Dear Journal
This is something my therapist told me to start, see she thought it would be good for me to express what I feel in a positive way. Maybe i should explain, see my name is Haley James I'm 17 years old and about 6 months ago my whole life shattered before me. My Family won a trip to London all 8 of us, But since it was at the end of my junior year i decided not to go. Because junior year is the most important, so everyone in my family packed and got ready to go.
It was 2 in the afternoon when me and my best friend lucas and I said goodbye to my family. I hadn't realized then how significant that word could be. I remember how nervous i was to be alone that first night not really used to the quiet, but it didn't last long because I was woken from my sleep at 4 in the morning. Its scary how much it seems like it just happened because when the man on the phone told me that my family's plane crashed and everyone on the flight died, I think I died right there. I just fell to the floor screaming, just screaming from the pain inside. I must really have screamed uncontrollably because one of my neighbors called karen and the police. I don't remember how long I was alone because the next thing I saw was luke and karen rush over trying to understand what had happened and all I said was
"They died"
I collapsed into karen's arms letting my tears take over. I guess while I was crying the police had arrived, they had been informed about the crash and explained everything to luke and karen, but i just remember opening my eyes for a moment and seeing luke on the floor next to me. His face was full of tears he held my hand to his heart and then everything went numb and I just got up and I ran.
I ran all the way to the beach and I just fell on the sand, letting the tears take over once again. I must have been their for a while because it was light out, then I heard something behind me coming closer and I got up and just stood still my back to the person and then I heard his voice.
"hey uh, you alright?"