I lie and wait in the darkness.
Wait to feel his unneeded breath on my neck,
His cold body melding against mine.
I know how bad this is,
How wrong,
But I can't help but want to feel his arms wrap around me.
They're so strong.
To feel his fangs
Piercing my skin,
Drinking my life's essence,
Drinking me in.
God, how I love him.
But I know that's not what this is to him.
To him I'm a meal
And occasionally a fuck.
And I know I should stop this,
Stop pressing my luck.
Cause it'll be over soon.
He'll kill me, I know.
But I just can't stop
That shred of hope
From glowing.
And so I'll keep going,
Keep pressing my luck.
And eventually he'll kill me
But still I'll have nothing but love for him in my heart.