Prologue

Sixteen years ago.

I could see her being cleaned off. It was my little girl and yet I couldn't even hold her. She was taken away from me but we shared a moment. She turned and looked at me and then Liam and Hiram followed the nurses out of them room with her. She was my daughter and that was the last that I was going to see of her.

It was a few moments later that there was a sharp pain. It was the same pain that I had when I was giving birth to my daughter but it was happening again. I paged the nurse and she came running in and then ran to go get the doctor. I had no idea what was happening but I knew that whatever it was it was not normal. When the doctor came rushing in there was no time to explain what was happening. He asked me to push again and I did. Two minutes later my second daughter was born.

I was only contracted for one child and my second daughter was a shock to Liam and Hiram. They were happy with just my first child, Rachel, that was what they called her. They let me keep my second daughter and they took Rachel away. After they cleaned her off they handed her to me and she looked at me with the same eyes as her sister had.

"Hi baby." I held her little hand as the tears fell from my face. She was so tiny and such a surprise. I never thought that I wanted to be a mother but there was something about Rachel that changed that and now I was here with her sister and it was like a second chance for me.

With her in my arms I promised myself that one day Rachel was going to be mine again. I just needed time and a plan.

Present Day.

"Kennedy breakfast is ready and grab Beth on your way down!" I was in the kitchen making pancakes as I heard her coming down the stairs.

"You know this isn't a huge house you don't have to yell."

"Sorry. Are you ready for today?"

"Yeah. I have my stuff for school and then for rehearsal afterwards." There was a knock on the door and after Kennedy put Beth in her high chair she went to answer it.

"Hey Beth." I walked over to her and gave her a small pancake that I had made for her.

It had gotten quite and I was starting to worry when Kennedy didn't come back into the kitchen. I took the last of the pancakes off the pan and then I grabbed Beth and walked to the front door. That was when I saw Kennedy face to face with Rachel.

When I had contacted Rachel through Jesse I was going to tell Kennedy about her but I couldn't. Kennedy and I were getting along which was new and I didn't want to ruin it and when I realized that I had missed my chance with Rachel I was glad that neither of them knew about each other. It would have just made things complicated but now I had no idea what I was going to do.

"Rachel what are you doing here?" I was shocked that she was standing at my door.

"Wait you know her?" Kennedy seemed upset.

"What do you mean by know her, Shelby is my mother. Who are you?" Rachel had her hands on her hips.

Seeing them here together I could tell how different they were. Rachel was dressed in a navy blue and polka dotted halter dress with knee socks and black shoes while Kennedy was dressed in a tight black tank top with shorts on and a pair of tennis shoes. Rachel wore her hair straight and pinned back while Kennedy wore her hair curly and loose around her face. They both had bangs and their eyes were gazing over each other but that seemed to be all they shared.

"No I'm her daughter." Kennedy's reaction pulled me from my comparison.

"Girls I think we need to talk."

"I have to go." Kennedy grabbed her things and ran from the house before I could call her back while Rachel stood there waiting for an explanation.

"Rachel would you like to come in?" I held the door open as she walked into the house and sat down on a chair in the kitchen.

I put Beth into her high chair and she went back to eating her pancake while I took a seat in front of Rachel.

"So why did you come here?"

"Well I was thinking about everything that happened between us and well you just can't not be my mother. I mean I was going to tell you that I still need you, maybe not need you like Beth but I need my mother and I am not taking no as an answer. What I don't understand is who that girl was."

"Rachel that is my daughter Kennedy."

"Are we..."

"Twins? Yes. You are identical twins."

"And you couldn't be my mother?"

"Rachel..."

"No I don't understand. You had a daughter, you had a part of me but you don't want the real thing? Do you love her more?"

"It's not that..."

"Then what is it?" Rachel stood up and then stormed out of the house leaving Beth and I alone.

I looked over at Beth and saw the mess that she had made. Beth always knew how to make me feel better. I smiled and then cleaned up the mess she had made.

"Well Beth what are we going to do about your sisters?"

I needed to get out of there. I could not believe her. Shelby said that I didn't need her and that she couldn't be my mother. I needed her. I needed a mother, I still need a mother. I could not believe that all this time she was hiding my sister from me. I mean it would be one thing if she could be my mother and I was it but it's another thing that she has a daughter my age and she couldn't let me in. There was one place that I needed to go right now and that was to a stage.

As I pulled into the parking lot I could see that there was no one there yet. I parked in a spot and then ran into the auditorium. I could hear the stage beckon me as I walked closer. It was strange but this was the one place that I could alway go when I was upset. I stood upon the stage and looked out to the audience when I heard someone behind me. I slowly turned to see Shelby daughter, my sister, standing behind me with her arms crossed.

"What are you doing here? Don't you go to Carmel?" I crossed my arms and then dropped them not wanting to imitate her.

"I followed you."

"Why?"

"Because my mother, our mother." She corrected herself. "Had no right to not tell us about each other."

"And?"

"Aren't you even curious about me? Don't you want to know if I can sing? You have to want to know something."

"I do but this is just so weird."

"Tell me about it."

"So can you?"

"Can I what?"

"Sing?"

"Name a song."

"What is This Feeling from Wicked."

"Take Elphaba's part will you?"

"With pleasure."

She took one side of the stage while I took the other side. She started out with her part.

"Dearest darlingest Momsie and Popsicle..."

"My dear Father." I looked at her and then back out to the audience.

"There's been some confusion over rooming here at Shiz." Our voices carried through the hall in harmony as we sang together. It was an amazing feeling.

"But of course, I'll care for Nessa." I sang turning to her.

"But of course, I'll rise above it." She sang turning to me. And then we both sang.

"For I know that's how you'd want me to respond. Yes. There's been some confusion for you see my roommate is..."

"Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe..." She sang taking a step forward."

"Blonde." I countered her movement.

"What is this feeling, so sudden and new?"

"I felt the moment I laid eyes on you."

"My pulse is rushing."

"My head is reeling."

"My face is flushing." Then we both sang again.

"What is this feeling? Fervid as a flame. Does it have a name? Yes! Loathing. Unadulterated loathing." She took over again.

"For your face."

"Your voice."

"Your clothing." That one hurt a bit as I compared the differences in our clothing options but we continued singing together for the next part.

"Let's just say-I loathe it all. Every little trait, however small makes my very flesh begin to crawl with simple utter loathing. There's a strange exhilaration in such total detestation. It's so pure, so strong! Though I do admit it came on fast. Still I do believe that it can last. And I will be loathing, Loathing you my whole life long!"

As we paused to catch our breath there was an interruption of clapping from the audience as Mr. Schuester stepped towards the stage.

"That was fantastic." He had not noticed the resemblance of my sister and I in the crummy lighting.

"I'm impressed Rachel who is that?" He pointed to my twin and I froze. In the chaos of this morning I never really caught her name.

"Umm..."

"My name is Kennedy." She stepped forward and I saw Schuester freeze for a moment and then look at me.

"Are you two related?"

"Yeah, we're cousins." Kennedy was quick to answer.

"So are you visiting?"

"I live in the area but Rachel said that she would show me around here. I hope you don't mind."

"Well make sure you stop by Glee. The kids would love to hear you sing." Mr. Schuester walked off stage and I waited until I knew he was gone before I turned to Kennedy.

"Aren't you going to get into trouble not going to Carmel?"

"Probably but what's the difference?"

"There is a huge difference."

"My mom is going to be mad at me even if I do go to school so I would rather just spend the day with you if that is alright."

"I guess."

I grabbed my stuff from the stage and she followed me into the building and around the hallway. I could see the people staring at her and it mad me jealous of her. We were exactly the same except for the way we dressed and here she was getting more attention. As I saw the football players approaching I groaned. I was about to get out of their way when a slushy flew at my face. My new dress was ruined and I had forgotten my change of clothes at home today.

As they walked around me they all stared at Kennedy and then walked away. There was nothing I could do but run into the bathroom. I was washing my hair out when Kennedy handed me some clothes to change into.

"What are these?"

"They are my rehearsal clothes for Vocal Adrenaline but I think you need them more than I do."

"Thanks." I turned off the water from the sink and then dried my hair and changed.

When I was done we were late for first period so we just walked outside instead and sat down at a picnic table.

"So does that happen a lot?" Kennedy asked looking at her shoes.

"Yeah."

"You know at Carmel we are treated like royalty."

"What are you saying?"

"Nothing."

"No you are telling me to go to Carmel."

"All I am saying is that you would be appreciated there that is all."

"I am appreciated here."

"Okay. But that was not what that blue drink to your face said."

"Okay well maybe the rest of the school doesn't like me but my Glee club does."

"Alright."

The rest of first period was silent. She followed me around the rest of the day. It was weird having her do teachers didn't even notice although everyone in Glee did. When we walked in for rehearsal after school they all went up to her and started to ask her a bunch of questions. I took my seat in the chairs and waited for Mr. Schue to come in. When he did everyone took their seats but I could still hear their whispers.

"Cousins? So Kennedy got the looks and the talent. Wish she could have given some of that to Rachel." Santana was talking so I could hear her.

"Alright." Mr. Schue started which I was glad for. "I can see that you all met Kennedy. she is visiting with us today so I hope you can make her feel welcome. Today we will be looking at songs for sectionals. Quinn and Sam I would like you to take the leads on this."

"Wait what?" I could feel my jaw hit the floor.

"Rachel you always get the lead and this time I just thought that it would be nice to give it to someone else for a change."

"Finally." Quinn's snotty comment made me turn around and then look back at Mr. Schue.

"You have got to be kidding me. I am a star you just can't give my solo's away."

"Rachel everyone deserves a chance to shine."

"Yeah Rachel you are not the only one who can sing around here." I was hurt by what Mercedes said.

"This cannot be happening."

"Rachel I have had enough now stop this." Mr. Schue raised his voice.

"No I have had enough." I got up and stormed out of the choir room.

I was fuming. how dare he just replace me like that. I was the best singer in this whole bunch and yet her was letting Sam and Quinn sing, this was an outrage. I was almost to my car when Kennedy caught up to me.

"Hey wait up." I turned and waited for her to catch up.

"What do you want?" I could feel the tear streaming down my face.

"Are you just going to let them treat you like that?"

"Like I have a choice."

"You do Rachel."

"What are you talking about?"

"Come to Carmel with me."

"No I can't..."

"Yes. Think of it this way. You are mad at our mom because of what she did to you, your glee club doesn't want you as their star, and your school treats you like crap. At Carmel you have to make our mom face what she did, your glee club is going to sink, and you will be treated like a queen. Where can you go wrong?"

"I don't know..."

"Just come with me to practice today. If you don't think it will work out fine but trust me Dustin will be doing flips just to get you."

"Fine but only because I have no where else to go." I got into my car and I followed her to her school.

As I pulled into the parking lot I could not believe that I had agreed to this. I had dreams about coming to this school but I never picture me being invited to come here. I got out of my car and followed Kennedy into the auditorium where they were having rehearsal. As we walked in Dustin stopped rehearsal and looked at us.

"Well look who finally decided to join us." He directed his comment forcefully at Kennedy.

"Chill will you I came baring gifts."

"And what is that?"

"Someone who can hold their own in vocals and harmonize with mine. Oh and did I mention she is from New Directions?" Dustin seemed intrigued by what she said.

"Who?" She stepped aside.

"Rachel Berry sir." I saw a smiled cross Dustin's face as he turned to his group.

"Take five." They cleared the stage and he walked up to us. "Your mother has been looking for you Kennedy but I like your style."

"Thanks."

"So Rachel what brings you here?"

"I am having some problems with my club and Kennedy suggested that I should come here."

"She did?" He turned to her and then back to me.

"Yes sir."

"Kennedy you and Rachel sing something." She smiled and then took my hand and led me towards the stage.

"Kennedy what are you doing?"

"Let's sing like we did this morning."

"You said that I didn't have to join..."

"You don't."

"This seems like an audition."

"Trust me."

"Alright."

We got onto stage and Kennedy talked to the music director and the music started. This performance was different from this morning. There was something in the air that made this feel like home. This stage called to me with a strong voice and when Vocal Adrenaline joined in at the chorus it was like this was where I belonged. We finished the song to a standing ovation from Dustin.

"Well Miss Berry if you want in just say the word." Kennedy turned to me and smiled and I returned the gesture and then looked back at Dustin.

"I want in."

A/n: So this is my first glee fanfiction. Please review and let me know what you think I am new at this! I hope you liked it.

-Katie