The Guy and The Gay

He irritated me. I hated how I felt. I hated myself. How my heart fluttered when he put his hand on my shoulder, how when his lips looked full, how his arms bulged whenever he fought with something, and I would swoon. I convinced myself it was his fault, that my feelings were his fault. But whenever I saw him, a snide voice said

You love him? You know you do. Lies, and gays. Tut tut.

When I finally, nearly accepted that I was gay, I felt strange. Like I could take off a lead jacket while I was drowning, but it got stuck to my foot, so I could never truly let go.

Then I met him.

He was beautiful, with his lanky body and beautiful hair. It shone like golden rays, and as a child of death, it was odd for me to want to be with light.

So, I spent my time with golden hair, and we were best friends until I was 15, because then he asked if I've ever been kissed, romantically of course, and I shook my head, so my coal black "flip hair", golden calls it that (happy sigh), and he grabbed my face and kissed me.

I almost became hard from that one kiss.

Anyway, we became "boyfriends", and we hugged, kissed and talked.

Then the Love goddess hurt my relationship. She made me lay with a woman.

Pinecone Face became pregnant, and Golden just hugged me and never let me go.

Pinecone Face had a baby girl, and with a fatherly pride, I kissed her tiny head.

Jaide Bianca di Angelo was her name.

Myself, Golden and Pinecone Face talked some more, and decided that 'no child should grow up without a friend'.

I drank 3 bottles of whiskey and closed my eyes, and pretended it was Golden.

Alanna Jessica was born 9 months later, and Golden was the Doctor. He was a little mortified, but who wouldn't be?

Golden was happy, becoming Daddy, and myself Papa. Pinecone Face became Mommy, and Bologna became Mama. Bologna and Pinecone Face bonded on Sparky's stupidness, and became 'friends with benefits'.

Anyway, Golden was sad that he could never have his own children with me, until I suggested we visit the Witches.

They gave him a potion, and I a potion, so I would be virile, and himself fertile.

He was way better at sex then Pinecone Face.

He was pregnant! We had twins, because he could feel them.

9 months later, we had Kohl Cecil and Mae Louisa Ellen di Angelo-Solace.

Coming Out has changed my life forever.