Hey y'all!! This is my first Bones fic and my thoughts on how Bren felt after Wannabe in the Weeds. I was listening to the song "Forever" by Rascal Flatts and I thought "This would be a great Bones fic!" Comments and critiques are always welcome!!- Kirby
Disclaimer: Don't own Rascal Flatts, Bones, all that jazz
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I don't get it.
How can he be gone? How could he leave me? Why does it feel like someone ripped my heart out? I'm so confused.
I miss you so much
Your light, your smile, your way
And everything about us
I'm having a very difficult time trying to get this through my head. I feel like he's going to walk through my office door saying we have a case, just like any other day. The emotional pain I feel right now is almost unbearable.
Though you're gone, you're still here
In my heart and in my tears
We were just getting started
Tears spill onto my cheeks and I choke out a sob, because, yes, this is all true. Booth is gone and I'll never get him back.
I'm glad I had that little window of time to spend with him though. He's taught me so much about people and life and how it's not all one big math problem waiting to be solved.
It wasn't long enough, it wasn't long enough together
But it was long enough, it was long enough to last forever
It's odd, because sometimes I'll get these mood swings. When examining a body, for example, I'll get irritable or snap at Zach, or Hodgins, or whoever is on the platform at the time.
Sometimes I get so mad
I scream, I swear, at this
'Cause this isn't how we planned it
I sigh and stand, wiping my tears away because I am Temperance Brennan. I do not get emotional like this and I refuse to allow Booth to throw me off kilter, like he's done so many times before. I need to get back to work.
I sit here in a cold room
Prayin', waiting on you
To run back through that door
To the way it was before you left
I can't believe Angela had me come to his funeral. I'm finally able to compartmentalize Booth's death, but this might undo everything. I want to run. I want to hide from the world, but I know that's not possible. If only I could turn back time, but again, that's not possible.
It wasn't long enough, it wasn't long enough together
But it was long enough, it was long enough to last forever
Oh. My. God. BOOTH!! He's alive! But I realize that he's been alive all this time, and when this enters my mind my joyous mood is turned sour. When he gives me that look I get so mad and I just can't help myself. I punch him.
And in my opinion he deserved it.
I feel cheated, defeated
Can't believe that you're gone
Oh it wasn't long enough, it wasn't long enough
Days later the Gormogon case is over and Zach is gone. Why do so many people leave me? But Booth is back and I hear him follow me down the stairs, and as he reads my letter to Zach, I know that he never meant to hurt me.
No, it wasn't long enough, it wasn't long enough together
But it was long enough, oh it was long enough to last, to last, to last forever
No, it wasn't long enough
I lay my head on Booth's shoulder, close my eyes, and will myself to forget what has happened and enjoy my time with my family, my friends, and Booth, who will always be special to me.
END
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Tada! Too out of character? Debatable. Well, I must say that this was fun to write and I'm thinking about making a sequel. Let me know what you think! :)