Chapter 1- A chance encounter

B.P.O.V

"He left. He didn't want you. He didn't need you. You weren't good enough" I chanted to myself over and over again. It was part of my morning ritual when I woke up in my dorm room alone. I am not sure why I said it each morning, I think it was to prepare myself for the day ahead, the emptiness ahead. I had moved on a little since he left me. Stranded me. Abandoned me. Since he escaped. I guess I had escaped as well. Forks no longer was home. I had graduated and moved on. Moved on to Harvard of all places. All because of a scholarship that Charlie had applied for, behind my back. He knew I would not be able to turn the chance down and so I was at Harvard. My degree was literature and history. My two passions in life. My only passion life. Passion other wise was none existent. That is not to say I was socially isolated or spent my evenings sitting in my room alone. Much the opposite. Here there were people who wanted me. Who found me good enough and while they were not him, the feelings of being wanted of being needed were addictive and helped ease the pain I felt everyday since I was left alone on the path. Odd how I was left on the path yet I had no direction, no purpose anymore.

I was doing well in my schooling. Passing everything, my assignments were always was returned with near full marks. I was a champion student, but as I had reflected on before, my life was an empty night sky devoid of stars. Alone. I think I would always be alone. It was that time my alarm decided to go off. Well it was set to for 7:00 am and it was time for me to start the Friday ritual. A scheduled 2 hour lecture on ancient history, I knew from the course content and my reading ahead that today was culture and arts in ancient Rome. I doubted it would be interesting and I highly doubted the lecturer, Professor Gibbs, could say anything I had not yet read or anything that would keep my attention. It was unusual for a professor though to continue content on the last day of the semester. Sunday I would be returning to Charlie's in Forks. I turned the alarm, got up to shower grabbed a pair of jeans and a simple black hoodie. My wardrobe was more established then it had been in Forks but was still slightly disappointing well it would have been to a certain over the top person I once knew. I could not stop the tears that rushed to the surface when I thought of her, because thinking of her led to thinking of them and that inevitably led to thinking of him. I pushed those wounds, the pain and unwanted memories to the back of my mind. A shower is exactly what I needed. The morning process continued after the shower I raced to the coffee shop just downstairs. I needed breakfast plus the distraction. Unwanted thoughts are not easy to push aside when alone. My room mate Darcy was still sleeping she was lucky to have no classes to this afternoon.

I slipped on some boots and strolled downstairs the smell of coffee and fresh pastries were a reminder of my skipped dinner last night. I smiled at some familiar faces, their name's I could not tell you, they were just faces. Probably people from parties I had attended. Yes I attended parties now, I was not the party person but I meet people, or the people I was with and friends enjoyed them.

The coffee shop was crowded but then a number of classes started early Friday.

"Bella. Love over here" I smiled at Josh, ignoring the pain that had again risen to the surface. If he is going to call me love it is time to move on. I could not be called love, he called me love, but I liked Josh. He was sweet, he helped me made me feel good enough and when we spent the night together he kept the nightmares of being inadequate, of being lost and adrift away. In his arms I did not feel safe I could not find a place I felt safe, but I felt needed. Josh was attractive, what he or the other two guys I had seen and been with since starting school were. I am not sure what they saw in me, but I was told I was pretty, beautiful and attractive. I did not agree with them. Danny, told me I was ravenous, I left him shortly after that. Before Danny was Mitch I was still friends or well an acquaintance with Mitch. Darcy constantly told me how strange I was for being friends with my first, even though the break may have been easy and we were both on friendly terms she could not understand how.

"Hi" what a great reply. "I will be right back. I just need my caffeine fix." he laughed at me and held up an extra mug while gesturing to the danish on the table. "I have already taken care of that." He smiled at me. Urgh, he is so sweet but so not who I was meant to be with.

Stop it Bella, you were not meant to be with him, Josh is good for you, so very into you and he makes life seems better. I argued internally. Once I had pushed the negative side of me into the back of my mind I focused on what Josh had to say, realising I had missed half of the his one way conversation.

"Pardon?"

"The party tonight, being held on floor 3 of your dorm building are you, are we going tonight? Or do you want to just grab dinner and then some movies and have a quite night just the two of us?"

"I don't care, the party could be fun" his face fell "but we can always have an early night and just walk down the flight of stairs to my room." his normal smile quickly replaced the frown that was there just before. His grey blue eyes sparkled as thought to the evening ahead. He leant over the table and kissed me gently. I kissed him back there was no fireworks, no passion but it was nice. No nightmares tonight, he wants you and he thinks you are worth being around. I told myself smiling at the thought of relief from the hurt of my past.

The rest of the morning passed quickly. I was correct in thinking the lecture would be boring. I could have given the class more relevant information and made it more interesting. I retreated to my room to pack up the small amount of belongings I was taking back to Forks with me. Only to be accosted by Darcy who felt the need to drag me shopping as she was skipping her last lecture for the semester. Why sleep in the chair when I can by something fabulous to wear to the party tonight. She smiled her winning smile. I backed down it was easier to give into my crazy blonde haired friend's pleading. I was in need for some fun and shopping with Darcy was always fun. She managed to come up with the wackiest combinations that worked. My wardrobe had grown considerably under her careful eye, it helped with both enjoyed browsing through the op shops, the amazing finds there always gave us a happy high. Time passed to quickly. It has been a long time since I have thought time passed quickly. I'm shocked by that thought and I felt myself freeze in place. Darcy yanked my arm and pulled me forward yelling at me to hurry up because we did not have long til the party began.

The music was loud, too loud, I could not hear myself think, I could not hear the lyrics all I could feel was the beat. The beat of the music excited me. Another new emotion, I wondered what was happening to me. Why was I able to smile easily, why was I able to breathe easier and look forward to something. I have not looked forward to anything in a long time. Maybe my more optimistic side hoped Josh is the one for you, maybe he is making you whole. My less optimistic side snorted in scorn, viciously destroying my sense of peace. You really believe this simple boy can make you happy after your six months of bliss…

"Hello Bell" Josh, came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my middle kissing my cheek. I shifted I was uncomfortable my recent thoughts had left me shattered. "you ok?" he asked concerned when time had passed and I had yet to replied. I forced a smile.

"I am ok. I'm just a little surprised at how busy it is so early." He laughed at me, an easy chuckle.

"I know you and crowd's do not mix well and I know you aren't a fan of parties. We don't have to stay long."

Darcy came tearing over drink in one hand. She grabbed me dragged me to the area that had been cleared for dancing.

"Come on Bella" she begged "dance with me" I pleaded to be left alone stating my no dancing rule. I did not dance she knew that. Only one person had gotten me to dance and he had let me go. I pulled free and wandered aimlessly talking to some people I recognised til I found Josh again. He smiled relieved to see me. We wandered out to the hallway, holding hands. I saw a familiar black spikey hair do, Bouncing up the hallway. I then saw beside the black hair a familiar blonde haired figure. I was so grateful they were walking in the opposite direction. I froze, panic taking control of me. I was so stressed and disbelieving how could it be them would he be with them. I grabbed my hand back from Josh and fled back into the party.

"Bella? What is wrong? Where are you going?" Josh sounded confused and a little hurt but I was to shocked to care. I fled down the hall. I knew his voice could be heard by them.

"I will call you Josh I have to go" I gave him an apologising look and raced downstairs. At the same time I heard Alice's voice shocked, excited and pleading.

"Bella. Bella please wait. Bella come back. I can't believe it is you. Excuse me, We are coming through"

"I can't do it. I'm sorry. I can't see you" I whispered, knowing they would hear me. I was grateful the party and hall were so crowded they could not use their extreme abilities to get through the crowd. I raced to my room grabbed my packed suitcase and handbag then raced to my car. I was heading home now.

A.P.O.V

I could not believe it. There she was my best friend, the one my brother forced out of my life. I still had not forgiven him. At the moment I could not forgive her either. I was hurt she had ran from me. I felt shattered if I cry I would be. I thought I had her back but at least I knew where she was. I find her next semester. Jasper and I would transfer and next semester we would be Harvard students. I would have him hack into her account details and I would enrol in all her classes. She would not be able to escape me.

"Alice settle down" Jasper tried to soothe me. "She ran because she is hurting… still hurting. She was so stressed and could not handle seeing us at the moment"

"Still hurting? I knew it. I told him so. I told him it would be selfish to leave her. Told him that it would achieve nothing. Did he listen to me?" I interrupted Jasper trying to calm me. My rant was not relieving my anger instead It was only building. I was more frustrated when Jasper did not answer me "Well did he listen to me? NO he didn't. I can't let him do this. They were made for each other he was so deluded."

"Alice" Jasper grabbed me and pulled me towards to stairs so we could leave, before I created more of a scene.

"Wait!" I ordered him "that boy she was with. Where is he. He can tell us what she is doing with her break. Where she is going. I am going to find her. I don't think I can wait to next semester" I dragged him back to the party in search of the tall dark haired boy. I would get answers and I would get Bella back. She would be my best friend and if I could I would bring my brother back to life, bring him out of his living coma.

so this came to me while doing feeds at work and therefore i typed up the little story starting in my head.

hope you enjoy i shall update later when i can. please let me know what you think. all comments welcome and anything that can be improved upon is always welcomed.