I'm So Over The Leg.
9x24 Aftermath. This is my first ever attempt at wrtiting fanfiction so I hope it isn't terrible. Please feel free to give me feedback. Sorry it's so short, more to come if people like this. Hope you enjoy!
Chapter 1
Listening to Arizona yell Callie can't help but have mental dialogue going on. Feeling as though her life was crumbling right in front of her and there was nothing she could do to stop it Callie reached out, not for Arizona but for the nearest chair holding on tight to hold herself up as the ground seemed to slip away. She needed to feel something concrete to know this was real. Her wife had really cheated on her with Lauren. Callie gasped for air feeling her stomach turn as she thought back to meeting Lauren and the initial way she had liked her. She could tell that her wife liked her too but she didn't know just how much. Gripping the chair tighter Callie held on to all the love she had left for Arizona.
Of course Arizona didn't notice any of this she was too busy blaming Callie for her missing limb, her leg, the leg that was killing her. She was too busy blaming Callie for saving her life.
"…Then great! Stick out your leg and I'll go grab a bow saw and lets even the score!" Arizona yells before letting out a pained cry.
What?...leg. The leg. No! Callie's mental dialogue is raging. You cannot blame your cheating on the leg. I'm so over the leg. Feeling even more betrayed for being faulted Callie cries out "It always comes back to the leg!"
"I trusted you more than anything. I trusted you more than anyone in my life and you decided to cut it off."
"To save your life!"
"You didn't lose anything! I did! I did." Arizona yells heartlessly.
Hearing this takes Callie through another emotional loop. I lost Mark, Lexie, and my wife. Her body is alive and functioning but she's not my wife. Seriously, how can she be so selfish to not see what I've lost and now what Sophia has lost? Face dropping Callie looks and feels defeated. She slowly breathes out "Apparently I lost you".
Before Arizona can get another word in Callie speaks up again, this time a bit stronger. "I am so over the leg! -All- you lost was a stupid leg and I lost my wife not to mention, Mark, Lexie and Sofia lost another parent. My wife never came back from the woods, her body did but it's empty. Nothing more than a hollow shell that I tried to love some life back into. So yeah, I made the decision to cut off your leg, the leg that was killing you. You blame me for the leg but you never thanked me for saving your life." Callie chocked back a sob that has been creeping up her throat and peered into Arizona's eyes. Her eyes confirmed everything Callie had just said, there was no reaction from Arizona, her eyes were empty.
Callie looked away unable to handle the fact that she was right. Blinking back tears Callie pressed on. "You keep saying the leg but you blame me for saving you. Dying would have been running away and we both know that's your go to when things get hard." Callie spat out not backing down. "But I saved you and you can't run from this Arizona. You can't run from the fact that you survived a plane crash and lost your leg." Callie took a deep breath as her eyes met a glaring Arizona. "You found a way to run though. You ran away from me with Lauren. Ironic isn't it?" Callie let out a bitter laugh. "You run from the one person who loves you completely. I never stopped or loved you less after the leg. I did everything I could think of to show you that. You ran away from me after asking me not to run."
At that Arizona's eyes softened as she thought back to Bailey's wedding and her failed attempt at giving Callie a romantic night. She had to admit that Callie was nothing but loving, patient, and understanding through all of this. Arizona tilted her head and for the first time tonight really looked at Callie, her eyes were bloodshot and swollen from crying, and her shoulders were slumped forward in defeat after draining herself of all the things she'd been holding back. Arizona also noticed the hurt and confusion in her wife's eyes. She could tell Callie was asking herself where she we wrong. A bolt of guilt shot through Arizona as she continued to study her broken wife, realizing again, for the first time tonight that she did this to Callie. Once again she had hurt Callie after promising not to but this was worse than a broken promise. This was worse than leaving Callie in an airport and there was no going back from here. Arizona couldn't face it. Again she was running. She squeaked out a sad and simple apology and turned to leave. She made it half way to the door before a strong but tender hand grabbed her arm.
"Arizona, wait…"
TBC.