More Hobbit slash! Yay! This fic is set from Merry's perspective, and will sound kind of angsty, but that's how I want it.
This is a revised version of the fic that I posted Friday. Many thanks go out to Lowri Brandybuck for reviewing it.
Wishes
My heart has been taken from me and broken by the one person I trusted not to.
I have never known pain like this before, because I have never loved anyone as much I loved you. You were the reason I rose in the morning. Seeing you is what made my mornings joyous and sweet. I knew that I would see you that day.
Hearing you talk of her like she is the sole reason you are living is more painful than I can bear. Knowing you love her is more than I can bear.
I never had much hope for this love. I wanted to be nothing more than a passing fancy, but my heart would not allow it. It seemed as if I loved you more and more with each passing day. Deep down, I knew it would come to nothing, but I hoped and prayed it would. I ignored the voice in my head telling me to let you go, to not love you, that it would break my heart when I found out you didn't love me. Now I'm wishing I hadn't.
Never before have I wanted to leave the Shire, but now I want nothing more. To leave this place, and everything in it. I can't take it anymore, hearing you talk of how much you love her. But if I did, my family would hunt me down and drag me back here.
I love you, Pip, and I wish you loved me, too. But wishes are dreams that never come true.
Evenstar-Greenleaf