Eros and Thanatos
Fear
(#04 -- Inner Demons)
A/N: I've decided to collect the Tenten oneshots I'll be writing for the LJ community 50 shinobi in a set. I'll have a summary for each one at the beginning of the chapter and a word count.
Oh, and the title, I chose for fun. Psychological principle. Freud's theory. Freud believed that humans had an eros and thanatos. Eros was a life instinct and thanatos was a death instinct. Eros is what propels us to seek behaviors in favor of life, while thanatos compels us to engage in risky and dangerous behaviors. Once we get closer to our death time, our body knows it and is therefore more inclined to listen to thanatos instinctual behaviors. (Maybe, I'm just the only one who thinks that's cool. :p)
The set will also not be going in any particular order.
Toodles, much love.
Summary: Her biggest demon is herself.
Word Count: 204
Sometimes she's afraid she's just a big scaredy-cat.
When she's actually doing her thing, in the midst of a heavy battle, the thought doesn't even occur to her. It never crosses her mind to runaway or even to scream. That is only due to the fact that her limbs are twirling, her body twisting, chest heaving, and eyes soaking up every detail that she can't spare running a second thought. Sometimes she's glad she's never been a good multi-tasker.
But when she fails, when her body is overcome with such terrible weakness and frailty that she can't fight back, she feels the fear overwhelm her. There is no physical reaction that can be seen, but the fear is drowning her and if she could run, she would.
She's a fearful creature by nature.
Most people think she's brave. They see her push and shove and fight until there's no breath in her. Neji and Lee have seen her at such weakness that she can't move, not even an inch. They think she's stupid and incredibly brave for fighting so long and so hard.
What they don't realize -- what the world can't quite see -- is that she's just too scared to run away