I'm so sorry it's been a long time since my last story, I just hope you will understand that I will finish it off. But at this moment in time, it won't be happening for awhile. So here is something small, just to tell you know that I am writing again, but it wont be as much as I have done in the past.
Merry Christmas everyone
Xx
As I sit here writing this letter, I wounder to myself what you would be doing right now. Well I do have a few clues, but I can't bring myself to think of them. I know that you will be spending the Christmas holidays with the new family that you have. Yeah Chez told me that you'd married John Paul, I let out a small chuckle after she had told me that news and she also told me that you have a little baby girl with that Scouse tart Sinead.
After the phone call I had with Chez, I started to remember that one special Christmas we had together, before my dad came back into my life. Me and you had just came back from Dublin, all happy and loved up. We even got talking about our future together, what we would do with Leah and Lucas and that we would adopt more children into our family.
But that won't be happening now will it, I'm locked up in this shit hole, where your off in the village having a new life with someone. Don't get me wrong, when I said those words to you at the hospital before you got pulled away, I did mean them. But as I sat in my cell the next day, I wished I'd never had said them to you. I did want you to move on, but I still hoped that you would have come to see me and tried to get me out, but you never.
I just thought that I'd tell you, that I've never had sex with anyone in here. I mean, there has been a few lads that have looked like you and they have tried to kiss me. But I have denied them, as I can't bring myself to do that, not when I'm still in love with you Steven.
Chez phoned me back up again yesterday and she told me something very disturbing about whats happened to you. I hear that you've started taking drugs now, as away to get out of life. Please stop taking them Steven, I don't want you to do that anymore. I know what it's like seeing people on drugs, and they look disgusting. But your never disgusting to me Steven, so that's what I want you to stop taking them, and I don't to see your name in the paper say that you have died from a drug overdose.
Plus Chez also told me that you have HIV now, I just want to let you know, that I'm here for you. Yeah even though I'm in prison, I will always be hear for you. I know I've stopped you from receiving, visiting orders, but I'm going to stop that. I want to see you Steven, even if you have to bring John Paul with you, but it would be nice to see your face again. Please don't go giving up on your life just yet, you have three beautiful children that you need to look after and you also have a husband that needs you as well. So don't you even dare, giving up on your life just yet Steven.
Just remember that I love you
(In the next life Steven)
Love B.B
xx
Xx
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