Beautiful Sorrow
Disclaimer: I do not own Tsubasa, the characters, storyline, plot, or anything relating to it. All of the above is copyrighted to CLAMP.
Intro: This is my second fic. I wrote it on New Year's Eve. Seriously, at 1 o' clock in the morning I was writing angst. Sorry if it sucks because of that.
Strand Rating: Brief Violence, Sugesstive/Sexual Themes, Language, Shounen-Ai, Yaoi, Alcohol References, ect.
Pairing: Fai x Kurogane – Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE
A/N: No notes, really. Please review.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Sweet Sorrow…
You smile. Every single day. Every waking second. Yet behind this façade of yours you cry.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Wonderful Sorrow…
You laugh. It's quiet and your past haunts you. Is that the reason behind your laughter? Yet behind this façade of yours you cry.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Vivid Sorrow…
You say, "You're leaving! You're leaving! We're finally here, Kuro-woof! You can protect your princess! You can live in your world!" You sound awfully chipper. You're so happy… For me.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Deadly Sorrow…
You lie. "I'm really happy for you, Kuro-Mou." Please don't. Don't lie. You're hurting me. I want to ask you to stay, but you distance yourself so much from me that the idea is ludicrous.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Vibrant Sorrow…
You gaze. "Aren't you happy, Kuro-Pii?" No. I'm not. I hate this. It hurts. Like Hell. My stomach is turning and I feel sick. I don't want to think about the future. A future without you.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Brilliant Sorrow…
You hurt. You hurt me, too. I let you into my heart and yet you still crush it. Stop this. Right now. I beg of you. Please. You're killing me. You're killing me. You're crushing my heart.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Lonely Sorrow…
You turn. You're leaving me. All alone. Why?
Why? Why? Why?
You said you loved me. You held me like you loved me. You kissed me like you loved me. Why are you leaving me?
Beautiful Sorrow…
Stunning Sorrow…
You walk. Away from me you head. Don't go. Please don't go. I can't stand it. The thought of you leaving me. I can't live. I won't live. Not in a world without you…
Beautiful Sorrow…
Lovely Sorrow…
You cry. It's you. The real you. The you I've wanted to know since you took my breath away. I'm relieved. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I made you cry. Let me hold you. Just this once more.
Beautiful Sorrow…
Crying Sorrow…
You push. Away I go. Away from you. Are you mad? You are, aren't you? Why? What have I done? Was it so bad when I loved you? When I touched you? I remember you touching me and I still don't regret it. If it was right, why? Why are you the way you are?
Beautiful Sorrow…
Undying Sorrow…
You run. I'm watching you run. I hate this. I hate it. I can't love you. I can't stop you. I can't do anything but watch. And I hate it. So very much. Why do I have to watch you cry and leave me?
I don't understand. I don't understand you, I don't understand why you're leaving, I don't understand my own feelings. Why? Why can't you give me the answers? Why don't you touch me anymore? Why don't you tell me you love me? Why?
Why do you say such mean things to hurt me? Why do you smile? Why do you lie to me?
Beautiful Sorrow…
Prevailing Sorrow…
You leave. Right now. Before me eyes. Why did you leave me? Why? "No matter how hard, I'll find you again. Okay, Kuro…gane?" Your last words bite at me. I really hate this and there's nothing I can do. I don't want that. I don't want a new you. I want the you I fell in love with. Not the perfect you that lives within this world of mine.
You belong to me.
I belong to you.
I want no one else. I want nothing else.
But you're gone. You've left me. Tears are rolling down my face. Do you know that? No, of course you don't. You can't know.
I want you so bad right now. But there are no regrets. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Nothing to hide.
I'll find you. Somewhere. Sometime. But now it's time for me to wait.
To wait for the person who will take me along.
Afterthoughts: (cries) Wow. That's pretty heavy, ney? Well, it's heavy for me, being the sap I am. XD