Author's Note: This is a story about Bella getting rid off her inhibitions and letting herself explore what she really wants. Therefore lots of Jacob and Bella loving!

I tossed and turned in my bed, restlessly trying to fall asleep. Thoughts of Jacob were flooding into every piece of my mind. The conviction in his words when he told me he loved me and the way he crashed his lips against mine were replaying over and over in my head.

I knew Jake had a crush on me, but I didn't realise he was in love with me. If Edward hadn't come back, Jacob and I would probably be dating. He would kiss me the way he did today, and instead of punching him in the face, I would have embraced him, entwining my tongue with his. The idea of Jacob and I making out caused a heat to spread across my entire body.

I had to stop this, Edward did come back and I loved him. There's no way I would let any feelings I had for Jacob ruin that.

My right hand was still throbbing in pain from punching Jacob in the face earlier.

It was an instant reaction to punch Jacob. I was so angry that he had forced that kiss on me, knowing very well that I was with Edward.

However trying to hurt Jacob physically didn't release any of my frustration. He was perfectly unharmed and I was stuck with a broken hand.

Jacob's snugness didn't go away either. He knew I would be thinking about him tonight, about my options, this aggregated me even more. I let out a loud sigh as I rolled toward Edward. I caught him looking at me with concerned eyes.

"You can't seem to get to sleep, is the pain keeping you away?" Edward asked, lying next to me in bed.

It wasn't really the pain that was keeping me awake but I nodded in agreement.

"Well, you've already taken the pain medication Carlise gave you, but I can go get some more for you" Edward said, hoping up from my bed.

"No its fine, I'm fine" I said. At that moment I tried to push myself off the bed with my hands, causing me to wince in pain. Edward came to my side straight away.

"It's not fine Bella. That damn dog should have never tried to kiss you and then you wouldn't have hurt yourself"

"I know, I don't think he thought I would punch him in the face" I laughed lightly.

"I know very well what he thought was going to happen" Edward told me with anger in his voice.

I stared at him with curious eyes, wishing I could read what was on his mind. I think Edward noticed me trying to read into his response because he quickly shook his head and changed the subject.

"I'll go get you your medication, I won't be long" Edward said, kissing me on the forehead and climbing out my window.

I laid in bed thinking about what Edward said. He knew what Jacob thought would happen between us and I was curious to know myself. Did Jacob think I would have kissed him back? Did he fantasise about me wanting him, about us making love in the woods. As I questioned the content of Jacob's thoughts I realised I was having fantasies of my own.

I imaged being pinned to a tree by Jacobs's body, my hands running though his thick hair as he kissed me. I imaged his fingertips moving down my body as my left hand matched the movements he was making in my mind. I moaned out load as my hand pinched one of my nipples.

I kicked my doona off of my bed, trying to cool myself down. I couldn't believe how turned on my fantasy was making me. I had never thought about Jacob like this. Of course I had checked him out before. He had an incredible body and walked around half naked most the time, but it never went further than the occasional perve.

While my mind was still on Jacob, my hand moved lower until it ventured underneath my panties and into my slit. I could feel how wet I was as I dipped a finger into my pussy. My muscles clenched around my finger as I pumped it in and out.

I imaged Jacob sliding his cock inside me, pushing me further against the tree. My fingers searched for my clit as I rubbed it to the thought of Jacob fucking me. I began calling his name, not realising how loud I was being as the pleasure started building inside me.

Jacob POV

I decided to leave my place to go check on Bella. I knew the bloodsucker would probably be there but I needed to make sure she was okay.

I hated fighting with her. I hated I was the reason to cause her any physical harm, even if it was her own fault. She should have known better than to punch a werewolf in the face. Still, I felt bad that her hand was broken and I wanted to try to apologize again.

I don't regret kissing her though. I needed to do something, anything to get a reaction from her. I definitely got a reaction, it wasn't exactly what I hoped for but it was still progress.

Now she knew how much I love her, how passionately I could kiss her and she can deny it all she wants but I know she has feelings for me. She wouldn't have freaked out so much if she didn't. She's scared because she knows she belongs with me and not Edward.

Once I arrived at Bella's house, I took a moment to think about what I was going to do when I heard soft moans coming from Bella's bedroom. They sounded a little distressed, so I thought she might be having a nightmare or something.

I phased back into human form and changed into my cut off denim shorts. I walked toward her bedroom window when the scent of Bella hit me, stronger than ever before. It was so raw and delicious. I had never smelt her like this before. The stench of the bloodsucker was incredibly faint so I knew he must have just left.

While taking in her wonderful scent, I distinctly heard her cry out my name. Maybe she knows I'm here I thought.

I quickly climbed up to her window and positioned myself on her window sill. I peered into Bella's bedroom to see her all alone, lying on top of her bed.

Her covers were off and I could see her left hand moving underneath her pyjama bottoms, right between her legs. Her head was thrown back a little but I could see that her eyes were shut.

I heard another moan escape her lips before she called out my name once again. I froze, paralysed by shock and desire. It took me a second to realise the unbelieve fact that Bella had no idea I was at her window sill, and that I was watching her masturbate.

I never thought I'd see her do that in front of me. There had been a few times she almost caught me. One time she came over unexpectedly, knocking on my bedroom door a mere five minutes after I had finished.

Seeing her playing with herself right in front of my eyes was too good to be true, especially hearing her calling my name at the same time. My cock stiffened as I watched Bella pleasuring herself while thinking of me.

I couldn't pretend that I hadn't seen her. I knew this was my only chance to show her we belong together, so I decided to take this opportunity.

I quietly moved from the window sill into her bedroom and knelt down beside her bed. She still hadn't noticed my presence. She was too preoccupied with working herself over with her left hand. I could tell she was trying to rub faster but didn't quite have the ability to do so.

"That's where I come in" I thought to myself. I gently moved her hand out of the way and brought my fingertips to her pussy. She opened her eyes and let out a gasp in total surprise as I slipped one of my fingers inside her. She panicked trying to move away, when my thumb found her clit, giving it the attention she desperately needed.

"Oh Jake" she cried throwing her head back and thrusting her hips towards me. I climbed on top of her, supporting my weight with my left hand while I continued fingering her with my right. I dipped my head down to whisper into her ear.

"I told you that you'd think of me tonight" I looked back at her to see her staring at me with fiery eyes but she didn't protest my remark.

"I'm gonna make you come so hard Bella, you'd like that wouldn't you?" I added trying to get a reaction from her.

I felt her nod her head beside me as I kissed the side of her neck. I looked down into her eyes once more before crashing my lips to hers.

Bella POV

I tried to move my fingers as fast as I could over my clit. I struggled to pick up speed when I felt my hand being replaced by a strong masculine one. My eyes flew open when I noticed a long didge enter inside me. I gawked in disbelief at the sight of Jacob fingering me.

I wondered how long he had been watching me for. He must have heard me moaning his name. Embarrassed, I tried to move away from him. He noticed me trying to get away and brought his thumb to caress my clit. A wave of tingles ran through my whole body at his touch. I moaned his name again bucking my hips in time with the rhythm of his fingers.

"I told you that you'd think of me tonight" Jacob whispered. I glared at him in aggravation. It pissed me off how cocky he was but what he was doing to my body was too good to deny. His lips grazed my ear as he whispered to me again.

"I'm gonna make you come so hard Bella, you'd like that wouldn't you?"

I nodded my head, too afraid to say anything. I knew I couldn't act like I didn't want him, when it was painfully obvious that I did.

Jacob would never let this go. He would use this against me in any argument we had to prove I had feelings for him. I wasn't going to fight my attraction to him anymore.

So when Jacob went to kiss me again, I kissed him back. This time was different from before. He wasn't trying to force a response from me. It just felt natural and very sensual. Our tongues played together as his ministrations between my legs got faster.

I could feel Jake's erection rubbing against my leg and felt pleased that I could cause such an effect on him. I began to breathe heavily as I felt my orgasm start to build.

Jacob broke our kiss and stared intensely into my eyes. I held his gaze, feeling the desire and love he had for me. I could sense my control slipping as I gave into Jacob completely.

"That's it honey…. just let go"

With the encouragement of this words and his touch I came. Jacob let out an animalistic growl as I climaxed. My body started shaking involuntarily as I came down from my incredible high.

Jacob passionately kissed me once more before staring at me deep in the eyes.

"I better get going. Your boyfriend will be here soon and you still have a decision to make" Jacob said as he stroked the side of my face lovingly.

He then pushed himself off my bed and started walking towards my open window.

"I hope you make the right one" he added before jumping out my window and disappearing into the night.

I stared at the window for a few seconds before flipping over onto my side to face the wall. I laid there with my eyes closed as I tried to fully comprehend what had happened. I had just let my best friend touch me in the most intimate of places and I loved it. While going through each detail of our encounter in my mind I felt a cold hand brush across my arm. That broke me out of my thoughts causing me to jump a little.

I felt Edward press his nose against my shoulder inhaling deeply. I laid there stationary, not wanting to move an inch as the reality of the situation set in. I had no doubt Edward knew to some extant what had just gone on.

"I know Jacob was here Bella. I can smell him all over you" Edward told me.

A tear trickled down my face as the guilt started to emerge. I just cheated on the love of my life. How could I do that to him? I felt like a horrible person.

I turned to face Edward, looking up at him through blurred eyes.

"I'm sorry" was all I could say. I had no excuse, no reasoning.

"Do you love him?" Edward asked.

I didn't want to lie to myself or to Edward anymore so I answered him honestly.

"Yes….. but I love you too" I cried.

"Its okay Bella, don't cry we'll work it out" he soothed me, cuddling me into his arms and humming my lullaby until I fell asleep.