A/N: So I love the losers so much and Cougar/Jensen is definitely my favorite couple. Although this story may not seem like it, they are the couple in this story… Please let me know what you think cause this story may take awhile. Just as an extra note, my other fic I'm writing is taking priority currently… Oh and this is my first slash of any kind…

Disclaimer: I do not own the Losers. If I did the comics wouldn't have ended the way it did.

Rating is mostly for language…

Chapter 1

"Cougar. Are you in position?" Clay's voice came over the radio.

"Si."

Cougar was in place, high above the others, watching their backs as they made their way into building. It was the next part that made him nervous.

"Jensen. Head in."

Cougar watched as Jensen entered the building and narrowed his eyes, there wasn't nearly as many windows as he would wish. How could he hope to keep Jensen safe if he was nearly blind? No matter how uncomfortable he and the others had been about this mission, orders were orders. He mentally shrugged off the worries that were plaguing him.

"I'm in."

"Good job, Jensen. Maintain position and monitor incoming communication."

"Can do boss-man."

Cougar's worry returned as Jensen disappeared completely from view. Jensen was a big boy and had all the same training as Cougar and the others, but that didn't stop Cougar from worrying.

"Package secured. Pooch, ready the car."

"Already done."

"Head out. Cougar cover… Oh shit.."

"What's up boss?… Nevermind."

Cougar took aim as a group of guards rushed in. He heard Clay on the radio, they were being attacked as well.

"Jensen. Where was our warning? We are being swamped in here," Roque joined in.

"Boss you need me to come in?"

"No Pooch, we can handle this. Jensen! Where are you?"

Cougar tried to contain his panic as there was no sound from Jensen. He took out as many of the guards as he could as quickly as possible.

"Roque grab the package. Cougar check on Jensen."

Cougar didn't need any further prompting to pack his gear and run to Jensen's last known location. He opened the door slowly, prepared for an attack.

"Jensen?"

He looked around the run, something was definitely wrong. There were a bodies lying on the floor, all guards, and Jensen's computer and equipment was still on the table. Jensen would never, never leave Carmen (his computer) behind. There were signs of a struggle but no Jensen.

"Clay… we need to get out of here now. They're sending reinforcements in."

"Losers. Fall back."

"What about Jensen?"

Cougar practically froze as he waited for Clay's response.

"No time."

"I'm not leaving him."

"This is an order, soldier. Move out."

Cougar hesitated and Clay continued in a softer tone.

"I'm not comfortable leaving him either but we need to get out now."

Cougar ran to the entrance, putting his emotions behind bars for the moment as he watched out for his other teammates. Roque and Clay were nearly at the van, Roque carrying an unconscious man, their package. He had barely climbed in the van before Pooch drove out of the lot. Clay strapped the unconscious man in his seat before carefully moving back to sit near Cougar.

"Listen to me, Cougar. This is not your fault. It's not any of our faults. Jensen was… is perfectly capable of taking care of himself and he joined up knowing the risks of these missions."

Cougar heard Clay's slip about Jensen. It was true that Jensen probably wasn't dead, he would have seen the body, but if he was taken that would mean torture. He composed himself before answering Clay. He didn't want the others to know how upset he was, they couldn't know that Cougar had loved Jensen.

"No. This is my fault, he was my responsibility. You put me in charge of his safety the week he joined our team."

"You listen to me Cougar," Clay knew he needed to be as clear as possible to get through to Cougar, "This is no one's fault. Least of all yours. This was a foolhardy mission in the first place. We will return to find him… And we will find him."

It almost sounded as if Clay was trying to reassure himself as well. They needed Jensen back and they would do whatever it took to find him. Clay knew Cougar had a soft spot for Jensen, but if they ever hoped to rescue him, he needed Cougar focused. He moved back to his seat to give Cougar sometime to think. Cougar knew Clay was right but he still felt guilty. He pulled his hat down over his eyes, to the others it would look like he was sleeping, but it was really to hide his tears.

Lo siento.

Spanish:

Lo siento: I'm sorry