Disclaimer: I don't own Total Drama or Feel Again by OneRepublic.
I am . Strong silent star. Never looked at a girl twice. High school heartthrob. Unapproachable. Blunt. Cold -blooded. Apathetic.
I didn't believe in love. I watched my parents' relationship fall apart before my eyes. I watched them fight, scream, cry, and divorce. I watched my mother fall into depression. I was six. If that was what love was, then I didn't need it. I didn't want it.
Up until sophomore year I got by with three best friends, straight As, and no girlfriends even though more than enough were willing. I watched my friends go on dates while I studied for my upcoming tests. Love was a distraction.
Then you moved in. Gwen Dixon. Even the name is beautiful. I don't know why, but you caught my eye. You had something other girls didn't. You had confidence in your stride. You were real and straightforward. You didn't try hard. And I started feeling something I'd never felt before.
I didn't even fight it. I approached you. Got to know you. I even let you in. I admit it, I fell for you hard.
And when I told you I liked you, you said you liked me back. And I smiled. A real, genuine smile. One that I hadn't shown in years.
Then a few weeks later when we kissed, my heart burst with something new. Warmth. Life. Light. Love.
"I reach out trying to love but I feel nothing,
My heart is numb
But with you
I can feel again…"