Blog Entry One.
I'm too lazy to make a title, so go make up your own.
Time heals all wounds, but what about the scars. The pain that comes when someone you love dies never really goes away, it dulls and fades to the back of our minds but it never goes away. I should know after twelve years I still can't get rid of the pain that came when my big brother Justin died.
The day he died haunts me every day of my life, the constant ring of the heart machines as his heart stopped beating. That pain never went away, even after twelve years. I'm twenty-eight now and I've found a guy who I love dearly, he's my everything, he's my Mason. As happy as I am thoughts of Justin never go away, like his smile after we just finished solving a problem, my problem.
He was always there, always helping me when I got overwhelmed or when I screwed up so bad there shouldn't have been a way to fix it, but he was Justin and he always fixed it. When Justin was still alive I was a wild child, I would always pull pranks and get into so much trouble, that I seemed like a lost cause.
But since he died I haven't gotten into trouble, I haven't pulled any pranks. What's the point when there's no one left to get me out of trouble, to believe in me when everyone else thinks I'm a failure. I never realized how much I truly needed my brother until he wasn't there anymore, and now I just wish I could have told him this.
Now twelve years later, in my new home, with my new husband I think back to the days that I had Justin by my side and I smile he would be proud of me, of what I have accomplished. As Mason moves all of our belongings into our new home, and I sit on the counter in the kitchen eating, I realize that the, me that I thought I had lost never went way she just grew up. There's something most people would be surprised to hear, Alex Russo grew up sounds impossible but it happened, and it's all Justin's fault.
A/N : okaayyy please review, it's the only way I can tell if I'm any good at writing. I honestly don't mind if you hate it, that just tells me i need to improve XD. anyway I hope you like it whom ever decides to read this.