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I could've won. I was so close; all I had to do was continue hiding until the other three fought it out and then kill them while they were tired. Why did I think the boy knew what he was doing? I was reckless and I didn't get any sponsors. I don't think anyone even knew my name despite me being so close to winning. I figured out where the mines were placed in the cornucopia, I got my bag from the feast first only to be killed by a couple of berries? I was the smartest one in that arena and I didn't consider that some food may be poisoned? I was reckless and that cost me. Nobody even knew who I was.
I could've won. This is what I think after Katniss has shot the arrow into me, after the dogs had torn me apart with their teeth and claws till I was barely alive, after the dogs left me to bleed out and Katniss ends it. If I had moved my hand out of the way faster I coiud've done it. My plan to kill Peta and throw him at her would've worked. I could've won if Thresh hadn't killed her, if I had been faster and saved her. Clove would at least make things equal but I guess it didn't go that way. It went her way. Katniss and her happily ever after with her pretty boy Peta. That's the way it's supposed to go right? She's the hero in this story and I'm just some unfeeling career right? Right?
I could've won. I knew I was dying but I didn't think that I would be trampled to death by a crowed. If I had only let the boy bleed out in the ship; I could've told the people there was nothing we could do to save him and then Katniss would be broken and we would have one winner as always. Then there would be no rebellion and district thirteen would be alone in their war. I thought that snow would be a name that would be remembered well. The one satisfaction I had in my last moments was that Coin would also not be a remembered name. Katniss my killer and savoir, my destruction and protector. I think everyone would be happier if I had won. If. Such a big word for such a small meaning. I wonder do others think If? Do the tributes in second place think what they could've done to fix their final mistake?
I could've won. I could've stayed behind the camera and saved my friends from fighting the capitol. I could have kept Prim from becoming a field medic. I wouldn't have led that crazy mission to Snow who was going down anyway. That's the worst part; knowing that Finnic and Prim and Hobbs and everyone else died for nothing. Everyone says we won but I don't think anyone can win this game. To the point that I'm not sure whose luckier; the ones who lived or the ones who died. They call me Katniss Everdeen the girl on fire but all I feel is burnt.