Will it ever be the same again?

by His Mossad Ninja

Cody Rhodes and Kayleigh Marks dated for years in high school, but she walked away from him once she found out she was pregnant not wanting to get in the way of what he was destined to become, five years later they run into each other back stage and everything comes back...This is starting that night...I own no one but Kay.

The day had been long and stressful, Kay was ready to just get away from it all give up and walk away. She knew that she was fighting a loosing battle no matter how much she tried Cody would always be the "one" no matter how hard she tried to get over him no matter how hard she tried to push out all the old memories that would come crashing back after seeing him. Grabbing her back she slipped out the back door escaping the mob of fans and hoping to escape being around Cody, he was the last person she wanted to see her break down. The drive to the hotel was a silent and somber one as she made her way to her room, Kay had never been great at speaking her feelings but she had a talent for writing them down and making it seem almost poetic. Throwing her bag on the floor she grabbed her old tattered notebook and a fresh bottle of Jack Daniels, she started scribbling down her thoughts and feelings as she poured the first shot of many that night. The words just flowed onto the paper as she poured another shot downing it quickly.

"Cody we both know when it comes to showing emotion or telling people how I'm feeling, I'll put a smile on and act like everything is alright, we know that this is a lie. You need to know everything, I know we have had this conversation many times or well tried to, and I understand why you keep things locked down and hidden from me, why wouldn't you we where perfect together and I left you there on the front porch, it broke my heart to leave you like that and even though now you know why I did doesn't mean that it still doesn't hurt. No matter what I do or what I try I can't forget you, or forget how you make me feel when I'm around you and just so you know I'm writing this and drinking, which could either be a good or bad combo I guess we will see how it all works out in the end." She stopped writing for a moment grabbing the bottle taking a nice swig from it before she started writing again.

"You remember when we where just kids,and everything just seemed to fall into place, well it's happening for me in this moment, being around you again makes me feel like I belong like everything is right in the world, I get drunk off your kisses, off your touch you have no ideal what you do to me, maybe if I told you, you would know which is why I'm sitting in my hotel room at 2:30 in the morning writing this letter to you, the whiskey is starting to hit me so it might not be much longer before you find slipped under your door, I meant what I said the other night when we where cuddling that I have always loved you and always will, I know that you can say it back and I'm ok with that just as long as I know that you have my back and will be there to pick me up when I fall. I'm not saying that I will ever be with anyone else cause I really don't see it but then again who knows, but you need to know this...You stole my heart back when we where kids and you still have it when your ready."

She put the pen down, ripped the paper out of the notebook and folded it up, she knew Cody would be there later they had been spending every night together just sleeping and holding each other till the sun rose, she slipped out of her hotel room walking down the hallway until she stopped at Cody's room, pushing the paper under the door she ran back to her room locking the door finishing off what was left of the whiskey. "Lord this isn't gonna end well."