"BOYS! WAKE UP! BREAKFAST IS READY!" Our carer at the Winter Foster Care Centre in the outskirts of London said. I got up, it was probably around 5am, the same time we were woken up every morning. I put my jumper on and followed the other boys down to the dining room where the girls were already waiting in their seats. I sat down in the usual spot I always sit in. The carers came around and placed our bowl of cornflakes and milk in front of each of us. I've never had a good satisfied meal in a while, and I mean my whole life. My names Andy, I'm 18 but I turn 19 tomorrow and I'll be kicked out of here to make my own living. I've been here since forever. Mary, one of the care takers here found me at the front door when I was just a baby, only a few months old. I don't know what the real world is like but I'm really anxious to find out. Not one person who comes here to adopt has willingly decided on me, I've always been on the maybe list, but never chosen, also showed me not to put my hopes up all the time, I really hate it here. I get teased by other boys and girls, some of the boys here are like brothers to me, especially Harry and Nathan, they have always been beside me, but since I'm the oldest, I'll have to leave them here. Alone.
I finished up my cereal and waited till everyone else was done so we could resume our own daily activities, I turned to Harry who was sitting next to me as he began to speak.
"Andy, what are you going to do when you get out of here? How are you going to get money, a home, food-"
"I-I'm not quite sure yet, I have money though, Mary and the others put money into an account for me, enough for me to get new clothes, a place and food. But not enough to live forever, I need to get one of those jobs like the others who leave have, it'll be hard, but at least I get out of this hell hole"
"true, just don't forget me, alright?"
"never will" I smiled and hugged him, he hugged me back. I smiled and pulled away.
"I'll miss you, but don't worry, a family will come and get you, I promise."
"I bloody hope so" he laughed slightly, I smiled and looked across the table to see Emily, she suffered abuse from her family when she was eight and got put in here when she was 13 and she's 15 now, she's always down on herself. She kept scrapping around her bowl, not bothering to eat.
"Emily, hurry and eat so we can go outside" I whispered across to her.
"Andy, I just haven't been hungry lately" she sighed. I bit my lip and put my hand up, Victoria, one of the other care takers came over.
"Yes Andrew?"
"Emily isn't hungry, can we just go?"
"oh but darling, Tyler isn't done" she put her had on my shoulder
"then can I go? I must pack all I have so I can leave tomorrow"
"oh that's right, you're 19, you aren't legal to be here"
"yeah" I smiled slightly and looked down.
"well…off you go then"
"thank you Victoria" I patted Harry's back and smiled at Emily as I got up, making my way back to the room that I had shared with my 'brothers' for the past 19 years. I sighed and went to my bed, grabbing the suitcase I had under it, packing all the clothes that donators have happily given me. I was so happy where I had my bed though, right beside the window, where I could see the seasons go by, Summer fading to Autumn, Autumn fading to Winter, Winter fading to Spring. Never have I experienced the seasons outside the orphanages land but luckily the land is big. Enough for us to have fun in the sun, leaves, snow and flowers, as queer as that sounded. Once I packed up everything I had, including a teddy bear that I have had since forever, apparently they found me with him, my mother must have dropped me with it. Maybe I'll find out who my mother is during this journey in the real world, the world outside this world. I locked my suitcase and looked out the window, staring out to see a foggy, faded city, which was London. I'm ready for this journey. I heard what seemed to be a herd of people running up, here we go.
"COME ON ANDREW, WE'RE ALLOWED TO PLAY IN THE SNOW TODAY" Said Jonathan, the little 8 year old I adored, he was such a nice little boy.
"okay, I'll get ready and be down with the rest of you okay?"
"okay" he smiled and went over to his bed, Nathan came up.
"I'm really going to miss you bro" he smiled slyly. I pulled him into a hug, a manly one, those were the only type we shared.
"I'm going to miss you too" I held back a few tears, these people were my family and I had to leave.
"now, let's venture to the snow?" he laughed
"I'll be down with you guys in 5" I smiled then opened my suitcase annoyed, forgetting that the boys would have wanted to play in the winter snow with me for the last time.

I made my way out the back where everyone was playing on the playground and in the snow with my scarf, beanie, gloves and a warm parka. I smiled at how white the day looked as I walked over to Harry and Nathan.
"Hey" I half smiled.
"sup" Nathan said, smashing a snowball on my head, I gasped and shivered as snow slid down my back.
"oh my god, that's bloody freezing" I was close to saying fucking, but I didn't want the children to hear. Harry and Nathan started to piss themselves laughing.
"you should have seen your face!" Harry laughed.
"ha ha! Very funny" I grabbed a bunch of snow and scrunched it in my hand, throwing it back at them. They squealed and laughed as I run and hid behind the tree. Looking to see them coming up with two snowballs each. I laughed slightly and climbed up the ladder on the tree to the tree house I helped made a couple years back. I sighed to see Tyler and Jackson in there.
"oi, get the fuck out, this is our place" said Tyler, his voice always tough, he always thought he was better than me.
"Says the one who didn't even build it"
"shut up loser, didn't you read the rules on the front? It says 'Jackson and Tyler's hide out, Andy, Harry and Nathan, not allowed'"
"I built this! If anything, I should kick you out. You two are 14, I'm older, get the fuck ou-"
"HAHA! Found you-oh" Harry said, I looked at him, Nathan was there too.
"now it stinks in here thanks to you nerds" Jackson said.
"You know what? I'm actually really happy to be away from here tomorrow, because I won't have to be around you" I said sternly, grabbing Harry's snowballs, throwing them at Jackson and Tyler.
"And if you be rude to Harry or Nathan, I'm coming for you…go Nathan"
Nathan looked at me then threw the snowballs at both of their faces. The two wimps looked like they were about to cry for some reason. I laughed and jumped out of the tree, landing on my feet, Harry and Nathan climbing down behind me, laughing.
"oh wow, dude, I can't believe you did that" Nathan said
"neither can I, but it's my last day, I guess it should be okay" I shrugged.
"COME ON CHILDREN, INSIDE FOR SOME HOT COCOA AND MARSHMALLOWS" Mary yelled out to us, I smiled and went to walk in; I'm going to miss childhood.