Worth Humiliation

I'm not really sure why I haven't left yet. Why haven't I just packed up and headed to a more sophisticated…maybe higher paying job?

Maybe it's because this is really my only place to stay. But, no, that's not true either. If I tried, I know I could get enough money to move out and rent my own place. That's a possibility. It's just not one that I'm taking. Because even then, this place would be my only home.

It sounds awful to put it that way. I suppose the most stoic and less cheesy way to say it would be that this is…where my allies lie. Yes, you are my allies, and I could never betray you for that.

Besides, sometimes when you get in your little fights over food and other pointless arguments, I remember something else very important.

You wouldn't survive without me.

You might think that I'm overestimating my worth. I'm really not.

I can imagine it now- it horrifies me honestly- the two of you out alone on a case. Charmy would get distracted, Vector would get angry, you'd fight and never get the case done. You wouldn't get paid, you wouldn't get food.

Maybe you would learn eventually, though. I'm not underestimating the both of you. Charmy is a very good tracker, and Vector's an excellent detective. It's just that you'd never make it through if you were trying to be stealthy. You do need a ninja.

The more I think about it, the more I realize you need…me. I'm kind of honored by the thought, although a ninja like myself should give himself more honor than that. But I take what I have. It-it is better than I admit.

Anyway, maybe that is why I haven't sought a better place to use my skills yet. You need me, and I will not easily betray you. In fact, I won't at all.

It's well worth the work to see you are still alive and well. Even if humiliation is involved. But I should stop before I sound sentimental.

It may be too late for that.

In which case, let me take my humiliation a bit further and say that actually I need you too.

I need you because I don't know how my life would've gone otherwise. I need you because I never really want to know. I need you because you're my...allies.

Now I know I've said too much.