Hello everyone! Hellsing is one of my favorite anime and this will be based on the Hellsing Ultimate, I was inspired by Maria from Mad Father and I wondered if there was a maid who serves the Hellsing wholeheartedly.I planned on making her a rogue assasin from the start but my sister told me she might get Mary Sue-ish so I decided to make her a poor girl with a painful past.
Please give me suggestions and enjoy!
Chapter 1: The Fields of innocence
I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
I've never thought that this would happen to me…
All I ever wanted is to feel the sun and see the blue sky again but I know that I won't be able to anymore…
I sat there on the cold floor waiting for my fate, I didn't care if I'll die now, be sold off, dismember me and sell my parts to anyone out there. My wish was to be free again, all I yearned for was to be like a bird and fly away to paradise.
Does paradise exist anymore?
I highly doubt that there is a safe place here in this world; I don't even believe that there is peace anymore, or a home…..This world is corrupted by malicious monsters and demons who seek pleasure by watching other people's suffering.
Tears fell down my cheeks; I wiped my scarred face then continued to stare blankly at the abyss of darkness. My pale hands wrapped around my thin weak body to warm myself and my dry chapped lips are begging for water and hungers for food.
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
My light blue eye flutters open whenever I thought about my future, I imagined myself rotting in this room being devoured by maggots, rats and swarmed by flies. I shivered at that thought but tried to think about something else.
I remembered the first time when I stepped in this in place…
Just two years ago I was at the orphanage, it was more comfortable here than this hellish place. It was home to me until someone adopted me but it wasn't what I expected…
still remember the sun
Always warm up my back
Somehow it seems colder now
I thought that I will be able to taste the felling of having a mommy and daddy…
But…No….
Flash back
My head darted up when I heard the door being roughly opened, I moved away and huddled myself further the wall. There stood guards, they had grin plastered on their faces and this made me horrified. When they grabbed my arms I thrash violently but ended up being punched in my gut.
All three of us dragged me by my arms without care, I tried to escape their grips but their hands only became tighter to the point that my wrist were bruising.
"Let go!" I yelped in pain as I tried to be free from them, one of them kneed me to shut me up and my wind pipe almost left me. My vision was about to blur but my mind told me to stay awake.
All I wanted was to be free again, this could be my chance. If only I had the strength to push them off me I can get away from them.
After another round of thrashing we already arrive to a some sort of living room, I saw other people who are like me. They were chained together an watched me with sympathy in their eyes, a man in such fine clothing approached me and grabbed my jaw to make me look at him.
"This is our last one mi lord, she still looks fresh and the nice thing here is that this little bitch is a virgin.!" My enslaver said smiling wide that you could see his disgusting yellow teeth, the one holding my jaw nodded and made a gesture to his guards.
Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believe in everything
When they were about to grab me I kicked one of them in their crotch, The other guard wrapped his arms around my body to restrain me but I hit the back of my head on his nose. I heard a sickening crack and a painful scream.
When I was about to get away from them a guard punched me in the face and threw me across the room.
"I'm sorry milord, that little bitch can't stop without a fight!" The monster smirked then shooked his head.
"It doesn't matter, soon this girl will behave once I teach her a lesson or too…" He huskily said while walking towards me, I weakly groaned and sit up carefully and he amusingly watches me as I try to get away from me.
"I will enjoy your screams…You'll be mine when you step out of this place…" I gritted my teeth angrily at him then stood up punch him in the face but he grabbed my tattered clothing and grabbed me outside this horrid place.
When that man brought me and used my body as if I was some kind of thing, he used me in different ways. He used me for his own pleasures and even ruined my soft delicate skin. My body was filled with scars, bruises and scabs.
He turned me into something that I was not; he even let some of his guests to use me as an entertainment. There was one time that I almost killed one of them and in the end I was beaten cruelly and didn't give me food for three days.
After for so many months he threw me in the cell thinking that I am useless now.
That man was a horrible monster, he deserves to die and atone the sins he have committed and burn into the depths of hell.
Sometimes people wearing white lab coats would enter my cell and inject me with things that brought me agonizing pain; it was horrible for my body. My eyes changed every time they insert those needles in my neck and arms.
I hate them…
Everything single one of them…
Flashback END
My lips quivered when I was slowly nearing death, I felt my body turning colder than it was before. The life in my eyes slowly fading away from me and tuffs of air were breathing out from my lips, this was the moment that I was waiting for.
Everything stopped when the door cell door opened; the warmth returned to my body when I felt someone carefully lifts me from the ground. I couldn't make up his face but I felt so safe than ever before and my lips slowly tug up into a smile for no reason.
"Everything will be alright; you're safe now…No one is going to hurt you…" The calm voice soothed me into a dizzy state as if it was a lullaby.
I closed my eyes and embraced the darkness and what is to come for me…
For days I was nursed back to health by nurses and doctors, they bandaged my wounds, took care of my bruises, fed me and sometimes they even would inject me with syringes that made my body feel at ease.
This was like a dream that I've always dreamt in that cold cell, but at the later moments I wondered what will happen to me after I'm all well, will they kick me out and take me back to the orphanage? Or will they throw me out in the streets?
My days grew better and this wanted me to stay like this forever…
The door opened and revealed the doctor who was caring for me for days, I smiled at him then watched as two men entered the room. The first one seems to be a wealthy man and the other looks like a servant at some sorts.
"How are you little miss?" I nodded at him to show my gratitude and good health.
"Have you been eating your vegetables?" He asked again and did the same thing.
"Don't tell me that she's mute…" The old man said while taking off his fedora hat, the doctor went over to me and examined my injuries to see any development in their medicine.
" No, she has no signs of mutism…Let's say she's traumatized, we've been tending her lately and she tries to speak up to us but she needs more rest…I'm sure she'll be able to talk once she's all better…" The doctor petted my head in a fatherly way and this made me smile at him more.
For the whole hour they talked about my health and sometimes talked about human trafficking, I would shudder when I remembered the things they did to my body; physically, sexually and mentally. I even get nightmares about it.
"I'll leave you here for a while; I'll be in the office with the others…" The doctor left the three of us; the wealthy looking man sat on the chair provided by the other man who has pitiful eyes.
"My name is Arthur Hellsing of the Hellsing organization and this man behind me is Walter Dornez…we are the ones who brought you here…I see that you are recuperating, that good." The man smiled after his introducing himself, I gave them a small nod to show my thanks.
"What is your name young lady?"
I shrugged my shoulders and this made them curious, I never want to use that name anymore. Those monsters that used me mocked my name many times and even call me harsh words like whore and slut, and this is why I can't give it to them. Only pain…It only gives me pain…
I also don't have any companions inside my cell, and maybe it's another reason why I was mute.
"I see…How old are you?" I smile then held out my hands to show them my age, I stuck out my right hand two fingers while the other is only one.
"Oh you're twelve! I have a daughter who is just a year younger than you. Her name is Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing…" I kept nodding to let him know that I was listening, he talked about more about his family history and sometimes I would giggle when he would tell stories how he met his wife who passed away when she gave birth.
Walter would serve us tea and it was delightful to talk to someone this long, I don't really get along with other children back the orphanage.
After a long conversation we kept silent then realized what will happen to me, his eyes seemed to softened…He must have read my mind, but really. What will-
"The Hospital said that any time soon your injuries will become better….I promise to do everything I could to give you a home-"
"H-home?" I stuttered a bit feeling odd since it's been so long since I haven't talked to someone, Arthur Hellsing's eyes grew wide and Walter stopped what he was doing and watched as I was looking at them with such lifeless, dull and cold eyes.
Home?
Where is that home he was referring to?
"You-You're t-taking m-me ho-hom-home? W-Where…i-is hom-home?" I asked them with such a scratchy voice, I wondered what they were feeling right now. Maybe pity, sadness or many sympathy…I never cared about it. But it made my chest lurch in such a painful manner like someone is clawing their way out of my body.
"We will make sure you'll be comfortable once you'll discharge, you'll have fost-"
"Who will have me? I look…look so…Very…scary…." I said while taking the bandage off my right face and showed them my scarred, bruised, blemished delicate face. Tears slowly poured out from my eyes then it fell down my cheeks, my
"Who will take me home? No one likes someone who looks ugly…I'm ugly….I'm sure that you'll look away from me in disgust in a matter of seconds…." I said giving them a full view of my scarred body, I also took off some of the bandages that covered my lower scarred body.
I looked hideous….
They did this to me, when those monsters couldn't do anything they would play with my body in a horrendous way. They use some kind of acid pour some in my skin and sometimes they would bring boiling hot water and splash it in my lower regions…
The worse thing that happened to me; they splash hot water in my face, it almost melted my right eye but I was thankful nothing bad happened to it.
The men also made me into an ashtray and lashed me like I was some horse….they did the same thing to the other slaves but theirs are too painful.
"I'm too ugly am I?" I asked them wiping all my tears away, Walter watched as I lifted up my hospital gown and showed him my scars in my stomach and womb.
" You're not ugly…"
I gasped and looked at the butler who was smiling down at me, this made me feel warm and suddenly more tears fell down my face like a waterfall. I gritted my teeth and frowned at him, he could be lying because he pities me…
"I am….You only feel pity for me…That's why you're telling me that I'm not ugly!" I yelled at him angrily, I tried not to look at the two men but the wealthy man grabbed my chin and made me face him.
"You're not….You have such a pretty face…"
"You know master; I think she fits for the job…"
"Ah yes! She does!" The man said happily t him and this made me curious, what job are they talking about?
"You see my daughter Integra doesn't have friends, her classmates at school think she's too cold…So I decided to look for a child her age to take care of her since Walter have been busy for the past few months….You look fit for the job." My face turned pale when he just said that, my cheeks slowly burned with happiness and relief.
"I also want to take this fine young lady as my ward if you don't mind Master Hellsing…" Walter said with an assuring smile. It was a fatherly one, it made me feel safe around him but there was something about that butler that I can't define.
I shook that thought away and talked about what will happen to me.
I am to become a ward of Walter Dornez and his successor as a loyal servant of the Hellsing family, I will be a personal friend, maid, and bodyguard to a young girl names Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing.
"Wait…What is your name-"
"Her name will be Francesca …." Arthur Hellsing named me like I was a new babe; I grasped my blanket then nodded at them for my approval.
Two weeks later I was discharged from the hospital and brought home, at first I was uneasy since all of the servants were looking at my scarred body but Arthur told me to ignore all of them.
The Butler gave me my clothes, it was a maid dress and it felt uncomfortable. It was a bit itchy at first but three days later I was adapted to the cloth, some of the maids taught me the basic about being a maid…
Sweeping, sewing, cleaning, arranging thigs in order and cooking food.
I was horrible at cooking; I almost burned the whole kitchen when I poured the vegetable oil. A few days later I was able to do it better than the other days.
After learning the few things Walter personally thought me about being a proper servant, curtsying, saying the polite words, serving the food correctly and the manners of being a maid.
It took me almost a month to learn everything!
When I wasn't doing anything the head maid would teach me how to braid hair in different ways and kinds, some would even make me pick wild berries outside and others would teach me the proper way to arrange flowers in a vase correctly.
"Francesca Sir Arthur wants you in his office…" I stood up then dusted off my dress to look a bit presentable, I walked with Walter in the mansion corridors until we reached the office.
When we both entered I saw a girl with beautiful long blonde hair, brown skin and beautiful crystal blue eyes.
"Father? Who is that?" the girl asked sir Arthur who was smiling him while petting her hair.
"Integra, I would like you to meet Francesca….She will be your new personal maid…Francesca this is my daughter Integra, the one whom I talked to you about when you were at the hospital…" Walter pushed me forward gently and I curtsied respectfully, when I lifted my head I saw how cold her eyes were.
I felt a bit uncomfortable when she gave me that look, her expression was so strong that it made me cringe in sadness and guilt. Her eyes are telling me that I invaded her own personal space, in order not to feel disgraced I gave her a light smile to show her that I am not a bad person but it seemed that she didn't want to accept me.
"Father you know that I can take care of myself." She gave her father a sharp look but he just chuckled and petted her head once more.
"Nonsense Integra! I need you to have a companion who will take care of you, Walter is always busy and I'm sure she'll be able to give you whatever you need…" The young blonde huffed in annoyance and eyed me once more.
"Francesca you are to make sure she is happy at all times. For now I want you to take my daughter to her room, I need to talk about some matters. Off you go little doves…" I bowed respectfully then walked over to the door and opened it widely tor Integra, she passed me then glared daggers that almost made my sweat pool in my nape.
We walked silently, the two of us didn't bothered to talk to each other, when we arrive to her room I opened the door for her and she gave me an irritated glare.
"I can open my door on my own..." She said coldly, I just smiled at her and opened the door wider for her. She just sighed and entered her room.
Her room was so spacious; ten people can fit in here. There were some dolls sitting on top of her cabinets and there are two doll houses on the floor and it seems that no one played with them. She also has three bookshelves filled with books.
She must be a very bright girl at her class…
"Are you just going to be in my room all day or are you going to leave?" Integra asked me with that glare again, I just smirked at her and closed my eyes.
"Lord Arthur wanted me to be at you side at all times…"
"And I'm not some child you can just pamper all day…You are to do as you are told…Now…Leave me in peace…" she turned away from me, I chuckled lowly then curtsied again.
"Whatever the lady Integra wishes…" I left her room and sighed, I felt a bit hurt towards her cold attitude but I try to remain calm to gain her trust.
"Sir Arthur is right…She's so...Cold…." I walked away then went to whatever I have to do.
Every day I did what I was told, things were getting interesting day by day!
I almost got killed by traps; spikes that protrude from the floor, almost got burned by an automatic flare sensor, fell down on a hole and almost got impaled by spikes and I also became dog food to some very hungry Rottweilers.
I ran to Walter and asked him on why there are things like those inside the mansion and told it was to make sure that everyone is ' safe…'
"Walter! That's not safe! I swear that this place is a slaughter house! It almost got me killed!" I wailed at him but he didn't listen to what I just said. I frowned loudly then left him without bidding anything to him.
During my time I found a deserted type of dungeon, my eyes were stinging and I didn't notice that I was already crying. It must be my memories from my bad past, my instincts told me to go in further and see what was down this stairs.
I took my steps slowly and I felt the aura becoming more and more different like there was some negative energy seeping inside this dungeon. I covered my nose when I sniffed someone bad, there must be something rotting in here.
"Miss Francesca! What on earth are you doing?" Walter startled me and I stared at him as if I've seen a ghost.
"I-I'm sorry…I was just-"
"This place is off limits, you are not to enter this dungeon am I clear? Sir Hellsing will be enraged if he hears that you were exploring in such a foul area….." I lowered my head in apology and nodded to show that what I did was wrong, he sighed and rubbed his temples and looked at me fatherly.
"I'm sorry if I startled you Francesca, I just don't want you to get in trouble….And as far as I am concern it is the young Hellsing's tea time!" My eyes grew wide like dinner plates then started panicking.
"Oh Walter! Thank you for reminding me, I must go!" I ran off to my destination~
Every day was a bit of a hassle but I was learning and enjoying everything bit by bit, I made my own list and did my own set of rules to help me with time management and become the proper maid that Walter wants me to be, and I really want to impress Miss Integra for her to notice me:
Always make sure Integra's room is clean and arranged
Always serve tea to Integra at 3:00 pm
Make sure to help whatever she can
Always assist her whenever she needs to dress up
Be courteous and polite to Integra
Make sure she will drink her vitamins and medicine when she wakes up in the morning and before she goes to sleep.
The other servants gave me a watch so I can aware of the time; all of them were kind enough to direct me to the cleaning supply room.
There are days when lady Integra would ignore me; I always follow her around a puppy. This made Walter amused and I almost caught him laughing at us, I gave him one of my death glares but he found that hilarious.
I never left Sir Integra's side…She is my Master and I am her Poodle…
~ Night time~
It has been two months since I've become Integra's personal maid, we tried to converse to each other but it seems that she is not interested. I was adapted to her coldness, it didn't matter to me anymore.
It was eight o'clock and I was supposed to tuck her in, I help her in dressing into her night gown but she slapped away my hand saying,
"I can dress myself"
I insisted to help her but warned me by giving her infamous glares.
I tucked Lady Integra in her bed, she just stared at me coldly again as I handed her medicine. She snatched the spoon and took it inside her mouth then gulped the medicine down. I was about put her covers higher to her shoulders but she slapped away my hands.
"I can do it on my own…" I nodded, she still didn't lay her head down from her bed.
"Are you just going to stand there and watch me?" She asked again coldly.
"I have to make sure that you are asleep Lady Integra." She groaned in annoyance then eyes me in a fierce gaze, I tried to ignore her but I felt something gnawing inside me. I did everything to make satisfied but she'd rather do it alone. But why? She doesn't appreciate what I'd do for her…
"Would you like me to read you a bed time story my lady?" her eyes widen and gritted her teeth in anger, I just watched as she glared at me. It was like poison to me…
"I don't need to be babied so stop acting like you're some kind of a dog! I don't need a nanny or a maid to take care of me…I can handle myself!" She half yelled at me, my lips quivered but no tears fell out from my eyes. I just smiled and bowed respectfully.
" If that's what my lady wishes…" I left her alone in her bedroom then watched as I felt something gnawing out my chest, I was hurt by her words…
She doesn't appreciate the things that I do for her-
I gasped when I heard the glass breaking, I spun around and opened lady Integra's door. There stood a masked man wearing a dark suit, in his hand was a dagger. I suddenly became scared but I focused on protecting Integra who was huddling herself in the bed in fear.
"Lady Integra!" I shouted as loud as I can then ran towards her and pulled her away from the bed, I put her behind my back to make sure she was safe.
The man slowly walked over to us, he held his dagger up in the air and threw it at our direction.
"Look out!" I pushed her out at the opposite direction then watched the man take out another dagger, he ran towards the young blood taunting her.
I roared in anger then tackled him on the ground, I balled my hand into a fist then punched him numerous times.
I angrily huffed and was about punch him again but he pushed me with harsh force and I fell on my back in pain. I slowly sat up then watched in horror when he was walking towards Integra, he was about to slash her but my adrenaline took over my body and held the blade.
"Francesca!" Integra watched as blood flowed down my palms, I bit my lip in pain and tried to push the dagger away from him.
The man kneed me on my gut, I grunted in pain and panted for air. The next thing I now he back handed me that almost knocked me out but I kept myself away.
"Lady Integra please run! Go! I'll be alright!" the girl hesitated first but she nodded at me with teary eyes then exits the room with full speed, the man angrily cursed under his breath and forgot about me and decides to go after Integra.
I regained my poster then took the dagger he threw at us earlier and ran towards the man.
I half-yelled when I saw the man choking Integra, I didn't know what to do first and watched as she was slowly losing air. This alarmed me…
' Sir Arthur wants me to become her friend and please her no matter what….I can-"
As the years pass by before my face
As wars rage before me
Finding myself in these last days of existence
This parasite inside me, I forced it out
In the darkness of the storm lies an evil, but it's me
"GET AWAY FROM HER YOU CUNT!" I angrily lunged at him and stabbed the man at the back, he screamed in pain then pushed Integra away from his grip.
OI towered over him angrily then yelled, I raised the dagger into the air and stabbed him. I sat on his waist then repeatedly plunged the blade into his chest.
He was flailing his arms in the air begging for me to stop but I didn't, I kept on stabbing him until the life in his eyes slowly faded away and his arms slumped down the floor but I kept on stabbing. His blood splattered on my dress and face, it was so different for me…
Killing somebody…
It felt so wrong but it was the right thing to do….
He is a monster like the ones who tortured me…
"FRANCESCA STOP!" I stopped stabbing the man then stood up from the corpse slowly, I was heaving violently then turned to Integra who looked terrified.
"Miss Integra are you-"Walter gasped at the scene he just saw, he rushed towards me then examined the dead body just beneath me. A lot of guards arrived and so was Sir Arthur who embrace his lovely daughter in his arms.
The soldiers were investigating the area to see if there were other hitman or criminals roaming around the mansion, I was with Walter who was tending my wounds. I flinched in pain whenever he was using antiseptic to prevent bacteria to enter the newly fresh wound in my palm.
Sir Arthur Hellsing thanked me for protecting Integra, for now I noticed that the young Blonde hid herself in her room.
" What you did was foolish….But we can't avoid things like that….Next week remind me to teach you how to defend yourself…Stay here and make sure you press that wound to keep the blood from flowing out. I'll attend to another matter…" he said leaving me in the living room, just after he exited I saw lady Integra entering the room with a somewhat worried look on her face.
Sh walked towards me and unexpectedly she grabbed my palm and pressed it lightly.
"You're doing it wrong, you have to pressed it like this to stop the bleeding…" She said with those cold eyes of hers, I nodded then pressed my wound lightly and cringed my face in pain.
The young blonde watched as I was tending my own injuries.
"Thank you…" I looked up to her and smiled.
"Your welcome…It is my duty to make you safe…."
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh, I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
"Not just that…I mean….Thank you for serving me…For doing all the things for me….I appreciate it…" She said as my smile grew wider, it was quiet in the room until the great grandfather clock broke the silence.
"It seems that it's midnight now…Come Miss Integra, I have to escort you back to your bedroom…" I said still clutching my bandaged hand. I led her to so many hallways then arrived at her bedroom. I opened the door for her and she passed me softly.
I ran over to her bed then pushed the sheets back so she can tuck under her comforter, I curtsied then was about to leave-
"Please stay…" I turned to her with a puzzled look.
"I'm a bit scared….Can you please stay?" She asked me kindly; I smiled at her softly then sat beside her.
"I won't go anywhere Miss Integra…" I said as I lulled her to sleep.
She looked peaceful like an angel, this warmed my heart. I was slowly closing my yes letting sleep taking over on I felt arms slowly wrapping around my waist and I felt much safer….
I'm not going anywhere Miss Integra….
I Still remember...