Ed-he has been gone for seven month today. It's been seven months since the day he told me that he did not love me any more-since the day he said that I was not good enough for him.
I had always know ever since we had gotten together that I was no where near good enough for him and that I didn't deserve him but I never thought that he would leave me like this. Taking away all the ones I loved, my family in the process.
However, I am not mad at him. I love him. How could I be mad at him? I knew that that day would come sooner or later, I had just hope that it would be later. Now I can only dream about the day when he will come back to me, and I would accept him with loving arms and everything will be put behind us. But I can only dream. They don't love me any more, they probably don't even remember my name.
But I can't live without him. I have found that he is holding me to my promise that I would stay safe… for Charlie. But, Thanks to my best friend Jacob Black, I have found that when I do thinks that are dangerous, I can hear him and see him and It's like he has never left in the first place. When I see him the hole in my heart stops.
But it only lasts so long. Jake also helps fill that empty hole in my chest. He makes some of the hurt go away for a while and I am eternally thankful for that.
But lately has been really bad. I haven't seen Jacob (or him) in over two weeks because his dad claims that he is sick but I believe that he is really just avoiding me.
What did I do wrong to lose the things that matter to me the most? I can feel the hole getting bigger in my chest every day. I need to see him again, to make some of this hurt go away.
I have decided to try and find our meadow. Maybe I can find him there, even if it lasts only for a little while. I have to try or the hurt is only going to get worse.
After two hours of wondering aimlessly in the forest I finally found it. But to m dismay, I did not see him, This would not help at all. The meadow was also just depressing. Everything had died-there was no life like there had been when I had come with him just depressing memories.
I couldn't take it any more. I fell to my knees sobbing uncontrollably. I have no clue how long I had laid there sobbing. It could have been minutes or hours-I didn't care. I had finally had enough and stood up.
I took one last look around the meadow that held so many memories of my true love and looked strait into the eyes of the last person I thought I would ever see.
"Hello Bella."
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