AN. Hi this is a new story, or at least the first chapter of what I hope will be a new story. As always sorry for the English, I'm not a native speaker, nor do I have a beta-reader.

And also as always a disclaimer, this will count for the entire story, as I will probably forget it later on.

I do not own Charmed.

Revelations and Heartbreaks

Chapter 1)

Chris was sitting on the couch in the attic, book of shadows on his lap. If anyone would walk in they would think he was searching for another demon, but if you looked a bit longer you could see Chris wasn't reading. He was staring at the book, not really seeing anything. Chris was thinking, quite deeply too. Chris was thinking about his life, and how he came to be who he was. How he became more like the time traveler Chris with all his secrets.

Chris had always known about the other universe. He had always known about that other world, an evil world. A world where Wyatt was the source of all evil, a world where his whole family was dead, and Chris didn't count Wyatt as family in that world anymore. A place where people lived in fear, where innocents died, and magical beings feared for their lives.

Ever since Chris was young he would get nightmares, at least that is what he called them. Later on he discovered the truth about those 'nightmares' and he understood then. He understood they weren't some images his very disturbed imagination came up with. No those visions, those images, they were real, very real. Or at least they were real for him once, in that other world. Chris had often gotten headaches because of his thoughts about the other world, it was after all a very strange thing.

It took Chris a long time to get everything figured out. He knew about other universes, but he couldn't understand why he would get the memories of that world. Then one day his aunt Phoebe told him a story about past lives, and how her past live came to haunt her. Well it made perfect sense to Chris then. It was his past life that came to haunt him.

After some more digging Chris really found the truth, he had those memories because he lived that life, then he had gone back in time to change that world, to save Wyatt. He died protecting his brother, but he did fulfill his mission. Only problem, Chris died in the past, just minutes before his little self was born, his soul never went through time, no it was sort of recycled into his little version of himself. The version he was now. Obviously this made him get the memories of that dark and painful world.

Yes Chris had lived with these memories his whole life, he learned to deal with them, but it wasn't always that easy. It wasn't always easy to call his father dad instead of Leo, just minutes after he had a memory about his death beat father in that other world. Because while he had an loving and caring father in this world, in the other world Leo was a asshole. The man had never been there for him. So when he came in the kitchen for breakfast in the mornings, Chris had a difficult time separating the memories from both worlds.

Same thing with Wyatt, because it was very disturbing to come out of a dream where Wyatt was torturing him, hurting him time after time, and then to wake up and see your brothers face over your head. Yeah, Wyatt learned not to stand too close to Chris when he woke up from a nightmare. Though Chris made up excuses, and the family believed him, Chris knew that it hurt Wyatt. He knew that Wyatt had seen the terror and fear in his eyes when he woke up, and he knew that Wyatt was worried.

Oh, and then the time Chris remembered his mother's death, yeah, he didn't leave her for more than a few minutes that day, though Piper didn't really mind, she loved spending time with her kids.

Yeah, Chris learned how to live with the memories, but it was hard not to react when you saw your aunts, uncles, cousins and grandfather die. It was hard to go on with your normal life after remembering time in Wyatt's torture chamber, or after seeing the city in ruins, seeing witches being hunted by the witch hunters, and seeing innocents die.

His family got their fair share of suspicions, times when Chris already knew things he wasn't supposed to know, when he could control his new powers with ease, and times when he would say something that would trigger them to remember Chris perry, the time traveler.

Chris was lucky his family didn't want to dig deeper, he was lucky that his family had their firm believes that Chris would not remember a thing, and that they could keep everything a secret.

Though how they thought that was always a mystery for Chris, seeing as how they had a whole box about time traveling Chris in the attic. Well if Chris was honest it would have stayed a secret if Chris didn't have those memories, only the adults in the family knew, so they kept it a secret for the most part.

Secret keeping, for a family that claimed they shouldn't keep secrets, and that claimed they always told each other everything there were an awful lot of secrets if you looked more closely. Not that Chris could say much about that, he has kept his share of secrets over the years. Knowing about the evil world his biggest, and his relationship with Bianca was also a big one. Though if Chris was really honest with himself, the full scholarship to Stanford that he hadn't told his family about was also a big one. Yeah, maybe he should become a bit more open with his family…

Though Chris really had a reason for all the secrets, he couldn't tell his family, his parents that he knew about the universe where his family was death and his brother an evil tyrant. He couldn't tell them that he remembered traveling back in time. I mean how do you tell your father, that you remember him trying to kill you, and beating you. How do you tell your mother that you remember how awful she had been, how she had kicked her own son out of the house. No he couldn't do that to them.

And he couldn't hurt his brother either. Wyatt would be devastated if he found out about a world where he was the source of all evil. And would positively kill him to find out that he had murdered his own family and that he had tortured his own little brother. The little brother he loved with his whole being and that he had sworn to protect. Nahh he couldn't do that to them.

Keeping Bianca a secret was more of a protection, for himself and Bianca. Bianca is a phoenix witch, and they are known for their relation with demons. Yeah, that wouldn't go over very well. Chris could already imagine his mother's words, words that would hurt Bianca, and that would condemn their relationship. Bianca said her family would even try to talk about it. Her family would be more like, kill the boy and disown the girl. Yeah, so not looking forward to that. So they had both agreed to keep it a secret form everybody for now.

Though they both agreed with keeping it a secret, he knew it hurt Bianca that his family wouldn't give her a chance, she wasn't a demon, and she wasn't evil. She was just a witch who was born in the wrong family, a family who had connections with demons. Bianca hated those connections, she hated what her family would do, and had already done. Bianca herself had of course helped in some occasions, she was even helping her family when they met, but Bianca never agreed with her family, she would rather save an innocent instead of making a potion for a demon. Chris knew this, he knew she was a good person, if only his family would listen to them.

The scholarship thing was pure cowardice on his part. He just didn't really want to tell them, he knew he would be telling them sometime in the near future, he had to. But he just didn't want to. He knew his parents would be so proud of him, they would be proud that he had managed to get a full scholarship. But him getting a scholarship for Stanford also implied other things, it meant that he would be moving out, and moving away. Sure he would still be living in California, and he could orb, but really that didn't matter that much to his parents. Another thing they would surely think it that if he went to Stanford, he would be choosing school over demon fighting. He would choose a good career over demon fighting and saving innocents. It wasn't true, he would stop with demon fighting, he would still be there to help them out, but just not every day. But Chris wasn't really sure how his family would see it. Wyatt stayed in San Francisco to go to college, he even still lived home. Another thing that made him moving away an issue was his parents, and also his brother if he was honest, over protectiveness. He knew where it came from, first of all he was their baby, their youngest child, secondly he always had a bit of a bad immune system and was often sick, he even had asthma, something that made him vulnerable in their eyes. And lastly he had died in his father's arms. This was probably the biggest reason for his parents. It was also the reason his aunts and uncles were always worrying over him, he knew his aunt Paige had seen him die. He knew how much it had an impact on his family. But still, that was the other Chris, a Chris that for all they knew went back to his own time, a time that doesn't exist anymore.

Yeah Chris had his reasons for keeping secrets, but somehow he had the feeling that his secrets wouldn't stay secrets for much longer.

AN. Please let me know what you think!