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I don't own MY HIME...Sunrise does.

'So long...how long?...why do I not remember?'

"NA-TSU-KI! Hey you moron-were you even listening to me?"

"Ma-MAI! what did you just say?" ' Damn I need to focus or she will never teach me maths again...'

"Baka. If you are taking Mai's time from me you should better listen! Mai I really am hungry." Mikoto starts to get aggressive.

"Mikoto, why don't you go and buy some food so I can make dinner for the three of us later?" Mai uses the softest voice she has.

"HAI-HAI! Mai has to make Ramen!" She leaves the room in such a hurry that even Natsuki was surprised.

"It's nearly been a year, huh? With us learning for our final terms it must be hard for you not to think about her, isn't it Natsuki?" Mai is smiling gently toward her.

"Eh?" blushing "No, NO I wasn't really thin-"

"Come on, Mikoto-chan is gone and I'm not going to tell anyone."

"Let's continue with maths." 'I really have to change the topic, but am I this easy to read?'

"We are studying since morning and still you don't seem to get anything."

"Th-That's not fair Mai! It's just maths that I'm not good at!" 'Come to think of it, I've never been good at maths even when I tried very hard'

"Say Natsuki, how did you manage to get to school with this space hole in one of the most important subjects?" Mai looks desperately around, noticing that Mikoto has fallen asleep on the couch.

'how did I...Shizuru. She was always there to help me. She didn't get desperate like Mai, or did she just hide it?'

"Must have been our ex-kaichou if you start dosing out like this."

"Hm." Natsuki nodding lightly

"When did you last hear from her?" Mai again using the softest voice she has.

"I guess it was in October or so." 'This is really uncommon. Mai-chan barely uses this voice with anyone except Mikoto'

"That's already half a year ago...Why didn't you try to contact her, maybe something happened?"

"Thanks for studying with me and also making Ramen. Have a good sleep."

"You too Natsuki. And don't be afraid. I definitely won't tell anyone that you were crying on my shoulders" Teasing yet with this caring look she smiles at Natsuki.

"BAKA!" 'What in the world was I thinking by telling her all those things. I don't even know why I am feeling like this right now. Why doesn't she leave my mind?'

Natsuki is entering her room with light tears in her eyes. 'Baka! BAKA! why am I feeling so alone? Where are you Shizuru? Why did you leave me like this? I don't care if you're dead!' Natsuki throws her shoe through the room and you hear a something break. She is even more angry now and walks over to the place the noise came from.

'Darn what did I break this ti-' She shrieks down starting to cry even more.

'Why-why this one?' She gets a flashback.

"Ara, Natsuki. I have something for you."

"Why? I don't want it anyway. You already gave me your ribbon-didn't you? What meaningless thing is it this time?" turning her head from left to right and crossing her arms.

"As cold as ever Natsuki. You can make me shiver with just your words."

"DON'T SAY SUCH EMBARRISING THINGS"

"Here, it's a picture of us. You remember, right? It was taken about a week before the carnival started. I liked the atmosphere in the student council room. If only things wouldn't have turned out the way they did."

"You really wish that? I mean you sure seem to never regret things." turning her face coldly away.

"It's late, I have to catch my train." Red eyes full of sorrow turning towards the academy.

"Shall I give you a ride?"

"Nah, I have to walk to calm my thoughts."

'Again speaking such embarrassing things right out. You really are a fool Shizuru.'

"Ne, Natsuki? Can I give you a call sometime?"

"Do what you want, you always do that."

'How could I know that this time would be different? Oh right- I have to safe the picture and find a new frame for it. It really is a nice picture. I really liked to go to the student council room. It was always quiet there, and warm, and she...' Natsuki starts crying again.

'I have to *sobbing* I have to distract me...Let's see-some videogame should do.'

Natsuki falls asleep on early morning after she played all night. Dreams are catching her mind. They were all different but the ending was the same. Every time Shizuru died in an accident but the worst of all dreams were the last one: Shizuru committed suicide.

As Natsuki wakes up she realizes that she has sweated so much that it feels like she is in the bath. Before she could do anything about it she passes out.

"Oi, Natsuki. Are you feeling better? I found you in your apartment this afternoon."

"Mai, where are we? What is this smell?" speaking with a very low voice.

"At the hospital. You had very a high fever and the doc said that you maybe hadn't eaten properly the last days. You should have eaten dinner with Mikoto and me everyday." looking at Natsuki worried.

"Maybe I really didn't eat enough. The mayo is empty, you know." she tries to smile.

"Could this really have been a joke? Out of your mouth? that sure is pretty rare, you know. You really must be sick, maybe I should call the doctor again."

After a while they stop their laughter.

"You should be fine now by yourself. Get some rest, I have a club meeting in an hour."

"Ah, right. The Cooking-club can't go without it's president." teasing her a little.

"Stop talking so snotty! I should make you come to the club after you're out of the hospital so you can learn how to eat properly!"

'I am drifting away again. Seems like I really do have a fever. Shizuru...I miss you. I really do.. "Shizuru" *moan* ....Shizuru you have to stop touching me...I said stop it...Shi...zu...ru...don't go...Shi' "zuru" 'I need you' "Shi..zu" A tear rolls down Natsukis face.

"Wake up. Ara, Na-tsu-ki. You have to wake up, you're having a bad dream." Shizuru leans over to her, gently wiping away the tear.

'Is this another dream? A dream in a dream, I feel like I'm watching Inception...Shizuru I'm alone...' "I am all...alone" starting to lightly wake up.

"Ara, I wouldn't say I am all alone when I'm having a visitor. This could offend people, you know. How are you feeling? Mai told me you were in a pretty bad shape this afternoon." Smiling with her ~everything is fine~ smile as if no time has passed between the two of them.

"Shizuru...you are really here..." drifting away a bit.

"EEHH? WHAT *jumping into vertical position* ARE YOU DOING HERE?" speaking pretty loud.

"I am visiting you. You know that you can't shout out so loud at evening in a hospital. And what's with that face you're making? You actually look kinda funny at the moment. Did I disturb you while you had a private dream?" Shizuru is looking deep in dizzy green eyes.

"What I meant is why you are here as in why you are at Fuuka...baka. And what's with that teasing about a private dream?" starting to lose her balance.

"Careful." Catching her arm and pushing her back in the bed. "I have a semester break now so I thought I should come here and help you with your studying. You know, you were never that brilliant in maths."

"You disappear for more than half a year and now you act like nothing happened. You said you would call me." 'Oh no. Did my voice just shiver? Please, doesn't let her notice.'

"You wanted me to call you?" Watching Natsuki with passionate eyes.

'H-how did I get in this..I gotta say something' " I missed you." 'Did I just say tha-'

"Ara, Natsuki really must be sick. I really missed my Natsuki too, you know." perfect smile again.

"You always called me so I thought you would at least let me know that you are still alive."

"So Natsuki was worried that I would be dead? How could I leave my Natsuki behind?"

"Stop calling me as yours..." getting a stubborn expression on her face.

"Gomene, Natsuki. You should try to get some sleep, you are sick after all. Else your temperature might rise again."

'No don't...not yet. She'll just disappear again. How do I make her stay? Just how...'

"Shi-Shizuru. C-Could you stay the night. If- If I gave you a kiss, w-would you stay?"

Her heart is pounding out loud.

Shizuru leans over to her, looking at her pale lips. Natsuki is starting to shiver.

'I said so-this is not her fault but-but I can't relax. She has grown again I think...but she is as beauti...WHAT in this world am I thinking. She is going to kiss me-my heart it's pounding so much'

Natsuki closes her eyes and opens her mouth a bit. The next she feels is Shizuru lightly kissing her forehead.

"I already paid for Natsukis single room. You didn't notice that it's not the same as this afternoon? Ara, would you like me to join you in your bed?" a little teasing.

"Your only going to be perverted. Don't you?" looking her in the red eyes.

"Nah-I don't want to catch whatever it is Natsuki has, but I thought that my arms and chest would be smoother than your pillow."

'You don't seem to know that YOU are my sickness, Shizuru...'

"Then I make some place for you. Maybe you also can rest some in this bed." letting Shizuru take her in her arms. "I feel dizzy again. I might fall asleep soon."

"Go on. I'll keep the nightmares from you." using a very gentle voice.

"You know, you were moaning in your sleep earlier, while you said my name. Who is the perv?" whispering in Natsukis ear.

"EEHH? NO I didn't! I'm sick so I sometimes have to gasp that's all- and I didn't call your name!" screaming.

"Ara, ara. I must have heard something wrong. Just relax for now. Let's sleep." a slight laughter.

'I said it out loud. OMG! I...what was I dreaming of? Shizuru was ...touching me. My chest, my - for god sake I feel the sleep coming over me washing those thoughts away...'

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