Title: Choices
Summary: Lorelai deals with the aftermath of calling on Chris the night of her fight with Luke. Luke has to decide whether or not he can forgive and forget.
Spoilers: references to Season 6 and 7
Rating: M
Lorelai opened her eyes as the sun pooled into the bedroom. She rolled over as the warmth hit her face. She let out a small sigh and looked around.
She wasn't in her bed; she wasn't even in her house.
"Daddy!" Gigi ran in to the bedroom to find her father "Good Morning Daddy!" But her father wasn't in the room
"Lorelai?;" Gigi stood next to the bed as Lorelai sat up "Where are your pajamas?" she asked but didn't wait for an answer " Where's my daddy?"
Lorelai frowned as she looked down at her bed sheet wrapped body "Good Morning Gigi."
"I'm right here Geeg!" Christopher ran into the bedroom "Let's go get you some breakfast."
Chris smiled at Lorelai and led Gigi out of the room.
Lorelai climbed out of bed and frantically searched for the clothes she had discarded the night before. She located the items and headed toward the master bath quickly locking the door behind her.
She looked at herself in the mirror. "You've done it again Lorelai." She sighed, sitting down on the toilet seat.
She was only alone for a few seconds before she broke down in tears.
"Lor?" a soft knock echoed through the bathroom.
"Chris?" Lorelai cleared her throat and wiped her tears "I'll be right out." She quickly threw on her clothes and washed her face.
"I'll be in the kitchen." Chris waited a second for a response and then headed toward the kitchen.
Lorelai took one more glance in the mirror not happy with the woman she saw. She wiped a few more tears and chose to contain herself long enough to get outside.
Chris was at the kitchen table reading the paper. "Morning beautiful" Chris stood up and grabbed the coffee pot "I made coffee."
Lorelai stopped him before he started to pour.
"I should go Chris" she put a fake smile on her face but refused to look him in the eye
"Lor, stay and have something to eat." He walked toward her a wrapped his arms around her waist. "Let's spend some time today, just us?"
"Chris." Lorelai pushed his hands from her waist
"What Lor?" Chris stepped back "What are you doing?"
"Last night." She began
"Was amazing!" he cut her off "It was only a matter of time and you I and both know that. There's a reason we keep ending up together, a reason you and I always end up together."
"You're right." Lorelai responded trying to hold back the tears "Because I keep going against my heart, what I know is right and what I feel."
"What?" Chris was stunned "Are you kidding me?" he stared hard at her "Is this a game to you?"
"No." she spoke softly as tears began to stain her cheeks. "You mean like chess? No..It's certainly not a game. I…" but he cut her off
"I tell you how I feel, you turn me down, you flat out reject me, push me out of your life for months and then bam you just show up at my door one night, telling me what you need and what you want."
"I'm sorry."
"You're sorry." He snickered "You think sorry is going to erase the fact that you cheated with me on your fiancé? You think sorry is going to change the fact that you keep using me, you think sorry is going to change the way we feel about each other?"
"The way we feel?" She repeated his last words "Chris I have to be honest with you, I don't know how I feel about you."
"You don't know how you feel? Well how did you feel last night when you were all over me asking me to hold you, begging me to want you."
Lorelai dropped her head "I don't…" she trailed off "I don't know what to say."
"That's a shock Lorelai Gilmore has nothing to say!" Chris shook his head "No!" he yelled chasing after Lorelai as she turned and headed out the door "You can't just walk out of here, we need to talk about this, we need to finish this!" he grabbed her arm "You keep doing this to me, And I take it, and I grin and bear it..."
"Stop yelling at me!" Lorelai tried to pull away
"You treat me like I'm not good enough, like your better then I am, but you're not Lorelai. What do you think this makes you? What do you think your friends back in Stars Hollow are going to think of you now? You're living proof of everything that's wrong with love and relationships. It's people like you who don't know what they want and yet they walk all over everyone around them to get it and at the end of the day what do you have?" he paused tightening his grip "You have nothing, you have no one, and do you know why Lor? Because no one takes you seriously, you're a disgrace and you're a disappointment, people don't respect you, why would they, you make a mess out of everything and out of everyone."
"Let go…You're hurting me!" she tried once more but failed to break from his grip
"You're not going anywhere Lor so just stop."
"No." she responded as she dropped her purse and her shoes and grabbed at his arm. She had had enough all she wanted to do was leave "I can't talk to you when you are like this; you need to calm down before we can talk this out."
"Talk!" he retorted you didn't want to talk last night. Just tell me one thing was it as good for you as it was for me?" he leaned in and whispered in her ear making Lorelai shiver.
"I don't know why I did it." She snapped back "I guess I was feeling so horrible that I never imagined things couldn't get any worse. I realize now that I made the biggest mistake of my life." She added digging her nails into his arm.
Chris pulled his arm back at the pain he began to feel "mistake." He whispered not thinking about what he was about to do.
Within seconds Lorelai had felt the sting across her cheek, instantly her hand went to her now burning face and she stumbled back in disbelief.
Chris stepped back shocked at his own actions, and watched as tears welled up in her eyes and he began to feel his own.
"Lor. I" he stepped forward instantly regretting what he had done
"Don't!" she stepped back "Don't come any closer."
She grabbed her purse and shoes from the ground and ran to her car.
Luke was sitting on the front porch of her house when Lorelai arrived home.
Luke jumped up and opened her door to her jeep "Lorelai where have you been I was worried?"
"Luke." She stepped out with a blank expression
"Lorelai?" he looked at her tear stained face "Are you okay?"
Lorelai looked up at him
"I want to do this; I want us to get married" he grabbed her hand "we can go now!"
Lorelai pulled away "we can't"
Luke shook his head "What do you mean we can't? We can, I shouldn't have let you walk away last night I've been sitting here all night waiting for you. I want to marry you Lorelai, I love you."
"I can't" she repeated
"I don't understand. You keep saying that?"
Lorelai looked him in the eyes "I'm so sorry." She tried to hold back the tears " I didn't me to hurt you."
"Hurt me? You didn't." Luke took her face in his hands. He noticed the red mark on her face and reached up to touch her "Lorelai what…" he began
"I slept with Christopher."
Luke dropped his hands and stepped back
"I'm sorry" he paused "You what?"
"I'm so sorry, It didn't mean anything, I don't know why I even went there. I was so upset, and you, you didn't want to…"
"Hold on a second, you're blaming me?"
"No!" Lorelai reached for his hand
"Don't, you can't hold my hand and hope everything will be fine!" he pulled away
"It didn't mean anything. It was a big a mistake."
"But you didn't whether it was a mistake or not!" he shouted "We have one fight, you come at with an ultimatum out of nowhere and I don't agree with you and so you jump into bed with your ex.!"
"I didn't plan on it, I had no where to go, I needed to talk to someone."
"Well the last I checked, you didn't need to take your clothes off to talk to someone!" he screamed.
"I don't know what you want me to say!" she watched as he walked past her, and toward his truck. "Luke. Please don't go."
"I can't do this with you right now. I can't even look at you!"
"Wait, No, Luke; please!" Lorelai overcome with emotion fell to the ground. "Luke," she spoke between uncontrollable sobs "I'm so sorry."
TBC