"God Morgan I told you it is all alright!" Reid was yelling, Morgan had come crashing in and demanded they go to dinner as friends with a few friends. They had gotten into a bad fight. About their relationship, that ended two years ago.
"I…" Morgan just wanted his friend to be happy.
"Look, I told you when we started this; I would have nothing left if we broke up. And it is all alright! I wanted a greater commitment then you did. We broke up. We are not even friends. I left the BAU, I gave you that. It has been two years ago. I told you that it is all right."
"How can you being alone be alright?"
"I got the call; remember… they told me you were dead. I died inside, then when you told me you didn't love me, not enough anyways to commit. I was okay with that, I already grieved for you for three weeks. I still love you. I always will, you have my soul. I was actually shocked that you stuck around as long you did. And now it has been two years, and I have given everybody a reason to leave my life, but you stuck around. You should have figured out that it is all alright."
"Spence…"
"No." Reid held up his hand. "All my loves haunt me. You never claimed to be more than a one night stand, and I push people out of my life. I know that everybody I love is going to leave, so I have nothing left to give anybody anymore. Now you crash into my life after two years? And what, think that setting me up with a friend of a friend is the answer to things? I want nobody else Derek Morgan. I have nothing left to give. When we were together, I only ever asked for one thing from a God I know doesn't exist. I wanted to keep just you. Just that once I would be able to keep someone I loved. So I put up this front. I didn't get to keep you. And guess what?"
"What?" Morgan felt sick.
"It is all alright." Reid stated and walked out.
Morgan just stood there. He felt guilty about what happened between them. And suddenly when Reid walked away, he knew it would be the last time he would see his Pretty Boy… and he knew what he was talking about… he was hollow inside, and he wondered if there was a way to fix the whole in his heart and soul… Because if there was one thing Derek knew, it was that nothing was all alright…