A/N: ...My first ever songfic. Enjoy!
Chapter One:
He'd gone too far this time. This time, she would leave and stay at home unless he came to apologize. No longer would she suffer for the sake of reparing the Shikon no Tama. She was sick and tired of putting up with him. And now, she was going.
I've gone for too long, living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
Insulting her, telling her she was a useless bitch that got in his way. And then he had slapped her, hard. What had gone wrong in his mind? She was trying to help him, and he didn't care. She'd stayed for him, and he didn't care. What did he care about? Kikyou. That dead witch. Nothing else.
When this memory fades
I'm going to make sure it's replaced
With chances taken, hope embraced
And have I told you
Slowly Kagome came to a stop. Why was she leaving? How could leaving him punish him? He'd want her to leave. He'd expect it. He would go on with his life, happy that the obstacle in his way was gone.
She whirled on her heel. Staying would be punishment for him. Sitting him to hell would be punishment enough for Inuyasha. Nothing else worked.
I'm not going, 'Cause I've been waiting for a Miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you, let you give up on a Miracle
When it might save you
Kagome began walking back, knowing he wouldn't be there. Inuyasha would be off somewhere, most likely with that clay pot Kikyou. Anger bubbled up in her as she got closer and closer to where they had started fighting.
Miroku and Sango would be there, and so would Kirara and Shippo. They were her friends. She didn't need Inuyasha to make her happy. Seeing of such a great job he did doing that anyway, Kagome was better off without him...
Her heart beat slowed. Inuyasha was the only reason she stayed. Why couldn't he see that she was miserable without him? ...Probably because she acted upset with him. It was all her fault. He wouldn't act terribly if she didn't sit him all the time. And he wouldn't have to be sat if she had never undid the cursed arrow.
It was all her fault that the Shikon no Tama was broken, too. It was all her fault about everything. If the Shikon jewel hadn't been broken, Naraku wouldn't have raised to power. And if Naraku hadn't been raised to power, he would have never gone after Sango's village for the broken shards of the jewel.
And...Miroku's wind tunnel was all Naraku's fault, so it was all Kagome's fault too. Shippo's father had a jewel shard, as it seems, so it was her fault he was killed. Kohaku killed everyone because it was Naraku's plan to get the jewel shards, so that was her fault.
Everything was her fault. So punishing Inuyasha wasn't fair. She shouldn't be complaining...everyone was in emotional and physical pain because of her.
We've learned to run from anything uncomfortable
We've tied or pain below
And no one ever has to know that inside, we're broken
I try to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you
Have I?
Miroku and Sango looked up at her approach. "I thought you were going to your time, Kagome," Miroku said softly, obviously surprised. Kagome shook her head. Quietly she sat down next to the fire in the middle of the group.
"I'm not going to leave because of some stupid argument. It's...pathetic." Her cheek still burned from Inuyasha's hand. She never thought he would ever hit her on purpose. But he did, and there was no changing that. Kagome knew that she deserved it.
I'm not going, 'Cause I've been waiting for a Miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you, let you give up on a Miracle
When it might save you
Now Inuyasha hated her. It was to be expected, so why did she feel so empty? Maybe because she'd been hoping that he had felt the same way about her, too. But he didn't, Inuyasha still felt the same way he did when they first met. They'd somehow wormed their way to being friends...but nothing else.
No, Kagome wasn't disappointed, she really couldn't feel anything at the moment. It was as if she'd gone completely numb of feeling. Who cared, anyway? After this was all over, Kagome would leave to go back to her life, and finish wherever she left off. A normal life, like she had wanted all along.
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why
We'll get it right, this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why
"Kagome-sama! You're still here!" Shippo lunged himself at her, clinging to her shirt. "I'm so glad you didn't leave..." Kagome smiled down at the little kitsune. All around her were people who cared about her. Their smiles were warm and their words were kind.
"HENTAI!" Well...except that one. Miroku deserved that.
I've gone for too long, living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
Yet, Kagome still felt empty. All she wanted right now was to see a certain face smiling at her, not these other people. She was glad that they were always there for her, but...She needed Inuyasha right now. The one person who could console her was the person who had caused her to feel this way. How ironic.
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here
Kagome watched as everyone lay down to sleep, to be ready for tomorrow. All of them were in this together to defeat Naraku, no matter who's fault it was. But one person in particular was missing. She would see him in the morning.
But she wanted to see him now.
I'm not going, 'Cause I've been waiting for a Miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you, let you give up on a Miracle
'Cause it might save you
Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you
It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
"Inuyasha..."
If you use your eyes...
A/N: I hope you liked it.
Please review!
The song used for this chapter was called Miracle, by Paramore.
