All I've ever wanted, was a hand to hold,

Someone to whisper pretty words into my ear,

When all I could think about was run and hide.

All I've ever wanted, was someone to hold me near,

Caress my face and wipe the tears away.

"Everything will be okay"

Is what I wanted to hear,

But instead I heard nothing but silence.

I wanted you to chase away the monsters,

Who threaten to eat me in one bite.

I wanted you fight my fears off.

I wanted you to hug me whenever I was frightened.

I would run after, but you never once turned around.

I reached my hand, trying to touch you and scream for you to wait for me.

I didn't want to be left behind.

I was frightened.

As I ran through the damp dark forest,

In search of you,

I cried.

I sobbed.

I screamed.

I shrieked.

I fell.

I wailed.

But never did you turn around.

I saw others with you, and I saw you caress their faces, whisper words into their ears, embrace them, hold their hands…

I kept on running, but you never did stop.

I tripped and skinned my knee,

I screamed for help,

But you didn't care.

You never did.

And if you did,

How was I to know?

You never showed any kindness any sympathy.

I needed you.

But you never realized it,

Or did you?

I would run until my lungs burst,

I would fall,

Sometimes so hard that I lay there,

Still as a rock,

Sometimes sobbing,

Other times curled up, waiting for someone to help.

There was a time when I just hid behind a bush, peeking to catch glimpse of you.

A sad smile brushing my lips,

At least I knew you were around.

I liked to daydream,

Imagine that you were always right next to me,

Whispering funny things into my ear,

Embracing me when I was cold,

Wiping away my tears,

Kissing my injuries when I would fall.

I carefully built a different world for me to live in.

A place I could call my own.

Physically I was in your world,

I was next to you but you hardly noticed.

Everyone saw me, but I rarely saw them.

I was in my world, where everything was the way I wanted it to be.

I wasn't alone anymore.

I didn't have to cry anymore.

I didn't have to fall.

I didn't have to run after you.

Because you were right next to me, kissing me, embracing me, wiping away all the tears, chasing all the monsters away.

I am older now.

I stopped running for awhile, wondering aimlessly by myself.

Sometimes, I see you.

And I dart after you, but you're always to faraway.

My world had fallen apart,

I stared horrified as it went up in flames.

Nowadays, I still long for you.

I somewhat envy those who you console.

Sometimes I feel wrath towards them.

But I know it's wrong.

Sometimes I still linger near you, but I know there's no point.

Sometimes I wonder off to my little forest,

Reminiscing on what happened in this very forest,

All the times I ran after you,

Ran around completely lost and cold,

Looking for your arms to wrap around me.

But everything was lost.

It's too late to gain it all.

But why?

Mommy why?

All I wanted was a mommy.

Why did you leave me behind?

Why did you ignore me all these years?

What did I do wrong mommy?

I'll change!

I promise!

Just please be my mommy!

Even though it been years now,

I still need you.

I haven't aged since back then,

I'm still stuck reliving all those memories.

Wishing you had been there.

Mommy, I still love you.