Author's Note:Finally my very first fanfic. Now's the only time I realized that it was really hard to make one-if you want to make it good at least. Mostly about Zuko and Azula. With some sibling love too! There are going to be 2 versions to this fic. But believe me the other one is really,well kind of boring. Hope you like it!
AZULA'S POV:
As I gazed at the wall I continued to reflect on my past.
That day, the day I was supposed to be crowned as "Fire Lord Azula". The day of not only my coronation but the day of the faithful Agni Kai. The day I fell into my insanity, the day of my mental breakdown, the day that water bender peasant defeated me, the day that I, Princess Azula of the fire nation was brought in a place like this. An even worst place suited for a noble of royalty than that circus that Ty lee joined. But she came there on her own free will. While I came here forcefully.
In the past years, no one has come to visit me at all.
Well, how should I know if it was already years since
Every Second
feels like a Minute.
Every Minute
feels like an Hour.
Every Hour
feels like a day.
Every Day of my useless life
feels like a week of waste.
Every Week of sadness
feels like a Month of nothing.
While Every Month of nothing
feels like a year of lonliness,
Every Year of my life filled with being alone
yet feels like another decade of stupidity!
Nobody cares about me.
The only reason why Zuzu, my stupid brother put me here, was just to show the world that he did care for his younger sister. That he was loving, forgiving and caring enough to not kill me. But to put me somewhere, somewhere like this mental health facility were I could actually get better, probably a change to in my personality, have a change of heart and lastly have a fresh new heart. Like I said NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME! And you know what? My mother was wrong. She did not love me! She never did and everyone keeps lying about it! Everybody even my own father lied that he did actually care about me.
My father, who I thought was the greatest bender in the world
But I was wrong, because now he dosen't even have his bending.
My father, who I thought was the greatest father in the world that I thought anybody could ever have.
But I was wrong once again, because now I know that he, he is the worst I could ever have. And listening to him only got me nowhere at all!
Now I don't even know if I truly even have a family, that would actually love and support me.
Truly ever even had a real friend who would stick out for me and never betray me, no matter what the cost.
Truly ever even had a real full childhood where things were full of joy and happiness.
Or truly ever even had a real life where sure maybe I would have some mistakes, but I had something to live for, someone to ever even be important too.
All I really do now is sit in my bed made out of wood with a thin mattress. All I ever do is sleep, drink , eat and if I need to go to the bathroom they just escort me there in chains with 12 guards, all elite firebenders. 6 on each side.
I hallucinate daily,
Mostly about the people who I thought loved me or at least cared for me.
My former friends and my so-called family, including my mother, who never cared for me, are usually the ones I usually hallucinate of. But if not them well then my nemesis- the Avatar, that blind earthbender Toph, I think, that water tribe peasant boy, Sokka, and lastly,
the girl friend of the Avatar,
the sister of the water tribe boy,
the frienemy (as far as I can tell to most of thier arguments) of the blind earthbender,
and finally,
the water tribe peasant who cleverly beat me at the day of Sozin's comet,
the water tribe peasant who beat me on the day that was supposed to be my finest hour,
the water tribe peasant who beat me on the day that was supposed to be my coronation,
the water tribe peasant who beat me on the day that I was supposed to be crowned as "Fire Lord Azula".
the first female Fire Lord,
the prodigy,
the one who could produce blue flames, and at a very early age can already generate lightning
the favored child of Former Fire Lord, and presently Phoenix King Ozai.
But she was the one who took it all away from me, and so was my brother.
I just finished my latest hallucinations in the morning
Or at least I thought it was morning since the guard/waiter told me that it was my breakfast. I have a feeling it's afternoon now.
So now everyone in this world ever expects me to do is to just sit around, reflect on my past and other things just to wake up from my insanity. I don't attack anybody here anymore, since after all, all my hope of escaping is long gone. Even if I still do not attack anybody. The hospital still dosen't trust me enough to let go of my chains and the guards. Not even at least make the climate higher in here. They actually lowered it a bit more after I stopped attacking everyone. They probably thought I plan of lowering they're guards just so that when I look so innocent i'll just start attacking them. But no, I won't do that. Shocked?. Should be. But there's no point anyways. When my hope was gone long ago. So was the plans I held on to for my escape.
A few words to explain why I'm crazy?:
Imagine, being abandoned by your only friends,
Because they like your brother more than you,
Your own Mother thinking you were a monster,
Then leaving,
Your dad is the only one who you think loves you,
But your just a pawn in his plans,
So the only way you could make yourself feel good,
Is to kill your brother,
Then you go to a mental health facility,
Where they treat you everyday,
No one comes to visit you because they know you're crazy,
In the end you know that monsters don't have happy endings,
And your whole life is filled with sadneess,
But most importantly,
It is filled with never-ending madness.
"Prince- Ms. Azula here is your lunch for today." the waiter / guard suddendly said kindly interrupting my thoughts.
I just sighed before officially speaking for the officially speaking for the first time since I've been here.
"How long have I been here?" I asked the man just tiny bit kindly.
The man just sighed as well.
A moment of silence was upon us both.
"Are we both just going to have a sighing contest here? Or are you going to tell me the answer?" I snapped with a piercing glare.
The man sighed again. " 4 months." he replied in a deep voice as if trying to pretend that only this was his fake voice. Was it? He was wearing a helmet so I could'nt read his expression nor even see his face and what he looked like. Did I know who he was? Was he just pretending that I didn't know him?
Curiousity overwhelmed me. I could'nt help it. I felt like I just knew this person somehow.
It was only then that I realized that I've been studying him for nearly 10 minutes. I could feel him tense up. Fear. Probably because I've been analyzing him through a glare for so long.
The man sighed again
Now this was certainly starting to get annoying! Why does this man keep on sighing all the time!
Can't he just get straight to the point? I thought angrily. Resist urge not to fire bend at him! My fists were clenching tightly I could already feel it making scars because of my sharp nails!
I groaned. Not because I could'nt stand the annoying man but because of the pain! It hurt so badly.
My eyes were stinging I was already about to cry because of the pain. I noticed that the man noticed my pain and the clenching of my fists. And he finally spoke up.
And I knew from that moment who on earth he was.
Just...
3 words
1 name
7 syllables
15 letters
9 vowels
6 consonants
and I directly knew who he was.
"Azula are you okay?" he asked franatically sensing my pain.
"Zuko?"I screamed half-knowingly, recognizing the voice, he obviously already told me his identity.
"What on earth are you doing here?" I shouted at my brother at the top of my lungs.
I groaned.
Oh, I was definitely going to get a sore throat after this.
Author's Note:
I hope you all liked it and I guess I might be planning to put a chapter 2 to this after. If I get inspired. And maybe if someone at least reviewed. I am very open to suggestions, compliment, comments, violent reactions ( I doubt it if this would happen), and writing tips I'm just new here so I will definitely need a lot of that. Please review and PM me for writing tips please!
CHAPTER #2 COMING-UP SOON!:D