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Something he had never thought he would do was have sex with another man. In his life he had always found women attractive, that was until he had met Sweden, when they had both come to live at Denmark's house. While they were there the Dane had gone out of his way to convince Finland that the Swede was not a good person; that he would like nothing more than to take everything from him until there was nothing left. For years he avoided the large man, convinced he was a violent monster. Thinking that he was going to hurt him any chance he got. He didn't see the man for what he was until he made the snap decision to leave with him, to venture out and become his own country under the Swede's watch. It turned that the Dane had also been feeding him lies about the Fin. Telling him how much he feared and hated him, although not entirely untrue he did nothing to dissuade him of those notions.
That had been about a year ago, now they lived in a house Sweden had built for them, Sweden had even let him keep a stray dog that had wandered onto their property, although she was not allowed to sleep in the bed with them. He was still a bit upset that Sweden had been so against it. He wanted to lay in bed on mornings he felt particularly lazy and cuddle with the small fuzzy dog. It was something the large man would not budge on, and Finland know he was being a bit selfish about it, but he just felt the need for extra attention. Maybe he was being a bit selfish, this man had built everything for him, given him the ability to be free from the rule of Denmark.
He looked out the kitchen window towards the sauna the larger man had built for him. Maybe he was just being unreasonable, it seemed over the past week they had done nothing but bicker and it all came down to the dog, when really Finland's issues had nothing to do with the dog. After being together for a year he was afraid the Swede would become bored with him and leave for someone stronger and had more to offer the man. Even with all of the reassurance from the blonde Finland felt that he was inferior and could not give the Swede what he needed.
The last time the Fin had picked a fight had been that morning as Sweden had been leaving for the day, he had gotten a bit petty accusing the Swede of never given the Fin anything. Sweden had called him selfish and accused him of being childish. Maybe it was time he moved out, built his own house and governed his own land. It would relieve the Swede of much of his unneeded stress. He could feel tears well up in his eyes at the thought of leaving the home they had built together. He just wanted Sve to be happy, he wanted him to have everything he wanted and if that meant Finland had to leave he would.
Decided he would go sit in the steam of the sauna to help clear his head and make his decision. He had gotten undress and poured water over the hot stones before he became lost in his own thoughts. He didn't know how long he had been there before the door to the sauna shocked him back to reality. He had just been going over how he would break the news of his leaving to Sweden when he looked up to see the man looking down at him from the doorway.
"Finland," He acknowledged before sitting down on the bench across from him.