Summary: Ellie reflects on past relationships xxsongficxx
Author's note: a new oneshot YAY!!! I know this has been done so many times and will be done more but please just give it a shot! This is to Avril Lavigne's Slipped Away. I listened to it and needed to write something. If you haven't heard it yet I highly suggest you do its amazing! Lyrics are in italics.
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I do not know what repelled boys from me… Jesse cheated, Sean left, Craig chose Manny and Marco, well he is still here but in a way he is not. Marco is gay and sometimes I feel like I made him that way. I want my life to be normal but it will never be. I want it to end.
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad.
It is so hard having no one to love and no one to love you sometimes I wish it would all go away all the pain and misery, there are some days were I just want to die. Days like today.
Marco and I are drifting apart by the minute he finds comfort in Paige and I feel like a teenager again with no one but the sharp edge of a razor. Even though I am not cutting, I want to I need to. There are days were literally the stress is too much and I am shaking.
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly.
Jesse and I were going so perfect or at least I thought we were. But then I found him at a Campus club with some blonde bar skank, I should have known way before then that things were going to good to be true that my life would never be that good. I should have known
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The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh
Craig. One of my most devastating relationships. Could I call it that? Even though we never went out it still hurt me when he ran after Manny. When he wanted her back and not me. He never wanted me. No one ever wanted me. I stuck up for Craig I made sacrifices that changed my life. So of course it hurt me. When he finally came back a few days ago he was to wrapped up in his own headspace and Manny… oh and of course his god damn cocaine. I will never be good enough for anyone.
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And then there was Sean. After he left I found my life would never be the same never I feel like we both changed a great amount when we were together. It hurt so damn much when he slipped through the cracks and never came back to repair them. No he came back for Emma. I did not even get to kiss him goodbye before he left. He never loved me like I loved him.
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't ooooooooooooh
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly
I want my life to be normal,Like Manny and Emma. Perfect but I never will be. I will always keep asking myself why I was not good enough to please. I want to die.
[Chorus]
The day you slipped away...
Was the day i found
It, won't be the same
Oh
I need to die maybe when I am gone everyone will be pleased.
I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why.
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by
I do not want I feel like I have too.
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Marco knocks on the door asking me if I am okay.
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
I am not okay and I never will be.
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But maybe I can survive one more day before I slip away to the dark.
I miss you.