It's always been only you for me

AN: This story starts off where Chapter 16 of My New White Knight left off. I promise you will have some J&H but Hyde has some serious making up to do for marrying a stripper. Hope all you Jackie and Hyde fans enjoy this story!

Hospital in Chino, California

Jackie and Ryan holding hands walking down the hall of the hospital towards his mother's room.

"Jackie, you didn't have to come" He told her as he stopped walking and she took his other hand in hers but he could see the hurt in her eyes. "It's just that Chino is nothing like Point Place as you can see" Ryan began as Jackie gave him a small loving small moving in closer to him.

"How could I not? Even though my parents have never been there for me except for buying me stuff if they were sick or hurt it would be hard. I would want you there with me and I want to be here" Jackie explained to him then he leaned down kissing her softly.

"I am glad that you are here" He admitted to his girlfriend who smiled at him. "There is something that you should know my mother is here for an overdose and she is also an alcoholic" Jackie looked at him understandingly.

"My mother is an alcoholic too and both of our father's are in prison." Jackie said to him shrugging causing him to smile at her. "Not to mention we are both gorgeous"

"I am really lucky to have you" He told her causing her to grin at him.

"You are damn lucky" Jackie agreed as Ryan just smiled at her. "Come on let's go see your mom" They walked until they found her room and Ryan stopped at the door unable to enter. Jackie squeezed his hand as he turned to look at her then they entered the room. Jackie saw Ryan's mother was laying in her hospital bed hold a baby in her arms smiling happily as a gorgeous Hispanic girl sat in a chair next to the bed smiling at her.

"He is just too adorable" His mother said cooing at the infant in her arms.

"Theresa" Ryan said stopping in his tracks looking completely stunned to see her. Jackie eyes flew to Ryan's ex-girlfriend sitting next to his mothers bed side then to the baby in Ryan's mother's arms.

"Ryan" Theresa said looking very nervous and just as surprised as to see him. "I..I thought you were living in Wisconsin" She managed to get out.

Jackie felt as dread and panic hit her as she jumped to a conclusion in at the scene. She looked at her boyfriend who was still stunned as his eyes flickered from Theresa to the baby in his mother's arms.

"I'm sorry, Theresa. He deserves to know" Dawn Atwood apologized to her then looked over at her son. Jackie felt as though the room was spinning and Ryan's hand was the only thing holding her in place.

"I deserve to know what?" Ryan asked them not sure whether to look at Theresa or his mother. It felt like hours had passed to Jackie and Ryan before she answered.

"To know your son" Theresa said to him in a soft voice as Jackie felt Ryan's hand go limp in hers. Jackie took a deep breath waiting for the sheer pain to hit her knocking her to the ground as she tried to grasp what was happening. She felt sadness, anger and denial flow through her as her eyes began to tear up.

"Ryan, I will be in the cafeteria. You two should talk" Jackie said finding her voice as Ryan looked over at her.

"I'll meet you down there" Ryan said to her squeezing her hand softly and she nodded at him. Jackie walked out of the room not looking back hurrying off quickly trying to stop all of her thoughts but couldn't. She made her way to the stair well throwing open the door and shutting the door then leaned against it closing her eyes while tears fell down her face.

"No, no" She cried softly as she slid to the ground. The pain rushed threw her now at her life falling apart once again.

Bar in Point Place

"Another beer" Hyde called to the bartender then drank the rest of his beer quickly. He was finally feeling a little numb then he heard her voice.

"Well what do you know?" Red said looking nudging Hyde and pointing to the television in the bar. "Jackie's old show is on" Hyde looked at the screen seeing Jackie's beautiful face.

"You have got to be kidding me?! Can you change the channel?" Hyde called out in an angry voice to the bartender as he walked over to him handing him a beer.

"What's your problem, man?" He asked him as Hyde looked annoyed then looked at the television. "Oh, she's your ex, huh?" Hyde eyes flew to Travis the bartender looking shocked. Travis had long dark hair and a beard wearing jeans and black t-shirt. "I'm a bartender I know these things"

"Hey, Steven. I forgot I promised Kitty I would take her to the movies. I can pick you up just give me a call" Red told him. "You are in no condition at all to drive" He said paying their bar tab.

"I will make sure he doesn't drive" Travis said to him as Hyde nodded at him. Red patted Hyde on the back and left.

"He is the worst liar" Hyde said to Travis who nodded in agreement. A moment of silence passed and Hyde glanced at the television. "How did you know?"

"I have seen my share of guys in here with girl problems but I know that look. In fact I had that look myself" He told Hyde as he wiped off the bar.

"Let me guess. You two are now married with kids and extremely happy." Hyde guessed before taking a big drink of his beer.

"Actually she is married but not to me" Travis said sighing as his eyes clouded over for a moment with sadness but it disappeared quickly. "That was all so long ago. Let's talk about Jackie" Hyde sat there staring at the bar. Just when Travis went to walk away Hyde spoke.

"I messed up bad before and she took me back. But I married a stripper when I was blacked out in Las Vegas" He said as Travis looked at him with wide eyes. "Yeah, I know it is pretty much unforgivable. I don't think it would make her feel better that she was already married or even the fact I thought I was marrying Jackie not her."

"I won't be easy but it can be done" Travis said to him while Hyde looked at him like he had lost him mind. "You never know till you try. I didn't try and the woman I love is married to someone else." He said to him then poured a shot of whiskey for Hyde and one for himself. "This one is on the house." He told him then held up his glass then they took the shot.

An hour later at the bar

Hyde has six shots upside down in front of him as he drinks a beer then looks over at Travis.

"Travis, why didn't you ever try to call her or talk to her?" He asked him curiously.

"I ask myself that question everyday. My foolish pride back then seems so ridiculous now" He said to him. "I would hate for you to end up were I am because trust me you don't want to"

"She has moved on already trust me. Her and her new boyfriend live together and they are in California visiting his sick mother" He said to him. "I messed up her life enough I don't want to mess up her life anymore"

"I have been where your are" Travis explained to him. " A few years after she got married I ran into her and we had lunch. We just did the small talk for awhile but then she laughed at how silly she was years ago. She had thought when I heard she was engaged that I would have shown up on her doorstep telling her she couldn't marry him."

"The next shot is on me" Hyde said to him grimacing at the story. They took another shot of whiskey together. "What I am supposed to do? Tell her that I can't pretend that I don't love her anymore that no one else could ever compare to her. That my mind can only picture a life with her and no one else" Hyde said to him not able to stop the word flowing out of his mouth.

"Yeah. Trust me it's better then hearing that she wanted you to come to her and you didn't. The stubborn people are the losers in love and trust me on this. Don't be like me, kid" He said to him.

"Hyde" He said holding out his hand and Travis shook it smiling at him.

"Well, Hyde. I hope you take my advice on this" He told Hyde who finished his beer.

"I better call Red. Thanks" He said standing up handing him the cash for his bar tab.

"Here call from our phone" Travis said grabbing the phone and handed it to him.

Evening the Pinciotti's House

Donna hurried to the front door looking annoyed as the front door bell rang repeated. She threw open the door to see Jackie in tears then she threw herself into Donna as she cried. Donna held Jackie tightly hugging her while her best friend began sobbing in her arms.

"It's ok" Donna said softly to her. "Let's go up to my room" She felt Jackie nodding in her arms. Donna pulled her into the house shutting the door behind them and lead her up to her room. She hated seeing Jackie this upset but she knew that they were ok again which made her feel relieved to have her best friend back.

Once they made it to Donna's room Jackie collapsed on the bed sobbing and Donna sat next to her as Jackie's back was facing her.

"Jackie , what happened?" She asked rubbing her back soothingly while her friend cried. After a few moments Jackie stopped sobbing and took a deep breath.

"Ryan's ex girlfriend had his baby and didn't tell him. We walked in on her with his mother holding his son" Jackie said in a soft voice causing Donna to take a deep breath herself as her heart broke for her friend.

"God Jackie, I'm so sorry" Donna said to her wishing she could take away her heartache.

"I deserve it, Donna" Jackie confessed to her as Donna got up off the bed walking to the other side of the bed to look her in the eye.

"NO, you do not deserve this!" Donna stressed to her looking her friend in the eyes. "Do you want me to kick his ass or hers? Because I am a giant and I can do it" Donna teased her as Jackie gave her a smile as tears fell down her face.

"Thanks" Jackie said to her. "I got off the plane and this was the only place I could imagine going." Donna gave her a small smile.

"I am glad you came here" She told the petite brunette who laid on her bed with tears still running down her face.

"Me too" Jackie told her then took a deep breath. "Donna, it hurt finding out Theresa had Ryan's baby but" She began then stopped but Donna waited patiently for her to finish. "But it did not hurt as much as finding out Steven cheated on me or married that whore." She finished in a soft voice. "Why can't I stop loving him, Donna?" She asked her.

"I know exactly how you feel. No matter what I can't stop loving Eric" Donna said to her sympathetically.

"I missed you, lumberjack" Jackie told her making Donna smile at her.

"I missed you too, midget" Donna said back making Jackie give her a small smile.

AN: I loved writing this so I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it! Please review! I promise there will be some J/H love in upcoming chapters. I borrowed Travis but you will see where from soon!