without you
It's hard, to pick yourself up after its all fallen knowing a pice is missing ... someone is missing. That other person who's impacted your life in so many ways isn't there anymore.. only in memories, memories that are too painful to think back on because there a reminder that person is no longer with you. So we push it back and build up walls not to deal with it to deal with pain.
This is exactly what Scarlett has been doing for the past month, after Alison's death Scarlett snapped putting up those walls refusing to really talk to her mother, Scott, Kira she wasn't going to talk to neither was she going to Lydia or Stiles. Instead she went every weekend this month drinking and dancing numbing her pain going out not returning home till sometimes sunday night which scared the crap out of Melissa and Scott, their father who stayed around was midly concerned as well since he started back up in their lives and is the reason why right now for the fourth time in a month Scott is out looking for Scarlett.
"catch her scent yet?" Stiles asked as they drove in the jeep around Beacon Hills
"yeah turn right" Scott ordered him as they drove further down the road reaching their destination they hoped out the car
"figures" Scott said walking up to the building they went around back sneaking into the club the boys began looking around for the petite brunette in the loud, hot dark club.
"got her" Stiles yelled pointing out to the dance floor seeing the similar girl in short shorts and a tank top dancing around her new length hair that know fell about to her chest whipping around bangs in her face again she was out on the dance floor without a care in the world dancing with people she'd just meet till her brother and his best friend show'd up they moved through the crowd finally coming face to face with her.
"Scar what are you doing?" her brother shouted over the music
"I'm dancing what's it look like, what are you doing here?" she asked still dancing
"you need to get home it's 1:30 in the morning mom is worried actually so am I" Scott said but his sister just kept on dancing too intoxicated to care
"tell mom I'm fine it's Saturday anyway it's all good, don't turn into sour wolf okay buddy" she said lightly slapping his cheeks together giggling at her actions
"why are you out here alone you know how dangerous that is" Stiles spoke up but she ignored him
"I just want to dance and get drunk" she said
"think you've had enough" Stiles said
"okay your leaving now" Scott yelled as her threw her over his shoulder ignoring the protest and threats she yelled at him all the way to the jeep Scott tossed her in taking the keys to her car he found in her pocket.
"take her home I'm going to find her car I'll meet you there" Scott said Stiles just nodded as he glanced over at Scarlett he hated seeing her in this type of pain and he couldn't do anything about it she wouldn't let him, hell she's barely looked at him the past month when he came over to see Scott she takes off, when Scott and Stiles are helping Malia she makes sure she is never around. It was breaking his heart even more, Stiles knew he deserved it after ruining their relationship, the one good thing he had in his life he thinks about everyday all the lost they both have been through.
Stiles started up his car headed toward the McCall house after awhile he turned on the radio as it played Wonder wall by Oasis Scarlett giggled in her spot slouched over in the seat.
"oh that's irony.. that's a good one" she slurred Stiles looked over at her before sighing
"Letty" he bagan to say
"oh here we go Stiles Stilinksi' big speech..." she said looking straight forward at the road
"Please look at me" he pleaded glancing between her and the road
"I can't" she said
"you can't..." Stiles pulled the car over placing it in park he turned to look at her. "all month nothing! now you can't even look at me, why? Letty look at me!" he shouted
"I can't! I can't you wanna know why? Stiles the big answer to your need to know is because it hurts! to look at you everytime I see you it pains me then when I see you and Malia-" Stiles cut her off
"Malia and I aren't anything I'm just helping her transition from coyote to human along with Scott you know this"
"wasn't nothing when you made out" she said not caring about the angry tears that strolled down her face
"I told you she kissed me"
"Like Lydia? wait you kissed her back didn't you... I let the Lydia thing go but Malia, she's always around you do really espect me to think nothings going on"
"yes cause nothing is, I'm helping her that's all I wouldn't... I still love you Scarlett" tears rolling down both their faces now Stiles inched forward reaching out for Scarlett's hands but she pulled away leaving Stiles hurt looking down at his own hands.
"I can't Stiles, we can't be... I can't be, I'm just a mess I still need time look I know we can't ignore each other forever so how about friends like old times" she slurred Stiles frowned he wanted more then that he wanted his girl back.
"Letty..."
"Stiles please it's hard already"
"Fine, I'll wait for you I'm not going anywhere I love you" he said starting the car back up Scarlett leaned her head on to the window
"everyone leaves Alison, Aiden, Ethan, Isaac, Danny... they all leave" she mumbled before passing out.
Stiles pulled up to the house seeing the light on he picked up Scarlett bridial style he carried her inside seeing Scott in the living room he nodded and brought Scarlett up to her room placing her gently in her bed pulling the covers up to her chin.
"thanks" Stiles faintly heard leave the girl's lips
"always" he said placing a kiss on her forehead pushing her bangs back if she was fully consiocus he would never gotten a chance to do that
"I love you" he heard from lips of the intoxicated girl, Stiles heart sunk a bit deeper it was killing him not having her as his. Stiles walked out the room down toward Scott.
"thanks man, I don't know what to do. she barley talks to me" Scott said
"yeah well she won't even look at me, the best is to give her time and hope" Stiles said
"you really have hope" Scott asked
"She'll come through this is Letty were talking about she strong" Stiles said
"she'll come back to you?"
"I don't know dude, you didn't see the pain in her eyes when she talked to me, I'm not sure what's going to happen"
"she still cares Stiles"
"I'm sure" he mumbled not believing it
"you know she didn't tell me about what happened till you went to Eichen house, she said she didn't want me to be mad at that you still needed me were best friends she could never deal with herself if she tore that apart even though I'm her brother Stiles she said your family too" Scott told him
"Scott I am so sorry I never wanted to hurt her I'm still crazy about Scarlett and not being able to hold her espically through the hard time she's having pains me I need her" he confessed
"I know you mean everything you said why I'm telling you she still cares" Scott said
Monday morning rolled it drully head Scarlett grunted shutting her alarm she made her way to the bathroom looking at the sad eyes staring back at her pushing her bangs out in her face and pulling her hair into a bun she walked out back into her room throwing on a muscle tank top with Angels & Airways on it with a leather jacket, skinny jeans and boots she grabbed her bag and began to make her way down the steps she stopped once she heard her parents talking in the living room.
"I don't know Melissa I've tried with her, she's distant, blanks out maybe she needs to see someone.. stick her in a phsyc evaluation" she heard her father say
"give her time she lost a close friend, she's doing fine in school...look at Scott he came around. People grieve at their own paste and time don't give up Rafael" her mother said
"they don't make it easy... either of them" he said
"because they want you to fight for them, both want to know if you'll stay with the lost they've had... people leaving I don't know if they can take one more" Melissa said feeling sorry watching her kids go through so much pain, loss heartache the supernatural issues but in a way she's proud that they keep going she knows Scarlett will be back up on her feet in good time.
"guess your right" Rafael
"aren't I always" Melissa said Scarlett decided to make an appearance walking down the rest of the stairs Melissa looked over to her
"hi honey can I make some breakfast for you maybe?" her mother asked
"no, no I'm good just going to get coffee" Scarlett said walking passed both of them into the kitchen Rafael followed her
"pot already made" her mother shouted
"so I was thinking maybe since your mom is working late shift you Scott and I could do dinner, anything you guys want" her father said breaking the silence between the two as Scarlett nodded taking a sip of her much needed coffee then placed it on the counter.
"sure" she agreed he was trying so she decided she was going to try as well, baby steps you know.
She finished her coffee there in the kitchen taking in the silence that fell in the house it was odd now not hearing Scott and Isaac in the morning now lately she didn't even have to wake Scott up he was always up and gone... at least lately helping Stiles with Malia. thinking about it made her roll her eyes thinking about what Stiles said to her the other night she did deep inside believe it but couldn't help that Malia was on the same page as Stiles the times that she did see them it seemed to be she was protective over Stiles growing attached to him which made Scarlett boil inside but she wouldn't admit to it.
Scarlett putting the mug in the sink putting her thoughts on the back burner grabbed her bag saying goodbye to her parents headed to her car to the school
"just another day" she muttered to herself before entering the school headed toward her locker putting her books in she felt a presence behind her she let out a sigh
"what do you want Scott" she asked not even turning around
"I wanted to make sure your alright" Scott said she closed her eyes closed her locker turned to him opening them back up
"I'm here aren't I, not in a mental hospital where dad thinks I should be" she spat
"he's just worried like mom, me ...Stiles"
"I don't want to talk about Stiles" she snapped
"will you talk about something? anything?"
"the weather I heard it was going to rain" she replied
"Scarlett I just want to be there for you just like you we're for me all those weeks ago... just talk to me" he pleaded
" Scott I appreciate you really do best big bro but I don't want to talk" she said
"fine but I'll be here when you need it" Scott said pulling her into a hug she just left her arms at her side not hugging back
"love you"
"love you too bro"
"just don't give up" he said Scarlett pulled away arching her eyebrows at him
"are you saying on life or someone inparticular with crazy hair who loves plaid" she questioned
"both"
"Please Scott I'm not suicidal so don't worry so much you'll get grey hairs and as for that other person... I'm just not sure"
"Just give him a chance he really does miss you" he told her Scarlett bit her lip looking down at the ground knowing deep down she did miss Stiles too.
"look I'll try okay with, Kira the others okay... I already know I can't shut you guys out forever espically with the shit that goes on in this town" she said
"great! you can start by helping us on the full moon with Malia next week" Scott said
"your really pressing your luck bro"
"come on you know you want to help"
"no, no I really don't I'd rather watch paint dry, molasses fall or a slug race" she said crossing her arms to her chest Scott sighed
"I'll buy you lattes and chocolate for a month" he pleaded
"make it two or no deal"
Scott rolled his eyes as he stuck his hand out "fine" he agreed
she smiled shaking his hand " glad we came to this conculison well have fun in class" she said walking away down the hall suddenly seeing the familiar strawberry blonde she's been ignoring. Lydia was standing in front of Alison's locker which was turned into a momerial spot as students who knew her put down roses and pictures the past month Scarlett always glared at it as she walked by as for her brother he made sure he was never in that part of the hall as it pained him to much to see it but seeing Scarlett had AP English and art this hall she couldn't avoid it like Scott.
Scarlett watched as Lydia placed a photo on the locker she walked up next to her seeing the photo it was Alison, Scarlett and Lydia all making duck faces into the camera on one of their sleepovers, Lydia with tears strolling down her face Scarlett turned toward her.
"Lydia..."
"She's gone, I still can't believe Aiden's gone, your gone" Lydia said
"what Lydia? what do mean I'm still here?"
"Letty I lost you a long time ago your gone like them I can't get you back"
"Lydia I'm still here I'm not going anywhere" Scarlett said pulling her into a tight hug as Lydia still cried Scarlett's blank expression.
"I'm so sorry Scarlett, incrediably sorry I never wanted to hurt you... again I'm so sorry have no Idea how to ever do anything to make up for it" Lydia said between breathes Scarlett realized they both have lost someone close to them knowing Lydia really did Aiden and he was trying but now Lydia was left alone.
"It's okay Lyds. I'm still here... I'll be here" tightening her grip before letting go Lydia wiped her tears Scarlett reached up not even knowing she was crying as well she wiped her face.
"well thanks for ruining my make up" Scarlett said
"now looks who's being grily" Lydia teased
"whatever lets go to class or whatever is left of it"
Scarlett walked into the animal clinic with Lydia as Stiles and Scott were in front of them
"okay so how long has it been?" Stiles asked
"weeks he hasn't gotten back to any of my texts" Scott said as they walked further into the clinic
"has Derek ever returned any text I don't really see him as a social butterfly" Scarlett said
"one definitely once, but this time it felt different so I went to the loft the alarm was on everthing looked okay then I found these" Scott pulled out a canister filled with bullet shells Stiles pulled one out Scarlett leaned over the table to look at it
"so I sent the picture ot it to Deaton he said that it the mark of a family of hunters based out of mexico, the Calaveras" Scott said
"what would they want with Derek?" Lydia asked
"pissed someone else off it's not hard to believe" Scarlett said hunched over the table playing with her fingers
"I don't know which is why your here" Scott said then looked over at his sister "both of you" he pushed the canister infront of Lydia who stuck her hand in first closing her eyes she dropped them on the counter listeing closly as each one hit the letal surface, Scarlett snatched the one out of Stiles hand closing her eyes seeing if she could get anything off it both remained silent for about five minutes.
"guys, what? is he dead?" Stiles asked
"no" Lydia spoke first
"he was there, the Calaveras too but there was too much smoke to see what was actually happening" Scarlett said
"I'm not sure he's alive either" Lydia said
"what does that mean?" Scott asked
"I don't know" Lydia said
"there's something not right, I just... don't know" Lydia said
"so if the Calaveras have him, how do we find him" Stiles asked
"Mexico" Scott said holding up one of the shells
"oh yeah will just go to Mexico nice sunday drive, what the hell will our parents say" Scarlett said
"will make up something" Scott said
"like what?"
"camping... will say were going camping" Stiles said Scarlett straightened back up crossing her arms across her chest
"Camping?"
"yeah camping it's believable right?" Stiles said looking around
"this sounds like the beginning to a horrible and stupid plan" Scarlett mumbled walking away from all of them
"I heard that!" Stiles said
"wasn't being silent about it" she yelled back right before walking out the clinic
"its a good cover up" Stiles mumbled to himself
Of course starts out rough and sad... more to come