so thick that she couldn't see anything. She brushed them away angrily with the back of her hand. The blood mixing with her tears.
Cause if I'm losing you
And if I'm losing you
To whom will I confide, who will hear my cry
And if I'm losing you
Then will you see me through
Through the day through the night
Though you're gone will you stay
By my side
The wails of an ambulance were heard and Mac's heart jumped from hope. "Hear that, Harm? They're coming. Just hold on"
"I can't hold on much longer Mac. It's hurts so much." Harm's whispers getting softer with each syllable that he spoke.
That all my nieces wanna talk to the Lord my father
Thanks for blessing me when the others didn't bother
Life goes on, got to stay strong
Hardly done some wrong
But hardly done some right
Two will cross a lonely night
To who's in my heart nobody knows the pain
A chance to hide it
Holding back my tears
A chance to fight it
But it's buildin'' up inside of me this heavy load
Help me Lord before I explode
Please take my soul
"Ma'am, you need to move."
Mac looked behind her to see the medics standing there. She separated herself from Harm. Time seemed to slow down. In what seemed like five hours to Mac, though in reality only had been five minutes, Harm had been loaded into the ambulance and a medic was helping Mac into the ambulance.
Cause if I'm losing you
And if I'm losing you
To whom will I confide, who will hear my cry
And if I'm losing you
Then will you see me through
Through the day through the night
Though you're gone will you stay
By my side
One loud beep woke Mac up from her trance and she started to worry again. The Medics started to work on Harm as Mac just stared on, not being able to do anything to save her flyboy. "Come on, Harm," she said under her breath. "Don't do this is me, please. I love you."
See I don't know if I could say goodbye to yesterday
Cause when you leave and go to heaven it's so far away
And I can't even stop to think to wipe my tears away
But maybe He thought it was best for you to come and stay
What can I say?
Just keep your peoples close to you
So you can cherish every memory they stood through and stood true
So if you meet that crossroad
Then you could say that you opened up your heart
And just let heaven wipe your tears away
Harm's heart began to function again just as they neared the entrance to the hospital. The medics rushed in the hospital telling the nearest doctor of Harm's condition. A nurse neared Mac and handed her the papers that had to be filled out and Mac gave the nurse the numbers of people Mac thought should be contacted.
Cause if I'm losing you
And if I'm losing you
To whom will I confide, who will hear my cry
And if I'm losing you
Then will you see me through
Through the day through the night
Though you're gone will you stay
By my side
Mac filled out the papers trying to take her mind off what was going on in the other room. All too soon the papers were finished and Mac felt like her heart was going to pop out in worry.
And if I close my eyes at night will I see you in heaven?
And if the Lord takes my life I hope I see you in heaven
Just wipe those tears away that felt today
And when He comes be prepared for a brighter day
Take me away
The Admiral, Bud and Harriet came rushing into the emergency room with little AJ in tow. They spotted Mac slouched on a chair. She looked horrible. The blood on her hands would be nearly impossible to wash off as it had already dried. Somehow, the blood had also landed on her hair.
"Ma'am?" Bud asked. "How is he?"
And if I close my eyes at night will I see you in heaven?
And if the Lord takes my life I hope I see you in heaven
Just wipe those tears away that felt today
And when He comes be prepared for a brighter day
Take me away
Mac looked up to see her closest friends standing before her. The tears still running steadily down her face. "I don't know," she said shakily. "They haven't come out of surgery."
Cause if I'm losing you
And if I'm losing you
To whom will I confide, who will hear my cry
And if I'm losing you
Then will you see me through
Through the day through the night
Though you're gone will you stay?
By my side
They all sat down in the chairs closest to Mac. "Where's Sturgis?" Mac's voice seemed like a little girl's as she voiced the question.
"He's on his way. He was about to board a planeto Florida on an investigation." The Admiral answered.
Mac looked down at her hands and could see all the dried blood. Harm's blood.
"Relatives of Commander Harmon Rabb Junior?" The doctor asked. They all stood up. Mac's knee's felt wobbly but she HAD to know.
"I love you Harm," she whispered very quietly.
I'm losing you
(and I hope that you can see how deep it was by listenin' to the words of this song)
Oooooh yeah
Oooooh I'm losing you
Wooo oooo yeah
(please stay babe, please stay. I wanna see you, aah yeah)
"He didn't make it. I'm sorry"
When you're far away there's nothing I can say
Hope will bring for a brighter day
And if there's a way
For you to stay
Stay in my life oh forever
I'm losing you
Oooooh yeah
If I'm losing... (You)
"Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"
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