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don't know?! Well too bad than!!!!!
Author's notes: My grammar/spelling sucks. Really. But I have an excuse for
that! I'm not a native English speaker. This is my first Harry Potter fic, and
I hope it's not too stupid... It happens in the beginning of the Marauders'
fifth year if you want to know, just a little before they became Animagi. Ah
yeah, and I know there isn't much about Hogwarts, wizards, classes and such… I
only follow Lily's emotions here.
The first scene takes place during lunch.
Dreams
about you
What
an angel....
Lily Evans thought, looking at the tall,
handsome boy in the other side of the table, who looked like he never combed
his hair. At least, in her opinion he
was handsome; most girls just thought he looked like a nerd. Yet he and his
little gang were pretty popular among the students because they always made
everyone laugh. (Except for the teachers, of course. They gave James' gang a
detention)
James
Potter...
She thought dreamily.
I
wish we would be together... But...
Lily wasn't exactly one of the most
popular/beautiful/smart girls in the school. She had a very few friends, and
was usually alone.
Not
like James...
James Potter was always surrounded by friends.
Especially his "gang": Peter pettigrew, a chubby boy who was scared
of his own shadow; Sirius Black, probably the most mischievous one in their
group, always had something up his sleeve; and Remus Lupin, a shy, short boy
always looked tired/sick.
I
wish I had the courage to approach him, but I can't... Not with all his friends
around...
So Lily just looked at him, never making
contact. But she promised to herself, that if she ever finds him alone, she
will tell him.
But
what if he says no...?
"Excuse me" She heard someone behind
her. She turned to face the voice...
"Sirius Black. What do you want?" She
said strictly. Sirius smirked.
"50 Galleons."
"What?!"
Sirius' smirk expanded. He reached to his pocket
and took out something. Lily paled when she saw what it was.
My
diary!!
Sirius chuckled. "Now let's see..." He
opened it in the middle.
"Today Petunia... No. That's not what I
wanted"
To Lily's horror, he opened it on the most
recent entry. He cleared his throat, and started to read quietly, so no one
will hear.
"Today I couldn't stop thinking about
James. Will he ever notice me? I want to catch him alone and confess about my
love to him, but I dread that--"
"Give it back!" Lily shrieked and
tried to snatch it from his hands, but he was too fast and moved it out of
reach.
"If you'll give me 50 Galleons I won't
tell... But if not..." His smirk grew wider. "I'll make sure James
hears about it..."
"No! You bastard!! Give it back!" Lily
punched him in the arm. Some students looked at them with a lack of interest.
Lily and Sirius fought on a daily basis.
"Oww!! My poor hand! It will never be the
same again!" Sirius said sarcastically.
"Why you son of a----"
"What's going on here?" Lily heard a
calm voice. She turned around to see... James. He looked at her- (Yes, he actually noticed me! Yahoo!!) And
then at Sirius.
"This is not funny." He said.
"No?"
"nope."
Sirius' face fell. "Darn... And I thought
reading from a girl's diary is THE thing..."
James rolled his eyes.
"It's THE thing when you're 9 maybe."
He grinned. "Or maybe you are, hmmm? Here's an interesting fact you forgot
to tell us"
Sirius wore a strange expression; something
between embarrassment and laughter. Than he decided.
"Well, Actually I am 9, you see. Something with a maturing potion and excellent
grades, And you know what-" He paused and grinned. "I'm actually a
girl! There are tons of things you didn't know about me cutie"
James snorted.
Sirius wasn't really bad, Lily thought. He made
fun of everyone, including himself. But still, Lily preferred to punch him in
the face than laughing with him. She rolled her eyes.
*****
After the last lesson, Lily returned to the
Gryffindor common room. She met Remus Lupin, James' friend, near the fat lady's
portrait.
"Oh Lily!" He exclaimed.
"Yes?"
He smiled weakly.
"Umm, you see, I don't know the password,
and I thought..."
Lily raised an eyebrow, "You don't know? I
thought I saw you when the fat lady told it to us...."
Remus moved uncomfortably. "Umm, I
forgot."
"Strange. You never forget it."
Lily eyed him for a minute.
"You wanted to talk to me, didn't
you?" She said softly.
"Umm, err...."
Lily couldn't help but chuckling. Quietly. Remus
straightened.
"Actually yes. I'm sorry for Sirius' behavior
today...." Lily
shrugged.
"It's okay, you don't have to apologize for
him"
Remus hesitated. Then looked at the ground.
"Okay. But just don't get the wrong
impression from him. He's a nice guy, really. And a good friend...." He
looked thoughtful for a second.
"I heard... You like James." Lily
blushed.
"Sirius told you, didn't he."
Remus nodded. "Yeah."
Lily made a face.
"Oh, don't worry, I don't have any
problem... I understand... A lot of girls have a crush on him." He looked
at her eyes.
"But don't raise your exceptions too much.
He never shows any interest in them. Sticky
wand." He said. The fat woman woke up and moved, allowing him to enter
the common room. Lily remained outside for a minute, feeling disappointed.
What
would happen is I asked him? Thank god Remus warned me in time... Now I won't
tell him, and won't face rejection.
"Well? Are you going to enter or not?"
The very annoyed fat lady said.
*****
Remus was feeling regret. He knew what he told
her was a lie-James had a girlfriend once, and they were deeply in love. Remus
felt terrible. He lied to poor Lily, and for what? Because he was jealous? Jealous of James, who always
succeeded in everything he did, even in love? He could never have a girlfriend!
Not on his condition... So he lied to Lily-lied so James could share his luck.
James, his good friend. James, who accepted him as he is. James, who drank the
failed Animagi potion and had stomach aches for a week after that.
No.
He made a decision-tomorrow he will tell Lily
the truth about James, and maybe she'll forgive him.
*****
Joy!
Remus quickly ran to join the other Marauders,
feeling better after telling Lily the truth.
Lily didn't care he lied; all she cared about
now was James! Tonight, as Remus said, She will meet James on the edge of the
forbidden forest. There, she will finally tell him. Remus said he was a very
romantic guy, and Lily believed him. She already thought up a romantic scene...
Made up the romantic sentences she'll say to him, and even imagined what he
will say.
And she totally forgot that in her daydreaming,
she was late for potions. Even when the potion master took off 5 points off
Gryffindor for her lateness. She didn't raise her exceptions too much... Didn't
she?
*****
Night.
The almost-full moon was peeking from between
the soft clouds.
And Lily was waiting. She was there for almost
an hour, and yet James didn't come. Perhaps it was another Marauder prank?
Telling her that James was in love with her, than telling her to come here, and
laugh at her in the morning...
Only the thought brought tears to Lily's eyes.
No...
James MUST come...
She narrowed her eyes, searching for James.
Maybe he was waiting for her too? Then, after few minutes that seemed like
forever, she spotted James, looking confused. He obviously didn't know what's
going on. He frowned. Probably another prank. He spotted a girl, Lily Evans,
looking directly at him.
So
they included her too. I'm going to get back on them...!
"Excuse me" He called. Lily looked
surprised.
"Why are you here?" He asked her.
He
doesn't know why are we here?
Lily felt slightly disappointed.
But
perhaps Remus didn't want to tell him... Decided to leave the job to me.
She took a long breath.
"James" She said sharply.
"Yeah?" He said without paying much
attention.
"I want to tell you something." She
bit her lip. Now it was the great moment.
"I, ah, love you." She realized she
wasn't breathing, and released her breath. James just stared at her. He
blinked.
"Excuse me?"
"Yes..." She said and looked down.
"I wanted to tell you this for a long time now..."
This wasn't at all like she expected... James
just stared at her. She looked at him shyly.
"Uuuuhhhh..." He didn't know what to
say. Lily's eyes welled with tears.
"Um, Lily, you're very nice and
all...." He said strangely. "But, err, I don't know..."
He
is looking for excuses.... He
doesn't love me... Remus lied...
Lily thought through the tears.
"But, I can't think of you as a girlfriend..."
He noticed her tears.
"P...Please don't cry... Let's just be
friends... Okay?" He put a hand on her shoulder.
"You can be with us even... Me... Peter...
Remus...Sirius... good friends, what
do you think?"
Lily nodded, still crying. James just wanted her
out of his sight....
*****
Perhaps she was wrong. In the following weeks,
Lily and the Marauders grew very close. As friends. They even told her about
Remus' secret, and let her know about their attempts to become Animagi (Until
they REALY became Animagi!) She and James grew also very close, but only as
friends, but every time their "incident" was mentioned James avoided
talking about it. Lily already coped with the fact that James and her are only
friends....
But how she wished they were more than that!
~END~
Well, you know the rest... Eventually they fell
in love, married, etc. This fic is only about the beginning of their
relationship. I hope you liked it (even though it sucks) :)
Please
review! (And don't flame… It isn't nice.)
