Do you know how hard it is to love someone? I do, I fell in love with him when we were freshmen in high school and I still love him now despite what's happened in the last ten years. I, Stan Marsh am in love with Kyle Broflovski, and the saddest thing of all is he doesn't love me back and probably never will. Let's go back to when we started high school and I started feeling for Kyle, shall we?
.o.o.
It's my first day of school (technically second day but I got home late) and I'm nervous as hell, I was gone for a year because our family decided that it would be 'nice' to go on a yearlong road trip across the country. Long story short I ended up freaking out and they sent me to stay with my Aunt Robyn, Aunt Robyn is a freak. She wouldn't let me cut my hair or use any form or technology and to top it off I had to use an outhouse as a toilet, I was praying that I could turn back time and go on the road trip.
Anyway so here I am at the bus stop for high school with my black hair tied up and my childhood hat firmly squashed on my head. Unfortunately just as the bus pulls up it decided to rip, so I have no choice but to stuff it into my bag and get on the bus.
As I walk down the bus to find a seat I notice how much everyone has changed, I only recognise maybe one or two people which are Tweek Tweak, because of his non-stop twitching, and Token Black for obvious reasons.
I find an empty seat and sit as close to the window as I can, I look around the bus as it starts moving trying to spot a poof of red hair or a green ushanka, but my search is useless because Kyle is obviously not on board.
Suddenly someone sits next to me and as I turn I see a blonde boy with an orange coat looking at me, it's Kenny. He keeps looking at me as if he's seen me before but doesn't recognise me, I haven't changed that much that not even Kenny recognises me, have I?
"Hey, dude, have I seen you before?" Kenny asks, I fully turn around to face him. He's changed a bit as well, he's definitely taller and his blonde hair looks a bit darker.
"Geez, Kenny, don't you recognise me?" I say as his eyes widen, my voice is deeper than before but I think he finally remembers me, about time.
"Stan?"
"The very same." I smile, he almost looks like he's discovered gold as he wraps his arms around me, he's killing me the hug is seriously that tight "Kenny, I gotta breathe!"
"Sorry, dude, it's been so long!" Kenny says as releases me from his death grip.
"Yeah, about a year."
"What the hell happened with you? You guys just left one day and nobody knew why!" Kenny's excited expression turns to one of concern.
"Well my dad decided it would be a great idea to take a one year road trip, I didn't want to go so they sent me to my Aunt Robyn's in California. Dude, she wouldn't let me eat meat or play real sport, so the only muscle I got left on me is from swimming" I cringe, I hate swimming but crazy Aunt Robyn thought it was good for me.
"And you didn't give anyone notice?"
"I got home from school the car was packed and I was gone before I had a chance to ask what was happening." I start to fiddle with my hair at the back of my head which immediately catches the blonde's attention.
"What the fuck is with your hippy hair?" Kenny laughs and I cross my arms and pout, stupid crazy aunts. I decide to change the topic and ask where Kyle is, as soon as I do his expression darkens.
"I dunno, probably with those faggy goth kids" Kenny says angrily, what the hell happened when I was gone?
"What, why?" I ask, why the hell would Kyle Broflovski of all people join those douche bags.
"After you left things changed, Kyle thought that you were freaking out about something he did and your family decided to leave South Park, he became depressed over time and joined the goths. His mom and dad eventually kicked him out because he was preaching all this goth crap to Ike, and you know how they adore their little Canadian." It's true Sheila and Gerald are in fucking love with Ike, he is 'perfect' and shouldn't be 'tainted' by any of Kyle's antics that we got into as kids.
But I'm confused about what Kenny said, what did Kyle tell me that last day of school. And suddenly I remember it all too clearly.
Flashback
"Stan, wait up I, uh got something to tell you" Kyle says as he runs up to me as I start out the school.
"What is it, Kyle?" I ask as he looks around nervously.
"I-I think I like someone" he breathes, why is he so nervous about that?
"Really, that's great, who is it?" I ask, I'd been waiting for the day since Rebecca Cotswolds, that he'd tell me he likes someone.
"It's, uh, it's Wendy" I frown and he immediately looks like he's gonna burst into tears "I'm sorry, Stan! I-I take it back, I don't like Wendy!"
"Calm down, Kyle. I don't care, she's my ex-girlfriend I couldn't give a rat's ass if you liked her. But be wary she's a bitch at times." I wink at him and walk away leaving him stunned, I really couldn't care less, Wendy is history. Plus I'm totally gay.
End Flashback
"What about Cartman and you?" I ask, Kenny sighs and begins to talk again.
"Well, me and Cartman after you left, split apart kinda. I started to y'know buckle down a bit and start studying, I honestly don't want to end up like my parents, apart from studying I hang around the foreign kids, like Christophe, Gregory, Pip and Damien but only because I like to laugh at their accents," I listen intently still waiting to hear about Cartman, at least Kenny's not doing too bad.
"And Cartman?"
"He started hangin' with Clyde, him and Eric are best friends. I personally think they're a little gay for each other because they literally don't see anyone else, and they don't look like they want to either." Kenny explains, I never realised before how much I kept our group together.
"Wow, I-uh wow that's just-"
"Wow?" Kenny laughs, we talk about my time in California and his past year until we pull up at the school.
"So, Kenny, do you mind if I go look for Kyle? My first period is English." I ask Kenny, I've never been more eager to see that red-headed Jew.
"Sure, I have English as well, see ya then, Stan!" Kenny waves as he walks off and I go to the back of the school where Kenny told me the goths hang out. Before I turn the corner I smell cigarette smoke and immediately know I've found the group.
I quickly whip round to see four people smoking and leaning against the wall, they all turn to look at me their expression tells me they are unimpressed with my interruption.
"Who the hell are you and what are you doing here?" Says one of the boys, his hair is red and is straightened down to his shoulders and I immediately recognise his voice, it's deeper than before but it's his.
"Kyle?"
"Who wants to know?" he responds, great is everyone not gonna recognise me?
"Stan." His eyes brighten before darkening again.
"Fuck off, Craig. Are you still going to pretend to be Stan while he's gone?" Kyle sneers, what the hell? Craig posed as me to tease Kyle? Just as I finish that thought a flash of orange flies out the window of the second story of the school and falls to the ground.
"Oh my god! They killed Kenny!" I exclaim as the blonde's corpse is dragged away by rats.
"Y-you bastard…" Kyle says quietly, he puts out his cigarette and walks over to me.
"Stan?"
"Hey Kyle, how's it goi-" Before I could finish my sentence I've been punched in the jaw by Kyle "Sonuvabitch!"
He looks at me angrily and pulls me to the trees and away from the 'non-conformists'.
"Where the hell have you been?" Kyle yells, I wince his voice is filled with hate.
"I-I can explain! Last day of school last year my mom and dad were planning on a yearlong road trip. I didn't want to go so they dumped me at my Aunt Robyn's place in California and she's nutty and wouldn't let me call you!" I squeak, I feel like such a coward as I cringe before the Jew.
I'm immediately surprised as he pulls me into a hug, I linger for a while before returning it, but our short reunion is then cut off by someone I didn't particularly want to see again.
"Fags!" Eric Cartman was laughing and pointing at us like we were circus freaks.
"Shut up, fatass!" Kyle screams almost lunging at him as I hold him back.
"Well, well, well what do we have here? A hippy and a Jew making sweet love in the trees"
"As much as I hate to say this, but Cartman is the only one who has recognised me. How unpleasant it is to see you again, Eric." I grin as Cartman grumbles, he's not exactly keen on me calling him by his first name.
"As much as I'd like to rip on you two, I have better plans for today so screw you guys I'm going to school." Cartman leaves and Kyle and I are alone once again.
"I missed you, dude." I say as Kyle smiles at me.
"That sounds totally gay, dude, but I missed you too." He laughs.
"I am gay." I state which stops his laughing immediately and he wears a horrified expression.
"Oh god, I'm so sorry, I-uh I have no thing with gays, oh shit, Stan!" I laugh and he looks at me confused.
"Ah, back to the good ol' days," I pat him on the back and he smiles again "now on a different note, where are you living now?" And just as soon as it came back his smile droops again.
"I guess Kenny must've told you that?"
"Yeah."
"Well, I'm staying with Kenny actually, but he doesn't like it much because he says I mope and I'm depressing…" Kyle says as he stares at his feet.
"It doesn't matter anymore because, you're gonna cheer up, get back your Jew-fro and come and live with me!" Kyle smiles again as the warning bell rings and we walk into the school.
.o.o.
When Kyle smiled at me that day I realised how much I missed and how much I loved him, it was sudden, I know, but a year apart from your best friend really helps you see what's right in front of you. Kyle moved into my room and my dad and I set up a spare bed for him, he told me about how Ike had been diagnosed with lung cancer earlier that year and told me about living with Kenny.
Kyle, Kenny and I formed our old group again, minus Cartman he was too busy feeling up Clyde, yes what Kenny said was true they were gay and they were both proud chubby chasers. The rest of the year went normally, Kenny kept dying on a weekly basis, Cartman and Clyde kept their relationship secret, I joined the football team and never cut my hair, and Kyle broke my heart when he started going out with Bebe Stevens just two months before Christmas.
A/N: Each chapter is going to be one important part of the year and the end will summarise what happened overall. It'll probably only be 8-9 chapters long so enjoy!
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