October 8th
Bella,
It's been a week since I left you yet it feels like an eternity. Everyday my life becomes emptier without being able to hold you in my arms, being able to tell you how much I love you, being able to kiss your soft tender lips and being able to watch you sleep. I do love you Bella, even though I told you that I didn't. I do. So much. I just told you that to save your life. You are much better off without having me in your life. I am a danger for you to have me around. I can't risk nearly losing you again. You mean too much to me for that to happen. I never thought that I would ever have someone like you in my life. Someone that makes my life finally complete.
I always knew that vampires could fall in love, I just never expected it to happen to me. But then you came to Forks and changed my outlook. I know that I didn't give you a good impression when we first met but I had to hide that I wanted your so so badly. The smell was intoxicating to me. Drove me wild. But once I got over the addiction to have your blood I noticed you for who you were. The beautiful shy girl that wanted nothing more than her friends and family to be safe and happy.
It didn't take me long to fall in love with you, but how could you think that I would fall out of love with you? I was just trying to protect you. I hope that you are able to cope with me being gone. I couldn't bear for you to be unhappy. I never meant for this to happen. If you are unhappy then I will never be able to forgive myself for causing you pain.
God Bella, I love you so much. It's so hard for me to write this right now. I just want to be able to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. I wish that I could come home so that we can be together, but it would just be too dangerous for both of us at the moment. But I promise Bella, that soon we will meet again, but until then I need you to be unhappy without me. I need you to move on. Jacob seems nice enough and it seems that he has a crush on you. It pains me to say that, but it pains me more knowing that you may be hurting because of me leaving.
Please be happy Bella. It's all I've ever wanted for you, even if it means that you are happy without me. I love you Bella, always will. No matter what.
Love,
Edward