Preface;
Disclaimer: Well apparently according to my lawyer I don't own Kyou Kara maou, although he says that I do own the Plot of this story (where the hell is that going to get me)
Hey guys… I don't know how I got this weird idea (probably from sleep deprivation) and I'm sorry if there are any spelling or grammar errors, I'm still looking for a Beta Reader.
I feel so broken up and I give up, just wanted to tell you,
So you know.
He's gone; all I can think about is that song, he always used to say it was one of his favorites, he used to play it a lot when he had his eye-tube with him, I'm not exactly sure if that was what it was called but it was a black thing which played his earth music from (think of a black ipod shuffle), sometimes he'd let me listen if I asked but, at that time I really didn't like that sort of crap he was playing, I love it now.
Here I go, scream my lungs out trying to get to you.
You are my only one
If someone were to ask me what I would have done if he had died16 years ago then I would have laughed and said that he was only 16, he wasn't going to die soon… we were going to be together forever, if they had asked me what I would have done if he died 15 years ago I would have said that if he died at 17 then I would died with him, but the funny thing about this is that its been 16 years since he passed away and the spirits of this land won't let me die, I'm in this world without him but I'm getting through it.
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do.
You are my only, my only one.
It's mostly because of Yuuri that I held through, the not-so-young king and I have a bond now although we rarely mention his name out loud, we think of him a lot; we talk about anything really, I told yuuri about how I was in love with Ken (even now I can't think his name, without feeling the empty space in my heart) and how I regret never saying so to his face, Yuuri argued of course saying I told him everyday.
The thing was I never really did; I would always say something like "I love you my Sage" or "I love you Dai"
Even when I found out he was dying, all the time I had alone with him, I couldn't; I was too scared of rejection. Looking back now I can see that I had so many missed opportunities to tell him but I just couldn't, I lost him because, I just couldn't say
"Ken Murata… I'm in love with you"
And now I'll never get the chance.
So was it ok??? … Tell me what you think …
Oh and the story Title is a work in Progress
so if you have any suggestion, I'd love to hear them.
Jade.