Edward, beautiful bronze haired green eyed Edward. He was the subject of everyone one of my dreams, my fantasies. I loved him, plain and simple, and nothing would change that, and hoped that maybe some how, an impossible wish, that my angel felt the same way about me. Plain old brown haired brown eyed Bella Sawn. I knew I had no chance compared to the other girls, bouncy blonde haired Jessica, drop dead gorgeous Tanya, and the queen bee, Lauren. I was lucky just to be friends with Edward with those girls around. Me and Edward talked every day, we could talk about anything, we never had awkward moments. One day me and Edward were have a deep conversation as normal… when all of a sudden he told me he got a girl friend. I could almost feel my heart rip in two, the world started to spin. He asked what was wrong, I couldn't answer, my breath had stopped, so instead I stood up and ran away before he saw me cry. A few days later I was able to talk to… her angel again, I couldn't bare to hear her name, we were talking about normal things, who was dating who, what teachers were evil… When all of a sudden he let her name slip. Edward Cullen, my angel on earth, was dating my best friend Angela. I thought Angela was my friend, I trusted her with everything! She knew how much I loved him! I couldn't believe it, my wound I had been trying to nurse, unsuccessfully, was reopened, twice as large this time. I was slowly bleeding to death. I couldn't stand the pain. I needed it to end, all of it to end. Running away from the open conversation window I made my way as fast as I could to the bathroom, flinging open the medicine cabinet and talking out bottle after bottle of medication, until finally I found it, my little pain pills. Clutching the bottle of pills tightly in my hands I walked around the house grabbing a not pad and pen before leaving the house and heading towards the woods just meters away. Slowly I started walking the pathless trees in the rain tears dripping down my face. Once I found a nice spot I sat down on the wet muddy earth and slowly began writing my note. Once I was sure it was perfect I opened the bottle of my pain killers and slowly one by one emptied the bottle, things were fuzzy now, I was pretty sure there was another pain in my chest, tiny compared to the wound that was bleeding me dry. I mumbled my last words of love for my bronze haired angel before the light dimmed and I closed my eyes forever.
My dearest loved ones, I know I'm hurting you right now but I needed to kill myself before my open wound did. Love and pain can do strange things to people, please know I'm better now, and I will see you all when you have finished your long happy lives. I love you all.
- Isabella Swan