Disclaimer: I don't own Tale Of Two Cities
I want to tell him that it's alright. I want to tell him that I'm alright. I am free from the pains of hunger and the sorrows that they see every day. I want to tell him one day he too will join me. Death is not the end. It is only the beginning. There is no cold. There is no screaming. There is laughter. There is calm.
I long to tell him that I am at peace and with my Heavenly Father. I want to tell him I have made friends in Heaven. I want to tell him the days are full with laughter and the nights are full with peace. It is like having a bad day fade into a feeling of utter joy and Euphoria. That is the one and only good thing about having a bad day. It's end is in sight and when it's over it turns into something good. Poppa used to tell me, "Never fear a bad day son... look forward to the bright days ahead".
I want to tell him that this was bright days ahead. My time had come and gone and now I was at perfect harmony with the world my Heavenly Father has created in a perfect sense of everything right. There is only one thing about this place that is imperfect. I cannot reach the ones I love. They will be with me one day however and I take comfort in that. Please know, my beloved family that the carriage that ended my life did not end me. I'm still alive. Every time you hear the wind blow that is me singing brother a lullaby. Every time the rain falls that is me 'ruining sister's date.' Every time you see a rainbow that is me showing you the beauty of the world that still is in it. They are burying my body in the ground now and for a moment I forget where I am. For a moment I feel scared. But then I am brought out of that by my friend's laughter. My dad is screaming as he lets me out of his arms and gently places me in the ground. He kisses my head and whispers something to me. I know that it's hard for him but I'm not in the ground. My body is not me. It was my soul keeping me alive. But my dad feels like I'm gone for good. I'm not. I never will be gone for good. My body was dead but I was here.