Ok, this is a one-off. Bella goes to New York with Alice and Rosalie to pursue a fashion career and mets a guy called Josh. She sleeps with him and Edward, stuck in Forks, dumps her and Bella realizes her mistake and tries to apologize but Edward keeps ignoring her. So she rights this letter
Dear Edward,
I love your smell. I indulge in your silky skin- your green eyes and long lashes. I cannot live without you. I am a vampire, I'm ready to give my life for you. I would do anything to be yours. Don't push me away.
I am sorry. Joshua swept me in, a dazy romance. I'd do anything to be yours. Emmett trusts you and trusts you to be with me. You saved my live from James. And for that I'd give anything for that. So please, I need you.
I am so happy that I moved to Forks. I met you. I became a vampire. For you. I gave up a normal life so we could be togethe for eternity. Alice and Rosalie are begging you to. I'm sorry that I moved to New York with them and met Joshua. I'm sorry that this whole thing happened. Please Edward, FORGIVE ME!
Bella