I was in Andy's room something wet was all over the ground, it took me a second to –figure out what I was touching, blood. Andy's blood was all over the place. As I turned on the light, I felt dizzy with what I saw. Andy on the floor my step brother had slit his wrists and had bleed to death. Why would he do that to me.. to.. us? I ran to his side with tears in my eyes 'Andy man I'm here, its Brady, your step brother. If you can here he please squeezes my hand' as I grabbed his hand… nothing….. im too late. 'NO!' I screamed I would not let myself give up on him 'SHAUN!' I called as I started C.P.R on Andy. Shaun a minute later walked into the room 'What do you want m-'cut off half way through his sentence as he saw what I was doing and what had happened 'OH MY GOD ANDY!' he screamed as he ran to my side
'Shaun I need you to call 000' I said in a panic still unable to understand what's going on, all I knew was that it was my fault.

The wait for the ambulance seemed like forever. 'Bradie I think he is gone' shaun said to me indercateing to stop C.P.R, 'NO!' I screamed 'he cant be, . Let. Him. Be.' I started to push on his chest harder and faster determined not to let him die. At that moment the paramatics ran into the room.
'you can move away now my boy' they said to me, but I dident want to leave him. So I continued pretending that I dident hear them. It took shaun and 2 other coppers to pull me away from my step brother's motionless body. The amob's worked on hime for about 3 minets then I herd one say ' Time of Death… 3:46 pm'

The ambalence took my brother away leaving me and shaun alone in our house, me in his room, once they called his time of death I couldent move, all I could do was just stare strait ahead looking at the razor that had just killed my brother.
'Brads you need to move…brad's?' shaun shook my shoulder but I remaind silent and stif. I dident want to talk I dident want to move I just wanted to sit there. 'well if your not going to move, do u mind if I sit here next to you?' shaun askedsitting down next to me. We sat there until there was a knock on the door, shaun got up to answer it.

'Brads this is officer Benjamin recce, he has come to talk to us about what happened' shaun said something to offercer recce but I dident hear and I dident want to. Offercer recce then came to sit next to be 'Hey mate, I know how hard this must be on you, but to u mind answering some questions about your step brother Andy's … suicide ?' I just sat there the word suicide repeating over and over in my head.
' common brads please talk to us, officer Recce needs to know what happened.. its ok you… nothing bad will happen' shaun put his hand on my shoulder. ' it was all my fault' was all I could coke out in a low and quiet voice.
'What do you mean it was your fault?' the policeman asked, looking at me with stabbing eyes….

~~~~Flash-Back~~~~~~

'I wrote a song that I thort would be good to play to the record company and produe to put on our next album' Andy said in a enthusiastic way, 'Andy we told you already we have our next album we don't need any more ideas' shaun snapped back at him
'just give it a listen ok guys'
'what ever Andy just hurry up we don't have all fucking day for you're shit' I replied, see I was having a bad day and I thought that andy was just being a dick like he always is, then andy started to sing
'Oh sweet emergency, Where do I know you're face from? This didactic poetry could kill us all. And my prerogative is simple: To wash away the winter under –'
'do you realy expect up to sing that song Andy you fucking bullshiting. That is shit' I cut him off 'Shaun has written meany songs that are way better than that song, seriously Andy grow up and get your head out of the cloads' I continued, I knew that was hash, honestly I loved the song he was singing but I dident want to lern a new song. I know selfish. 'whats wrong with it ?' andy asked ' DO YOU NEED A STUPID FUCKING ANSWER ANDY.. IF YOU DO THE WHOLE THING IS WRONG ! JUST FUCK OFF UR KILLING OUR BAND !' I yelled at Andy.
'Oh ok well I'll be back in a second'
'Andy im sorry I dident-' he cut me off
'no don't worry about it im fine, im just going to go to the loo for a sec I will be back in a second ok ?' he gave a smile and he was gone…..

He was gone for about half an hour and I started to wonder where he was. 'oh god I feel so bad' I said to Shaun 'don't be he needed it he is probely just up there crying' wow that made me feel heaps better I thought to myself 'well I might just go up and cheak on him, I feel so bad I'll go apologize as well'
'whatever suit yourself' was all Shaun replyed with. And so I walked up to find out where Andy was.

~~~~~~End Of Flash Back ~~~~~~~

By the time I was out of the flash back I had broken down into tears screaming my dead brothers name.