Its been a while…Two years hey,A lot has changed, but well, I'm still the same old me, *smiley face* I figured many wouldn't read this story, but you know what,I'm going to write this anyway…Coz authors should be heard…Even if they're crazy…Okay fine,even if theyre psycho,YEAH YOU!I'm not the only crazy/psycho chick here!

So here goes!Ra Ra here,and this time,I won't abandon any story.

NEW A/N: TO READERS WHO ARE JUST BEGINNING THIS STORY,MIGHT I SUGGEST YOU READ CHAPTER 4 FIRST? A whole load of shit happened because people didnt like Chapter two, without knowing my reason behind the chapter many have felt disgusted with the plot and stopped reading, so in earnest,again I say, read Chapter 4 before you actually start reading the story if you feel like you might stop reading this after the scene in chapter 2.

I give you… *Drumroll*

Fired Up

It had been two years since the war had ended.A lot had happened in the two years. Gray had FINALLY accepted Juvia…

Flashback*

"Juvia,Can I ask you something?"Gray inquired

"Anything Gray-sama, do you want Juvia's Buns?"

"*sweat drop*Urm no…Well…erm, I wanted to know, are you free later..?"

Juvia's jaw dropped.

"Are you asking Juvia out?.."

"Just for a walk, it's okay if you don-"

"Juvia wants to go!" *Woooowww*(A/N:That weird Wow sound we hear during the anime at these saucy parts ;P )

"Juvia and Gray-sama *wooooww*,together,Gray sama staring into Juvia's eyes,Gray-sama kissing Juvia,Juvia holding Gray-Sama's-"

"Juvia?"

"AYE!"

"You'll come?"

"Yes Gray Sama!"

"Good…Coz,well, I made a deal with flamebrain before the war…He had to tell Lucy Something…And I promised to tell you something very important…So later…"

Juvia blushed… *Wooooowww*

End of Flashback*

Mavis and Zeref no longer had the curses on them, and they cuddled quietly in a small corner at the back of the guild.

Erza and Jellal looked adorable, with her displaying her latest ex-quip armour, and him looking at her adoringly, lovingly, attentively, the way every woman wants to be looked at.

Levy and Gajeel sat on the floor with dozens of books while Levy translated her runes, and Gajeel pretending to know what was happening, occasionally reaching out and tucking one of Levy's stray locks behind her ears.

It was such a touching gesture… It makes me so happy…And so sad.

Natsu said he had something to tell it me,guess it wasn't that important though, because he never told me anything.

I sigh,I can no longer deny it.

I love him.

I love him so much that I deluded myself into believing that maybe, just maybe he felt the same.

I know he feels something…I really do,how else would I explain the late night visits,or his little gifts and surprises,or waking up next to him in my bed, or the forehead kisses, the extra-long hugs, and him grabbing my hand,just because he can.

I can't…

But…

I see him…

And Lisanna…

And I can't help but wonder…

On those cold nights that he doesn't sneak into my house…Is he in her room? Or when we go on a big mission, does he buy her gifts with all the Jewels?

Does he surprise her too?

Does he fall asleep next to her like he does with me after a long game of Bingo at the guild?

Does he hold her and kiss her on the forehead…

And when he holds her hand…Is that too just because he can?

It's been two years.

Two painful years, and I see him, and her. It hurts. So much. Lisanna isn't a bad person. However, I know that she loves him, who does he love?

I feel my heart constricting painfully once more, but the pain doesn't show on my impassive has become so normal for me to feel it that now I can mask the pain perfectly.

The door of the guild flings open, without even looking up, I know its him, the room always becomes uncharacteristically hot around him, only to be regulated once more by Gray. I turn my head.

Natsu stands at the door, with Lisanna on His back.

I'm such a weakling, It hurts me more than it should, but I smile at the man piggy-backing his other best friend,Happy notices me.I look away, Happy, though just an exceed,can see right through me.

He distanced himself from Lisanna after the war,and I had become quite accustomed to him always being around me.

"Lucyyyyy!" He screams and flies towards me.

I open my arms and catch him.I laugh at his antics.

"Hey Happy, how are you?"I smile.

"Lucy…You're losing weight again… Not that I mind because you won't be so heavy this way-"He starts and I snarl, "But they're going to notice…"He says.

He's right, Erza will hound me, but I can't really say that I'm not eating because I'm in love with Natsu!

She'd kill him.I sigh,I want to go on a solo mission,Lisanna isn't exactly part of team Natsu, but many a time she and Natsu go on missions together,in fact today they're back from their duo mission.

"Lucy!"Natsu shouts,as Lisanna dismounts herself.

I flash him a signature smile and Happy frowns.

I stand up as he darts towards me, Hugging me tightly. I allow myself to be deluded just for a few more seconds, then I lightly push him away.

"How was the mission?"

"It was fun! Hey Lucy do you wanna go on a mission today, team Natsu-"

No Lisanna?

"-and Lisanna"

Ah there it is.

"-picked one before we left,but we wanna ask you first if you like this one or should we take another one?"

They always left the decision making up to me, I have no idea why though.

I look away from him. I'm considering giving up. Lisanna really loves Natsu,If I act on my feelings, Mira will choose me, Erza and the rest too…I can't do this to Lisanna…She loved him first.

And If he loved me like I pretended he did, he would've told me in the past two years.

"I'm sorry Natsu, my spirits and I wanted to go on a solo mission today…" I show him the flyer. He scans it brows furrow and he looks at me with a from.

"Why this one?"He asks lowly.

I blink at the malice in his voice…Is it directed to me or the mission?

"It sounded like something I can do…"I trail off as Erza arrives, taking the flyer.

"Help needed, Attractive female preferably in her twenties, skilled in battle and able to go undercover until the mission is completed,mission :Infiltrating Dark village that is responsible for the disappearance of 22 female mages from Blue Pegasus,Reward :6,000,000,000 Jewels?!"Gray read.

I hadn't actually looked at the reward, I just wanted to help those girls.

"Lucy,NO ."Natsu said, taking the flier to give it to Mira.

I ignored him, I needed to help those girls, the train would be arriving soon, I needed to leave.

Mira looked at me, I nodded that I was going to do the mission anyway.

Natsu stared at me angrily.

"Lucy do you even know why all those girls were from Blue Pegasus?All those girls were mages who tried to infiltrate the village before!If you go there's a chance that you too-"

"I'll be fine-"I start but he grabs my hands.

"LUCY LISTEN!"

"Natsu let go-"

"You CANT GO!"

"Natsu stop it-"

"LUCY-"

"NATSU!"I yelled,he looked startled.

"Contrary to your beliefs, I'm not a weakling.I am going-"

"Then-Then-Then IM COMING TOO!"He said,I smack my head.

"You Can't!"

"Lucy-"

"NATSU."Erza yelled and he looked at her.

"Lucy can do this, she's done plenty of missions like this while you've been away on your missions with Lisanna,She will have no problems,let her go."

Well that's what he didn't know, he looked at me, disbelief and confusion in his eyes.I had been doing many of these kinds of missions whenever he went away.I needed to get stronger, and a result of all my solo missions I did. He tilted his head.

"You went on…These dangerous missions…Alone?"He asked.

Well what did he expect?Did he think I'd wallow in self-pity while he went gallivanting with Lisa?...Okay maybe I did that the first few times…But I realised after that that maybe I could go get stronger while he was away.

"I did."

…. "You could've gotten hurt Lucy!What the hell were you thinking huh?You could've gotten killed or raped even!Then What?"

I didn't know what to say…I looked up, at least he cared.

"But I wasn't…Natsu I have to go, I'll be okay"

He gritted his teeth.I reach up and placed my hand on his cheek.

"Hey, I have to be okay, we need to go on a mission together when I get back,Okay?"I say,and he closes his fiery eyes.

I place a kiss on his cheek and turn to leave the guild.

"Hey Lucy…" I turn and see Natsu still looking upset, "Take Happy with you."

I look at Happy, "Aye Sir!"He calls and flies towards me,I nod at Natsu.

"Hey Lucy…" I turn again.

"Remember to come back to me,we have a mission that you promised."He says, his eyes cast downward,All I can manage is a nod, and I flee from the guild.

A/N: ALLLLLLRIGHTTTT chapter one done, Depressing as Eff, I know -_- , But chill, I plan to make a good story.

Remember to review, I love feedback, makes me wanna update faster ;) Feel free to PM me,I love chatting to fellow fans too, I hope you enjoyed this,Until next time!

XOXO

Ra Ra