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Also I don't know if I should continue the story, please review...

It had been two years since the titans had split up. Beastboy and terra were going to get married, cy and bumblebee headed off in the same direction but were taking things a little slower, starfire decided to return home to Tamaran and reclaim her role as leader, and Robin went back to Gotham as Nightwing to help with crime there….. Raven just sat in her now cold bath tub taking another drink from her bottle then crying more into the bathwater then taking another sip. She had no life outside of the titans, she became the owner of a large library but never worked there, she paid others to do that. She had no life, and her library barely paid her enough to sustain herself. The little money she had left went toward groceries and rent, but lately she wasn't very hungry and instead of buying food she just got beer and a few apples. She ate one apple a day but that was it, other than beer she had nothing really. She was plagued with depression since the day the titans split up. To fit in with normal people she dyed her hair black and took off the gem she used to always wear, but she never really felt normal. She took another sip of her beer. Today was a very sad day for her, it not only was the two year anniversary of her old team disbanding but today she had seen Nightwing in action. She guessed that's what she gets for moving to Gotham, but he looked directly into her eyes and he didn't recognize her. She sighed as she took another sip of her beer emptying it. She had been sitting in this bath for probably 4 hours now. She knew she had to get out eventually so she stood up, dried herself off, and got dressed. She grabbed her now empty beer bottle and exited the bathroom. She walked over to the kitchen in just her bra and underwear and quickly threw out her bottle. She then went into the pantry to grab another. She grabbed them out from their hiding place in the back shadows of the closet. She grabbed a bottle and popped open the cap, she sighed and took a quick chug from the bottle.

"So, I guess you remember what today is to?" she heard a voice in the shadows say. She could recognize that voice anywhere, it was Robin or now called Nightwing.

No, it couldn't be, she thought to herself she was just drunk. "Oh great, now I'm the fucking crazy drunk person who hears voices in her head." she mumbled to herself taking another swing from her bottle, but to her surprise Nightwing stepped out of the shadows. She was hallucinating she told herself, waiting for the vision to go away. So she took another chug from the bottle.

"Raven I'm real," he stepped forward toward her and grabbed her hand and put it to his top right of his chest letting her feel his heartbeat. She started crying, again. "I've missed, you." He told her.

"No you didn't, you chose to leave and you didn't look back," she told him, "Hell, I was never really close enough to any of the titans to have them miss me." She continued.

"You miss them," he pointed out.

"Yeah, I miss them, I loved all the team like family but if I showed it things would explode. The only way to keep you guys safe was to alienate myself from you, of you." She told him crying, she attempted to take another swing from the bottle but Nightwing grabbed it.

"I think you've had enough," he tells her as he dumps the rest down the drain and goes to throw out the bottle. As soon as he open the can, his expression changed to dead serious.

"Shit," she said aloud, running over taking the bottle from him and throwing it in with the others. She quickly closed the lid hoping he wouldn't press her for answers on the contents inside.

"Raven, who's blood is on all those clothes?" he asked her.

"No ones, it's just paint not blood," she told him hoping he'd buy it but he was too smart for that.

"Raven, that's blood! I've seen it enough to recognize it! Who's is it? That's a lot of blood to lose!" He yelled at her.

"God calm down, it's mine. I tripped with a knife in my hand." She told him hoping once again he would buy her bluff.

"Even if that happened you could have healed yourself before you lost that much blood!" he once again called her bluff, hoping and praying it wasn't what he thought it meant.

"God, I tripped, I was in pain, it took me a little bit to get my emotions together to be able to heal myself." She told him sticking to her story. As she was telling him this she was taking a few steps back away from him and wasn't paying attention to where she was going. She tripped on a lamp plug and fell on her butt.

"Raven," he said as he held out his hand to her, to help her up. She grabbed it and he quickly grabbed the base of her arm so she could not move it as he looked at her wrist and the back of her arm, finding exactly what he hoped wouldn't be there. He let go of her and started pacing.

"God what did you except, that everyone would come out on top after the titans split. I had no home, no money, no family, and then no friends. I was barely able to get a job and earn enough money. I had to always be working at multiple places to sustain myself. Then finally I bought a library where others work and I just sit here alone, and this… this is not the life I wanted. You may have come out on top after we disbanded, Nightwind," she mocked his name, "but I wasn't so lucky! BB, cy, terra, bubblebee... they may have been sad about the split but they had each other! And kori had decided to go home even before we split, never planning to come back! Then there was you who got your fancy little gig going back to your home town but I wasn't so lucky! I hit rock bottom while everyone was on the top!" She told him.

"Raven, I'm…" Nightwing tried to aplogize before Raven cut him off.

"I don't need your apologizes or your pity, just why are you here?" she asked him upset.

"I saw you near the center of the fight today and I wanted to make sure you were okay…" he told her. She smiled in her head, he did recognize her after all, but her face was still dead serious.

"Well there you seen it here, I'm not! But there's nothing you can do about it! And don't even think of trying to get me counseling or locking my up in some psychiatric ward, this is not your problem to fix Robi…" she pushed for a second remembering he was a new person now, "Nightwing, we're not a team anymore, okay? Just leave, I really just don't want to see you, not today, just get out." She said breaking down crying.

Nightwing walked over to her and hugged her while she was crying, this just made her cry some more. He walked them over to the coach to sit down, she just wouldn't maybe couldn't stop crying. "I don't care if we're not a team anymore Rae, I still care about you, I always have, you mean a lot to me." He told her.

She kept crying in his arms and all he could look at where the scars on her arms. He was so sad to see her beautiful body covered in ugly marks of pain and hate. Suddenly he heard the crying stop, he looked at her face and saw she was asleep. He stared at her beautiful face and then he fell asleep to with her in his arms.

-Next morning-

Nightwing woke up first seeing raven in his arms, it was all he ever wanted, all he ever needed. He looked at her face asleep in his lap, he wanted this moment to last forever. Then raven woke up.

"Huh…." She said as she opened her eyes slowly seeing Nightwing staring back into them with happiness. She wanted this moment to last, she loved him, she had always loved him. That was one of the reasons the split up of the team had been so hard for her. "Did you spend the whole night here?" she asked him.

"Yep, I wouldn't leave your side for the world." He told her as she blushed, "Raven?"

"Yes?" she asked him.

"Would you consider spending a few days at the mansion? I can't just leave you here, not in this state. I need to see you and know you're okay," he told her and she started blushing harder.

"Okay, for you." She told him and she watched the smile on his face grow.

"Raven?"

"Yes?"

"I love you," he told her looking directly into her eyes hoping she would feel the same. She pounced forward and hugged him, they let their bodies melt into each other's. They wanted it to stay like this forever, they were both just happy.

"I love you too," she whispered in his ear and although she couldn't see his face, she knew it was glowing.

He finally pulled away from the hug, "Want help packing?" he asked. She shook her head and got up walking to the closet in her room with Nightwing right behind her. She could feel his breath on her neck and the warmth he was giving off standing right behimd her. After about an hour Raven had packed enough clothes for two weeks, also changing her outfit as well.

"Okay let's go." Raven said to Nightwing.

"Okay," Nightwing told her, "I have to go the back way I came because I can't exactly walk over there with you. But when you get there ask for dick and they'll let you in... probably."

"Okay, but why are you at the mansion? I mean your 23, like me. Don't you have your own house?" She asked him.

"Yes, I do, but all the bat's are staying at the mansion while we search for the joker." He told her, instantly regretting it. The public wasn't supposed to know about the jokers escape.

"Wait, he escaped?" She asked him somewhat scared.

"Yeah, I uh wasn't supposed to tell anyone, so don't tell." He told her, moving toward the window getting ready to leave.

"Who would I tell?" she asked rolling her eyes as he leapt out her window.