"The gang Lily? Here is what the gang is to me. It's a married couple, about to have their third child, it's my ex-husband, hitting on slutty what evers right in front of me…" Robin's voice cracked and she shook her head, unable to continue.

"Oh sweetie." Lily took a step towards her but Robin but a hand up.

"No, don't. I just…I need to get out of here, I'm sorry."

Lily nodded and watched as Robin left the apartment. She almost jumped when Barney suddenly jumped through the window.

"I screwed up, huh?" He asked, "I didn't know she'd be here."

Lily looked over at Barney, he looked ridiculous in his costume, but then again, he'd been making a fool out of himself a lot lately.

"I need to pee." Lily said and turned around.

…

Robin only made it into the hallway before she started to cry uncontrollably.

Why had she thought coming here tonight would be a good idea? She should have ordered Sushi and stayed in.

Or gone to some random bar and picked up by a stranger. Maybe that would have helped her get her life back on track.

It's not like things could have gotten worse if she'd done that.

"I'm sorry." She barely heard the words but still knew the second his arms wrapped around her who was talking.

He turned her around and she stepped away, but he didn't let her out of the embrace and so they ended up hugging in the hallway, him leaning on the wall.

"I'm sorry." He said again, very sincerely.

So apparently things could get worse, Robin thought and pushed back.

"What? Why? I don't know what you are thinking but I'm not crying over you, so stop this."

They were disrupted by the apartment door being opened.

Great, another person who'd see her like this, Robin frowned.

Barney moved so quickly and swift that he caught her by surprise when his lips collided with hers and his hands shifted her head in the right angle.

Reflexes kicked in and her hands flew up to his torso, surprisingly her fingers brushed against metal.

"Get a room." Robin heard someone say behind her.

Barney stopped kissing her and pulled her against himself instead, her face turned away from the people who had just exited the party.

"Call me." A female voice called over and Robin guessed that it was the slutty cop from earlier.

She stepped back and away from him the second they were alone again, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear.

"Look, can we talk?" Barney asked.

Robin didn't get his angle, was he looking for a backslide?

"We could go to the 24hr diner one block over." He proposed.

"Talk about what? How it's inappropriate to just kiss me these days?"

"I was doing you a favor, you hate it when people see you cry."

"I doubt that's an excuse that would hold up in court."

"Robin, can we please talk?" He asked once again.

What did she have to loose?

"Fine."

…

She noticed how people were eyeing them. She in her business attire and he in his ridiculous rocker costume, they were certainly a werid combo.

They'd ordered coffee but hadn't talked yet.

"So you got a nipple piercing, huh?" Robin finally asked to break the silence.

Barney nodded, "it's supposed to be stimulating."

"Supposed? It's not working?" She asked.

Barney shook his head, "honestly, nothing has been working since we broke up."

"What?" Robin asked surprised, she wasn't expecting such an honest revelation. Or maybe it was just a joke, or part of a play to get her into bed.

"Turns out you ruined me for other women."

"Yeah right."

"I'm serious." Barney insisted.

Their coffee came and their little bit of conversation died off completely once again.

"Well, maybe the slutty cop can get you out of your funk." Robin finally said bitterly.

"Robin? Can we…be honest right now?"

"Sure."

He took a deep breath, "I really miss you."

"Yeah, I saw that."

"I didn't know you were coming. You didn't come to any of the group get-togethers, how should I have known that you were coming tonight?" He was clearly frustrated that she was still bringing him hitting on another woman up but then he calmed down again, "I would have worn Cornelious if I'd known that you'd be there. And I would have brought your Canada mug and finally given it to you. And I would have gotten a haircut and worn the aftershave you gotten me."

"Barney I'm going to stop you right there. You don't have to make anything up to me, okay? Yes, I might have had an emotional moment…but it was something that Lily said, not you."

"I thought we'd be honest with each other." He retorted, "I heard the whole conversation, I went after you the second you walked away."

Robin sighed heavily.

"I'm not trying to humiliate you Robin, and I'm not trying to make myself feel better for what happened on that roof either. I just want to talk to you about what happened to us."

"There is nothing to talk about. You wanted an out and I gave it to you."

"You offered an out and I took it. I never would have suggested getting a divorce myself."

"Oh great, so it's all my fault."

"No. We hit a rough patch and were too lazy and busy to work on our issues."

"Why does it even matter?" Robin asked annoyed.

"Because I need to know how you really feel about the divorce Robin."

She averted her gaze and he reached over and took her hands in his.

"Okay, I get it. Opening up and being vulnerable sucks, so I'll go first. Robin, I love you. And I was unhappy in our marriage. But here is the thing, I am miserable now. The last months have shown me what unhappy really feels like. I miss you so damn much, you were my best friend for so long and now I got nothing. I went through a divorce, and couldn't even rely on my best friend to be there to pick me up. You know how much that sucked?"

"Yeah, I do." Robin replied softly.

"Being stuck in a luxury hotel room in an amazing city, waiting for this hot chick to come back seems like a fairytale now, even when having to deal with no wi-fi."

Robin smiled, "so what? You want to get back together? Is that what you are asking?"

Barney shook his head, "I want to know how you feel. I need to know in order to move on. Because if you are happier now, then it's worth it."

"I miss you too." She whispered.

Barney started to grin, "really?"

She nodded, "but I…I don't know if I'm ready to sacrifice my job for this. I mean, I should, I know that but I am scared that I'll regret it one day. I mean right now I'm on the verge of becoming a huge success, but I can't have both and …"

"You can." He interrupted her.

"What?"

"I'm not asking you to give up your career. I'll have a better attitude if we'll go back to traveling. I mean I get to explore all these amazing places, I got nothing to complain. And the daily boner joke is over anyway, turns out it's really hard to think of them when you are going through a break-up and can't even get a boner yourself."

It made her grin for a second but then she sobered up again, "Barney this is insane."

"Yes but…we never should have gotten divorced Robin. I mean what the hell where we thinking?"

"But we did and that changes things."

"Not for me."

She closed her eyes for a moment.

He was sitting next to her when she opened them again, his arm resting around her shoulder.

"I love you Robin." He whispered.

"You look so dumb in that wig." She replied.

He took it off and smoothened his hair out, "better?"

"Barney we can't keep doing this. I mean we got divorced, that's huge!"

"Because neither one of us had the guts to stop the whole thing and reveal how he really felt about it. Neither one of us wanted to make a fool out of themselves. But I don't care anymore Robin. I mean look at me, I am making a fool out of myself right now."

"You aren't." She replied softly, her hands playing with his yellow scarf.

She could tell that he was hesitating and looked back up, smiling lightly.

That was all the permission he needed and he leaned in and kissed her gently, whispering, "will you please give this another chance?" when he moved back.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" she replied softly.

He nodded, "100%."

This time it was her who leaned in to kiss him.