The Only One
How many moments can you point to in your life and say; that's when it all changed?
It was his eyes. Those sparkling emerald green eyes that I could just stare into forever. The first time they locked with mine, something clicked into place.
Contrary to popular belief, there was a time when Nate looked at me first, not Serena. There was a time when he walked over to me first, a time when he barely acknowledged her presence.
That didn't last long though. It never did with Serena. The girl that glows, the girl that talks and her opinion is valued on everything, be it fashion, music, politics or love.
Love.
Serena didn't need Nate. Not like I needed him anyway, she could pick him up and throw him away again and he'd always come running back to me. And then he'd wrap his arms around me and the rest of the world would just melt away. Me and Nate; that was all that mattered. Serena's a free spirit, me? Not so much. Not when Eleanor Waldorf is your mother. The woman can't grasp the concept of what it is to be free. You can choose anything but your family though, right?
I couldn't help falling in love with Nate. I couldn't help needing Serena in my life.
It's hard, choosing between the two loves of your life, the best friend and the boyfriend. The guy that enthrals you every time he looks at you, and the girl who is always there, no matter how bad it gets or how much I push her away, she comes back.
They both do.
The day I married him was a push too far. We stood there, in front of our friends and family, all the people in my life who mattered and we both wrote vows and we both said "I do."
Sometimes I wonder if Nate really meant those two words.
When I glanced over at the best man I wondered if I meant them.
I miss Serena, and if I could ever have her in my life again; I would never let her out of it. But she wanted my guy. Nathaniel Archibald was my past. He's my present, and he will be future. Always had been, always would be…
It's hard, choosing between the two loves of your life.
Sometimes I wonder if I've made the right choice.
It was his eyes, those sparkling emerald green eyes that locked with mine when we were fifteen; and ever since I could never bring myself to look away. Something fell into place. Now here I am twenty years later, and I look into them and…
All of a sudden I'm reminded I've made the right choice. He's the only one for me.
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I know its short and not my best, I was just in the mood for writing some NB. Reviews are more than welcomed (: