Title: I know
Summary: Not everyone has a happy ending
Disclaimer: I do not own CM
For the challenge my pairing was Gideon/Strauss
Thanks to my amazing beta KM for her help
A dark room with dark and cheap sheets, and two glasses of whiskey. It was always whiskey.
Two bodies, a woman and a man, two troubled souls. One blonde, the other brunette. Dark eyes contrasting the light ones. Yet there she stood in her dark bathrobe, him in his boxers.
They don´t talk, it's been their routine through out the past twenty years. No talk. They have no connection just two bodies. They know what they're doing; they've always known. There's no love making, it's just sex -an act to relieve the pressure of a job that eats her soul. For him, it's the monster he hunts.
They live different and similar lives.
There are no smiles, or kisses, or touches, just the act, something to make the monster and the dreams go away.
She´s married and she loves her husband, she´s given him two amazing children but he just doesn´t understand, and honestly she doesn´t want him to understand; she doesn´t want him to understand the atrocity that some "people" can do to another.
They think she´s cold and she doesn´t care; they don´t know, and she doesn´t have the time or the need to explain.
He's haunted by the monsters -they don´t go away, and he needs to feel. He doesn´t love her; she´s just a body. He knows she doesn´t love him either and he is OK with it, he couldn't handle love.
Sarah was love, Erin is, well he doesn´t know what Erin is.
He's looking outside and she´s drinking again.
"I can't do this anymore, this was the last time."
"I know."
"You do?"
"Of course I know; I can see it in your eyes."
"I'm a profiler if I..." he never gets to finish that sentence.
"Oh Jason, don´t give me the profiler crap. You work with the best and they never could see us; you can't hide everything, not from me. I may not love you but give me a break, after twenty years I know you, so I do know."
"He killed her."
"I know."
"I just can't…"
"I know."
"I wrote a letter."
"For him?"
"Yeah, he´s like my son…I feel like a coward but I can´t see him; he just can´t see me walk away."
"I know."
"Damn it Erin, I´m talking to you and all you have to say to me is 'I know'."
"Yes, Jason, I´m not important for you, but that's why you´re not asking me. You just told me that you leave I can´t say anything to change your mind, so I´m telling you what you need to hear, I owe you that much." She tells him and he can hear the hurt in her voice
"You´re wrong Erin, you´re important to me."
"Don´t lie to me Jason! We didn´t do it in twenty years, don´t do it now! We both know I´m not important, and we´re OK with that. Now leave please." She lies to him, not knowing that he can tell, because he needs to leave and she was right she owe him this much.
He finished dressing and goes to the door before leaving he speaks softly. Maybe she could hear him and didn't want to, or maybe he hoped she didn't because no matter what they did or didn't have between them, he never wanted to live with knowing he broke her heart.
"It wasn´t a lie; you´re important to me, maybe too much. That´s another reason for me to go."
The last thing he hears from that motel bedroom is a whispered: "I know."
Fin